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Faith and Fear in Flushing made its debut on Feb. 16, 2005, the brainchild of two longtime friends and lifelong Met fans.

Greg Prince discovered the Mets when he was 6, during the magical summer of 1969. He is a Long Island-based writer, editor and communications consultant. Contact him here.

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The Day I Was Dashing

Welcome to Flashback Friday: Tales From The Log, a final-season tribute to Shea Stadium as viewed primarily through the prism of what I have seen there for myself, namely 383 regular-season and 13 postseason games to date. The Log records the numbers. The Tales tell the stories.

9/6/98 Su Atlanta 5-8 Reed 9 70-70 L 4-0

It started with a picture, a picture of me on the floor of Madison Square Garden. I was friendly with the PR contact of a sponsor of the Liberty. She said she could get Stephanie and me tickets to see them on an upcoming Sunday. Not only that, but if we showed up early enough, we could be part of a youth clinic they were holding. We weren’t youthful and we weren’t looking to improve our jump shots, but it was a chance, she said, to set foot on the Garden floor.

We went, we stood, we took pictures. We tried not to get in the way of the kids who were learning basketball and whichever injured Liberty player got stuck conducting the clinic. All we wanted was to stand on the floor of MSG, the same floor where our girls of summer played, the same locale where the Knicks of my childhood won championships. I wasn’t really into basketball by the time I was 35, but it was the Garden.

I had the pictures. I brought them to work. I passed them around. I announced it was the first time I’d ever experienced anything quite like that. Never been on a professional court or field. I showed them to a friend, Jim in sales. He was a big Knicks fan and a resurgent Mets fan. He was impressed enough, but he got to thinking about me. Me on the floor of the Garden…that’s fine, but that, he later told me, was not where I needed to be.

He saw fit to fix that.

It’s weeks later. Jim knows someone who works in the Mets’ ticket department, Michelle. Hey, he says, Michelle can get us free tickets for Sunday, against the Braves — wanna go? Like I wouldn’t.

Jim told me to expect something special, but wouldn’t let on. I had no idea what he was planning. He let on when we met. He wanted very much, he said, to get me on the field for the postgame DynaMets Dash. He thought it absurd that I had been on the floor of the Garden but never on the field at Shea. How was it possible that had happened?

Gosh, I said, I don’t know. It just is.

Alas, Jim said, Michelle probably won’t be able to pull it off. Too much going on on her end. But we do have the tickets, so let’s go inside. We stopped by Michelle’s desk in the ticket office and I thanked both of them for even trying and, for that matter, the tickets to this relatively big game. Michelle said she’d come by with an update if anything changed.

Field Level seats, perfectly all right. Braves beating the Mets, perfectly dreadful. The Mets needed the game in their Wild Card chase with the Cubs. They weren’t getting it. There was nothing of value to recall from the actual contest.

‘Til the top of the ninth. That’s when Michelle reappeared in our midst and said we should come with her.

We were going Dashing after all.

Michelle led Jim and me through concourses and corridors and secret pathways — saw Fox Sports Net New York’s Matt Loughlin, Newsday‘s Marty Noble and Braves callup Marty Malloy en route — that you couldn’t get through if you were an ordinary person. But Michelle was extraordinary. She flashed her credentials and brought Jim and me to the area behind home plate.

I don’t mean the seats. I mean the area behind home plate where the grounds crew gathered. It’s not plainly visible any longer. In 1999 high-roller seats were installed there. But for years you saw the little windows from which Pete Flynn and his men stared out at the field, where the umpires were supplied with fresh baseballs. It never occurred to me that I’d be behind those windows, on the inside looking out.

Michelle, Jim and I watched the bottom of the ninth with Pete Flynn, head groundskeeper of Shea Stadium, a celebrity in his own right. Pete Flynn had been with the Mets since 1962. He was the wet blanket who grumbled in a brogue about the fans who tore up his precious grass in the aftermath of the ’86 division clincher, about how they didn’t deserve a winner. Security saw to it that there would never be another stampede like that no matter what the Mets might win.

But there was the DynaMets Dash, invented in ’94 to promote a little goodwill after the bad taste of ’93. “The best promotion in baseball,” Howie Rose called it. Its beauty was its simplicity: Parents lined up outside the centerfield fence around the seventh inning, as they might have themselves when they were kids with Banner Day entries. Except this time they walked their own children around the warning track to the infield. From there the kids (and maybe a few parents if the kids were toddlers) were permitted to stumble around the bases for precious moments.

Or, if you knew someone like Michelle, you could be labeled a V.I.P. in the loosest sense of the phrase and get to jump the line. You didn’t go to the centerfield gate. You waited with Pete Flynn. It was the ninth and it didn’t appear there would be a tenth, so Pete and his boys were ready to set up the field for the small invaders and a couple of big ones.

Michelle introduced Jim and me to Pete Flynn. Pete Flynn sized us up — literally.

“Aren’t you two a little big for this?” he asked.

“No,” I said. “We’re just taking that stuff McGwire had in his locker.”

Pete Flynn laughed.

I made Pete Flynn laugh.

John Smoltz struck out John Olerud to end the 4-0 loss, the most incidental 4-0 loss in the history of Shea Stadium, Wild Card race or not. Never mind the Wild Card race. I had a Dash to make. Michelle said “c’mon” and we walked out onto the field from behind home plate.

I WAS ON THE FIELD AT SHEA STADIUM! Thirty seasons of watching on TV or from the seats above us and this was the first time. It was a standing dream, one I never saw materializing. But here I was and here it was.

I WAS ON THE FIELD AT SHEA STADIUM! The lifelong focus of my attention was now, however temporarily, my playground. It was my pedestrian walkway. In a moment it would be my path from first base to home plate.

I WAS ON THE FIELD AT SHEA STADIUM! You look up at the stands when you stand there. You’re atop the world yet you’re below everything. You’re below street level, I imagine. What strikes you, or struck me anyway, is the orangeness of the field boxes. It’s dazzling. The fans were gone by the time we got to our starting blocks. Some team employees sat down to watch the proceedings. Maybe they had relatives who were going to take to the basepaths. Nobody was there to see Jim or me, but there we were.

On the field at Shea Stadium.

When you Dash, you are kept the hell off the grass. You start from first, not home. And the bases are not where the bases are. They are replaced by on-deck circle mats with Mets logos.

Who cared? It was Shea Stadium, on the field, on the diamond. Christ almighty.

Jim and I were like second and third in line. Boy that Michelle was good. Before I had a chance to think, somebody told me to GO! So I went. I took off from first like Brian McRae.

Or Hal McRae. Or perhaps Hal McRae’s maternal grandmother. Didn’t matter. I was running on the basepaths at Shea Stadium. And I was heading for second. It wasn’t second base. It was second mat. But it was good enough for the likes of me.

The Mets stationed grounds crew members at each stop to encourage the kids along and keep them from straying. For the likes of me, they were there to crack wise.

“Aren’t you a little big for this?” one asked.

“I’m big for my age,” I blurted.

I wasn’t thinking about that. I was thinking, I swear, cut the inside of the bag — don’t make a wide turn. I hadn’t been in any kind of competitive baseball/softball situation in nine years, I was an obvious ringer on a lark, I was overweight and overage, yet I was determined to do this right. Cut the inside of the bag at second.

So I did. And I headed to third. The grounds grew guys there asked, “Aren’t you a little big…?”

Yeah, yeah, I’ve heard it before. Save it for the next unconscionably lucky soul who knows someone who knows someone and they team up to make that guy’s dream come true. Mine, right now, is to round third and make it home.

And I did. I didn’t collapse. I didn’t breathe hard. I didn’t accidentally stampede any children — the children of V.I.P.’s. I was enveloped by the orange before me.

I was safe.

I think Jim went after I did because there is a picture of me running from first to second. I’m pretty sure he snapped it. Unless Michelle did. I can’t quite recall. But you see me about three-quarters of the way to second. There are couple of tots eating my dust. And, for no good reason except my general distrust of mankind, there is my schlep bag on my right shoulder. In the instant I was told to GO! I decided I better not leave my stuff unattended. Like something was going to happen to it on the field at Shea Stadium.

I did it. I ran around the bases, or at least what were used as bases for as much of the basepaths on which I was permitted to tread. Two-hundred seventy beautiful feet, first to home. I did something I never thought would be possible. I scored.

Alone Again (Naturally?)

For those of you who missed the West Coast final:

Phillies 1

DODGERS 3

The Phillies got themselves swept out of Chavez Ravine, enabling the Mets, who for once treated a last-place team like dirt, to retake first place all by their splendid lonesomes.

Question then: Are the Phillies that lame? 'Cause I suspect we ain't quite that good.

Oh, we're all right, all right. We're capable. We pitch with confidence for seven or so innings most nights. But we're also coming off a three-game series against the Washington Nationals, a unit so bereft at this time they should be demoted to Regionals. Last time we played a non-National entity, we gave back a 5-1 lead — and we're playing that bunch all over again. Yes, the Pirates are technically underwhelming, but we know better, don't we? We know what happens when the Mets go to Pittsburgh. We play our worst baseball in the league's best setting.

In 2005, they left us hospitalized.

In 2006, they were party killers.

In 2007, they forced us to erase history.

I love PNC Park. I hate the Mets playing there.

Meanwhile, the talented Phillies of Ryan Howard, Chase Utley, Pat Burrell and Shane Victorino (among others, though few of the others are pitchers) drag their tails to San Diego. The Padres are about as dismal as the Nats, yet that didn't stop the Pads from brooming us in June, which is to say anything good or bad could happen to anybody in the N.L. from here on out. I would choose to get comfortable alone in first place but I wouldn't necessarily plan on it.

Since when does that work?

Even We Were Optimistic About This One

Next time we’re up 12 in the 5th and the opponents have just one hit, we’ll consider smiling again.

You Don't F— With a Winning Streak

Wham! Biff! Pow! Sock!

The Mets were finally doing what they're supposed to do to teams like the Nats, the torrential rains that threatened to engulf New York had spared D.C., and Oliver Perez was looking unbeatable, benefiting from absurd movement on his pitches, overaggressive Nats hitters and a generous strike zone. I extracted some bitter amusement from Carlos Delgado hitting one over Willie Harris's head — earlier in the night SNY showed Harris in a Brave uniform robbing Delgado, a short-circuited comeback that Joshua and I witnessed at Shea last year, and that still struck me as deeply unfair. (How DARE you deny a four-year-old boy's belief in happy endings, you Brave fourth outfielder! The NERVE!) Only thing of note on the night's schedule was I had a 35th-birthday affair for a friend in lower Manhattan.

Ah what the hell, I thought when Emily returned from Pilates for the handoff of parental duties. It's 5-0 and Oliver looks great.

So I blithely headed out into the suddenly rain-free night, and what's more — this is the point where I'm pretty sure the baseball gods looked down from the diamonds of Olympus and frowned — I decided not to take the radio. Um, because I was already carrying an umbrella, or something, and there wasn't room for a radio in the giant pair of cargo shorts with all the extra pockets. As if Monday's freaking disaster — I was not only in attendance for but also kept score for the first time in years — was something that happened years ago.

So I walk into the Tribeca Tavern and it's 5-3. As in “no longer 5-0.” If baseball were a fishing trip, 5-0 would be reeling in flounder and the humidity's low and the bugs aren't an issue and perfect song after perfect song is coming in on the transistor radio. 5-3 is different. 5-3 is warm beer and the boat is leaking and the fish aren't biting and you have Deet in your eyes and you've got an uneasy feeling you screwed up the tide tables and so matters will soon be worse.

“Goddamnit — who blew it?” I demanded somewhat anticipatorally of a luckless guy in a Met hat who seemed to be looking at the TV. (Points to the Tribeca Tavern for consigning the Olympics to the little satellite TVs, BTW.)

“Oliver got tired,” he said.

“Not the bullpen?” I asked, genuinely shocked.

No, not the bullpen.

Chastened, I settled down to my proper station and the business of willing miscreant relievers across the finish line. (What the hell, Tim had about 8,750 hours to get used to being 35.) Joe Smith's slider wasn't going anywhere near where it should have been going. He was excused. Duaner escaped thanks to a nifty jai alai pickup by David Wright. And then the Nats commenced to play stupid, and that was that. But I wasn't so much pleased as I was relieved. The baseball gods had proven their point, we were safe, and no one — even if it would have just been me in the privacy of my superstitious little soul — could claim it was my fault.

All the Gold's in California

There's a phrase I use almost as frequently as “oh boy, the Olympics!” and that would be “I love me some Los Angeles Dodgers!” But I do love me some Los Angeles Dodgers (!), for it is they who have won three consecutive games — including two in resounding late night walkoff fashion — over your Philadelphia Phillies. And with your Philadelphia Phillies stumbling around in the dark, your New York Mets have reconvened a first-place tie in the National League East.

Joe Torre…we love it!

Jeff Kent…we love it!

Brad Penny…we love it!

Sure, why not? Pennant races make strange bedfellows when it's after most decent East Coast people's bedtimes (I, of course, was wide awake when Nomar Garciaparra took Clay Condrey deeper than the night, stronger than the north wind blowing; I, of course, make no claim on decency). Should it all come back around to another Mets-Dodgers playoff series…well, talk about carts and horses all out of sequential whack. For now, we've got one more game in which we love us some Los Angeles Dodgers (and, for that matter, some St. Louis Cardinals in Miami). Brett Myers is pitching for the Phillies tonight. With Brett Myers on the hill, the repressive forces of communist China would look sympathetic.

Meanwhile, little-known American swimmer Michael Phelps strives desperately to garner the tiniest bit of attention within the vast shadow cast by the worldwide phenomenon that is Daniel Murphy. Phelps has won five gold medals, albeit in total obscurity, this Olympiad. Murphy, as the nonstop headlines and newscasts constantly remind us, is batting .467 in his first thirty Major League at-bats. NBC has left behind a skeleton crew in Beijing to record the remaining swimming events on the off chance anybody's still interested. Matt Lauer, Meredith Vieira and Al Roker are broadcasting live this morning from in front of Murph's hotel room in Washington. Can't they let the poor kid excel in peace?

Faith and Fear in Brooklyn

Faith and Fear does occasionally have some business to attend to, so periodically your bloggers get together to exchange blog-related news and ideas. (“Faith and Fear: The Interpretive Dance” will blow you away with both its kinetic nuance and its rococo wardrobe.) But tonight we were wary that the Olympics would squeeze the Mets off the TV in various bars and pubs, so we opted for a sit-down at my house. And thus it was that Greg and I held down either end of the couch and passed papers back and forth with the Mets as backdrop.

And what a backdrop! While we were chewing over our agenda for the night, Mets kept hitting and running around and getting walked and the score kept climbing. “You know,” Greg said finally, with cheerful disbelief, “I just realized that the Mets have been up since I got to your house.”

If only it were always so easy. I actually felt sorry for Jason Bergmann, left in to absorb a fearful beating for no apparent reason. Soon enough Keith was doing his usual blowout thing of all but ordering SNY's viewers to turn off the game and do something more interesting with their evening (they must love that in the truck), the two of us and Emily were comparing the horrible local ads that run in Kings County with the horrible local ads that run in Nassau County, and the only suspense was whether Brian Stokes would earn a rather ludicrous save. Well, unless you count whether any Nats fans would be left above the loge. If there were, I tip my cap to them. The Nats had four hits and are now 33 games under .500 — at the risk of getting all Mex on you, that's devotion, even on a nice summer night.

These games are the flipside of fiascos like Monday's implosion against the Pirates, which was the kind of game that's like letting the water gurgle out of the warm bath of the soul. Except we tend to go into cruise control during laughers, chatting and reading and attending to household business, while bullpen meltdowns and ill-timed offensive brownouts and other varieties of cruel defeat leave us stretched out on the rack, helplessly focused on the awful things that are happening to us. Or, to borrow from some writer preoccupied with something other than baseball, laughers are all alike, but every bitter defeat is bitter in its own way.

Ideal for Evening on the South Side

Because it wasn’t enough to surprise the kid by flying him to Chicago and taking him to Wrigley Field in the afternoon, mom Sharon and dad Kevin doubled up the “WE’RE WHAT?” factor by taking Ross to new Comiskey Park (a.k.a. U.S. Cellular Field) for the White Sox game the same night…fireworks night, at that. Both Chicago teams won at home that day, which only seems fitting.

Pretty good 12th birthday, don’t you think? And pretty sharp shirt he celebrated it in. Yours is pretty fitting and available by clicking here.

Perfect for a Day on the North Side

On the occasion of his 12th birthday last week, Ross was awakened and whisked away by the greatest parents the world has ever known last Friday. Other than “get in the car,” he wasn’t told they were going to the airport or flying to Chicago or headed to Wrigley Field for the afternoon.

Of course his mom Sharon packed the essential Faith and Fear in Flushing shirt that you can wear wherever you are whisked by clicking here.

FAFIF Shirt Meets HOF Cub

You already know Ross Chapman. The guy with the mustache is newest Hall of Fame inductee Goose Gossage, who pitched for a while with the Cubs but was inducted as an Auto Trader. The shirt enjoyed a whirlwind trip to Chicago recently on the occasion of Ross’ 12th birthday.

Dress for your Hall of Fame encounters with your very own Faith and Fear shirt by clicking here.

Roulette, That's the Game Now

Well, they showed us. That bullpen of ours — they sure don't stink!

For one night they did all right, Smith and Feliciano in particular. Was it all because Jerry Manuel called them out, challenged them, questioned their intestinal fortitude? Because Jerry Manuel, as smooth an operator with the press as any Mets manager, is smart enough to call it as it truly is? Because sooner or later you're going to have the roulette wheel spin your way?

Is that what it takes to get six outs around here?

I don't know if I ever dreaded the Mets holding a lead the way I was dreading it all day Tuesday. Even the thought they'd hold a lead frightened me. One run? Three runs? Ten runs? It wouldn't be enough. I knew it, you knew it, everybody knew it.

Except for that plucky band of bullpeners who met before the game at the behest of temporary relief corps captain Scott Schoeneweis and decided that enough simultaneous sucking and blowing was enough.

Manuel had made it clear (as if it had to be clarified) that the performance on Monday was abysmal and that a change was gonna have to come. It would come from Eddie Kunz if necessary; it would come from Sammy Starter if it had to. I don't know about Kunz, the backpack-toting rookie, but apparently the notion that one of those hothouse flower boys from the rotation would be sent to the 'pen to right the sinking ship seemed to offend the delicate sensibilities of those paid handsomely to get an out here, an out there. Other Pedro answered afterward to Kevin Burkhardt that yes, it was something of an insult. Schoeneweis, the beat writer's temporary designated go-to reliever (Feliciano gets the save, Scott gets the questions; what was that Lo Duca said about other guys on the team speaking English?), revealed he had called a crisis meeting before the Nats game. With Wagner out, he took it upon himself to be their leader. Leader of a lost and troubled tribe at least before Tuesday. And like Feliciano, Schoeneweis all but spat with rage (albeit nicely) about how wrong it would have been for a Perez or a Pelfrey or, once activated, a Maine to be cast among them.

And not because it would be a blot on a Perez or a Pelfrey or a Maine to associate with the likes of Schoeneweis, Sanchez, Heilman, Smith and Feliciano.

You have to admire the relievers' chutzpah, acting as if their exclusive club is too good to be breached by men who sometimes have to throw six, even seven innings. Now I don't know if Ollie or Pelf or the recovering Johnny Maine could adjust to life among the specialists. Once in a great while, however, a starter takes one for the team and it sends a great message. Twenty-nine years ago, Goose Gossage had his thumb broken by Cliff Johnson in a clubhouse tiff and defending Cy Young winner Ron Guidry stepped in to serve as Yankee closer. It was a remarkable gesture and it even worked for a while. That was 1979. That was Billy Martin managing. Still, that was chutzpah.

Maybe Manuel's threat that if you fellas don't clean up your act, I'll be sending a new broom down to the 'pen to clean it up for you breached their weird sense of entitlement. Maybe it occurred to the lot of them that, as Schoeneweis put it of their arsonist ways, “Enough was enough.”

So they couldn't have had this fantastic meeting before the loss to the Pirates?