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Faith and Fear in Flushing made its debut on Feb. 16, 2005, the brainchild of two longtime friends and lifelong Met fans.

Greg Prince discovered the Mets when he was 6, during the magical summer of 1969. He is a Long Island-based writer, editor and communications consultant. Contact him here.

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It's Like Cricket, Only It Makes Sense

Greetings from London!

London turns out to be very nice. It's got marvelous, monumental governmental architecture everywhere, which I assume reflects a greater acceptance of state power than would have flown when our own country was building edifices, but that's another blog. (And a pretty dull one, too.) Though speaking of government, for better or for worse there's a lot more of it here than most of us are used to — sex shops (Soho's main drag for CD shopping also turns out to be the boulevard of peep shows and porny DVDs and what-not) all note that they're licensed, the vinegar for my fish and chips (sans “mushy peas”) carried an incomprehensible, legalistic notice declaring it to be a “non-brewed condiment,” and everywhere you go there's evidence that an entire class of civil servants spends all day thinking of how exactly you should line up, where you should drive and what should happen to you if you don't do things that way. (I don't want to know what the duties of a British sex-shop inspector entail.) And there's an aura of default politeness that's really strange for a New Yorker — in London construction signs say things like “We Are Sorry for Any Inconvenience,” while back home all you get is ESCALATOR CLOSED FOR REPAIR UNTIL [DATE THAT'S NOW EIGHT MONTHS PAST.]

This is a pretty awesome city, one that's fun and really seems to work. There's tons to do and see, uniformed folks everywhere sweeping and fixing, and the (incessant) announcements in the train stations can be easily understood. Though today it was sunny and 75 — I wonder if I'll like it as well when it's clammy.

Walking around today (on three hours of sleep, wheee!) I saw the occasional Yankee cap as totem of Americana and passed a random store on Oxford Street that had an assortment of baseball caps — Yankees, White Sox, Pirates and Cardinals. But I did see something else that felt familiar, even if there was no baseball involved. Around noontime, every pub I walked by had a gaggle of guys in soccer jerseys outside, drinking pints and shifting their feet and looking fidgety. The here-but-not-really-here look of fans who are antsy for the game to hurry up and start already is universal.

And then the Eureka moment. At Trafalgar Square, I spotted a familiar shade of blue by the massive plinth from which Admiral Nelson stares down at the city. Could it be? It was — a faux Mets shirt, with a very welcome WRIGHT 5 on the back. The Mets may be having their problems with the Phillies, but they're on the board in London.

(By the way, so far this game sucks as much on MLB.TV at 7 p.m. in London as I imagine it does on old-fashioned TV at 2 p.m. in New York. Come ON, for Chrissakes.)

Death to the In-Philadels

“Y’know, I’ve worked for your people a long time. They run this town. They run it a helluva lot better than the agents.”
—Artie to Hank Kingsley, “My Name is Asher Kingsley,” The Larry Sanders Show

I don’t like our new worst enemy. And I’m not referring to the Mets bullpen. Or even this crooked umpiring crew.

Come back Braves! Nothing is forgiven, but I liked and respected our rivalry, even before (but especially in) 2006 and 2007. Not so much the Chipper and the Andruw and the Francoeur and the Smoltz and the so forth, but I liked that when you schlepped up here from Georgia, you schlepped few of your supporters in tow. There’s always been a smattering of Braveophiles at Shea, just enough so that you knew we were playing America’s Erstwhile Team. When the Joneses did their damage, there’d be a very light and scattered mist of applause, barely audible amid all our booing. You’d see a Braves fan and you couldn’t really get mad. Mostly you’d get mystified.

I didn’t know there were actually Braves fans.

So we go out and once and for all (for a second year in a row) dispose of the Braves. The king is dead (again), long live the king. That was the other night. Do we get to rest on our laurels? No, two days later we have a new challenger to the throne. And I do not care for them one iota.

Yes, the Phillies have always been on the menu and Philadelphia has always been within easy traveling distance and sometimes Philadelphia has produced a quality baseball product. But none of that ever congealed at once into the big wad of hate that is currently visiting its blight upon Shea Stadium.

Get these people out of my ballpark! I don’t want them around. Visitors inflicting themselves on the home team? That’s our thing! We get to treat Citizens Bank like our summer cottage. They, on the other hand, are permitted no more than the allotted 150 tickets fans that every team should get under my Met Fairness plan (let them enter a lottery like everybody else who wants in). In all my years of attending Phillies @ Mets games, which is more than thirty, I’ve never seen as many Philadelphians appear in Flushing as those who have descended like mosquitoes these last two days.

If they’re going to bring the karma equivalent of West Nile Virus, the least they could do is bring cheesesteaks.

I don’t need their lame chants. I don’t need their lame chats. I don’t need to hear about the Eagles and the Flyers and the traffic on I-295. I don’t need all that woeful crimson. And I don’t need them to be happy.

As for who they’re here to urge on, I don’t need them either. I don’t need Jimmy Rollins’ obnoxious tendency to back up his words. I don’t need Aaron Rowand to perform up to the world championship standards he set only two years ago. I don’t need Brett Myers let out in public — nor does the public.

The Mets don’t need the Phillies anywhere near them. It’s obvious they’re not a good fit for our countdown and tuneup plans. They’re miserable September guests. They’re not welcome here in October. I’m one loss away from believing we may not be either.

Come back Braves and Braves fans. I’ve hated you people a long time, but you held up your end of the rivalry much less annoyingly than the Phillies and their crowd do.

Profuse thanks to CharlieH and PedroM for providing whatever good there was on this particular Saturday at Shea before it all went to Philad-hell…and if anybody tomorrow brings four empty whiskey bottles bearing the names Emmel, Iassogna, Scott and Kulpa, I promise to look the other way.

The Only Difference

At one point during last night's game, I turned to Emily and said something along the lines of “If this were Game 163, with a playoff spot on the line, Met fans all over the city would be dropping dead of heart attacks.”

As it was, it wasn't anything like that. (And no heart attacks. We're going to the playoffs. Really, we are. Relax already.) Without the threat of cardiac arrest, we were left with nothing more than a taut, marvelous game between a team battling for its life and a team playing remarkably good baseball. One with guys clawing and biting and scrapping for every base, and one following the leads of an MVP candidate and emerging superstar and a Hall of Fame pitcher. And the latter team in great-looking uniforms we should really see more often.

I mean, there was Wright's ice-breaking drive over the fence, followed by his remarkable, Keith Hernandez In Reverse spearing of Jamie Moyer's pop bunt for a double play. There was Chase Utley playing his Ut-most as usual, one-upping Wright's solo shot with a crucial two-run blast of his own. There was Tom Glavine making everybody in red and gray but Utley look silly, and Moyer turning aside rally after rally from those in blue and orange. There was a huge crowd roaring “MVP! MVP!” and “Jose Jose Jose!” and booing every move Jimmy Rollins and Pat Burrell made. There was an umpire making an idiot out of himself — somebody tell Paul Emmel that nobody comes to the park to see him reinterpret the strike zone to make a point of etiquette to Jose Reyes, watch Phillie relievers twitch as he accordions between strike calls at the knees and no such calls, or throw gasoline on the flaming torch that is Paul Lo Duca.

Still, I wasn't too bothered by Emmel — he was playing the role of mutually agreed-upon heel. No, everything about this game was marvelous except for the ending — engineered by that curling foul pop that a scrambling Mike DiFelice caught with his neck instead of his glove, and Aaron Heilman's too-hasty throw to second. Those were really the Mets' only blemishes, and they proved fatal. But then this was the kind of game in which you sensed the first team to make a mistake and allow extra outs would pay dearly for it. And now that there's a chill creeping into the night air, isn't that the way baseball's supposed to work?

Pauls, You're Not Helping

Why can’t we beat the Braves Phillies? We never beat the Braves Phillies when it counts. If we don’t figure out how to beat the Braves Phillies and soon, we’re going to be screwed.

Same yips, different series.

It helps to have a lead bigger than your hand when you decide to lose your sixth in a row to your closest rival, whoever they are. It helps to have perspective that in the middle of September it’s awfully hard to blow 5-1/2 games in two weeks…though we are facing the franchise whose predecessors once did worse. It helps to remember the real magic numbers of any Friday night with a Saturday afternoon running right behind it are 162 and 1:10.

Just one game. But what a lousy one to lose.

Culprits? Plenty.

Paul Emmel Funny, my ticket for the very first row of the upper deck box behind home plate with a better than usual view of the plate said I was going to a baseball game, not the The Paul Fucking Emmel Show. Congratulations, you’re the star of the evening. HEY! LOOK AT ME! I’M PAUL EMMELS! I COULDN’T TELL BALL FOUR FROM BALL FIVE FROM BALL SIX! I JUST CALLED OUT JOSE REYES! I’M AWESOME! Then as an encore you can’t just turn away from one of the starting catchers and let him vent? Turn in your chest protector.

Paul Lo Duca Learn to shut the fuck up, sometimes, OK? We get it, you’re passionate. Channel the passion into the passion of serenity. I thought catchers and umpires had some sort of simpatico going. Nice way to blow whatever credibility you had with that breed of idiots. Paul, you’re not helping.

Mike DiFelice OK, you were cold. OK, you’re barely active as it is. But it was a popup that was in your freaking mitt.

Aaron Heilman What is it with you and throws and the Phillies?

Jose Reyes The Professor needs a class in remedial hitting.

Jeff Conine Whatever number you’re wearing, I’m beginning to suspect it shouldn’t be on a Mets jersey.

The Iron Triangle The wind was blowing in from the chop shops, the area the city has tried to ignore all these years by not installing sewers. Tonight it was apparent…and redolent.

The Phillies Batboy From Box 700A, seat 1, I watched you chase down a foul ball and sit on a stool by the Mets’ dugout for an entire at-bat. One Phillies uniform among a crowd of Mets. That seemed rather bush. Plus you left Jamie Moyer’s jacket unattended in their on-deck circle. Whose nephew are you anyway?

The Phillies Fans It took you all these years to find out the New Jersey Turnpike runs north? Maybe I’ll see you at Shea later today. Sunday, too? Eagles don’t kick off ’til Monday at 8:30…c’mon, enjoy Phillies baseball while it lasts.

Dog Night Get off the field.

The Scoreboard Operator Great that you gave Cyclones updates when they led. Odd how they disappeared by the fifth.

Lousy night in Queens. And Brooklyn. And, though we pay no attention officially, Boston. At least the Braves won…and it doesn’t help them one little bit.

Terry and the Pirates (and then some)

If you figured this one was coming eventually, then it’s the Flashback Friday you’ve been dreading at Faith and Fear in Flushing.

Usually I get to sneak these commemorations in on the sly. Goodness knows I’ve had an exclusive on the tenth anniversary of 1997. Nobody scooped me on my 1977 Newsday route, Joe Torre’s 1967 Topps card or Susan Prince’s 1957 birth.

But you’d have to get up pretty early to beat the rush to remember the Terry Pendleton game before anybody else. And I don’t get up particularly early.

Even if every night this week on SNY — with two real, live actors from the original production re-airing their grievances in a veritable loop — hadn’t been a veritable Pendletonian parade of regret, and even if Dan Graziano hadn’t recorded in the Star-Ledger the searing irony of Pendleton and his pitch-server Roger McDowell sitting at Shea in archrival uniforms twenty years to the day since they became linked in Met infamy, sneaking the Pendleton anniversary past Mets fans would be like trying to sneak sunrise past a rooster.

No Mets fan doesn’t know about it. No Mets fan with working organs doesn’t ache from it. Every Mets fan who was around for it remembers where he or she was when it happened.

It was September 11, 1987. Last year I read a blog that referred to it as “the other September 11,” which I thought was astoundingly insensitive…but not altogether without contextual accuracy.

If you were out of the country or born later or never once thought to ask why there is no disc between the 1986 and 1988 placards on the wall above the right field corner, this is the essence of what happened:

• The Mets were about to win a very important game.

• Instead they lost it.

• Pendleton, third baseman for the Cardinals, hit the home run that tied it in the top of the ninth.

• Somebody else did something else and the Cardinals won in ten.

• And there, more or less, went the 1987 Mets.

Reflecting on all that went wrong during that worst 92-win season in Mets history, Keith Hernandez worked himself into a tizzy the other night. He recounted the pitching shorts that afflicted the Mets and how that year was the most disappointing of his career and how they should have won in ’87 as they did in ’86, as they came closer to doing in ’88. Then, like the Mets during that September twenty years ago, he pulled up short.

“Oh well,” he concluded. “Such is life.”

Me, I threw a shoe. Not this week, but two decades ago. I threw a shoe that took out a chunk of the hallway wall opposite my bedroom. It wasn’t repaired in the four years between that night and the day my father sold our house. I’ve driven by it a handful of times since 1991 and have occasionally wondered what would happen if I parked, walked up the front steps, rang the bell (much as the families of previous owners did when I was a kid in presumably more trusting times) and explained that I used to live here and I’d like to come in and have a look around to see if the dent my shoe and Terry Pendleton left in the upstairs wall still stands as a memorial to that lost season.

No disc on the Shea Stadium wall between 1986 and 1988. Just a dent from 1987 in a wall in Long Beach. Probably lots of them in lots of walls throughout the Metropolitan area.

I’m wary of giving too much spotlight to any event that already gets a little too much credit or blame amid a sequence of events. That the Pendleton game is so instantly remembered and so widely rued indicates its impact can be overstated. There was an entire season of missteps leading to September 11, 1987 and, more importantly, there were three weeks that remained to wipe up their residue. In a way, the Pendleton home run was the Scioscia home run writ large. Neither one of them technically ended anything, not even the games in which they were hit. On October 9, 1988, the Mets had the bottom of the ninth and several extra innings in which to answer Scioscia, followed by Games Five, Six and Seven. A year earlier, Pendleton’s punch to the gut didn’t have to be definitive. It wasn’t the last game of the season. It wasn’t even the last game of that series.

But Pendleton’s who and what we institutionally remember. It was dramatic. It was hit with two outs. It did come with the Cardinals — the Braves of their day and then some — behind by two. It was hit off McDowell, the quasi-zany but generally reliable reliever we could generally count on to not give up three-run leads in the ninth inning in games that not only would have been horrible to lose, but wonderful to win.

It wasn’t McDowell’s night. He walked Ozzie Smith, but teased an advancing grounder out of Tommy Herr for the first out. He struck out Dan Driessen. Then Willie McGee doubled to make it a two-run game. Then Pendleton. 4-1 became 4-2 became 4-4.

It wasn’t any Met’s night, nor any Met’s year, not in a way that would have done anybody any good. But there was still a chance to come back. McDowell himself gave up another base hit, a double to David Green, but struck out Tom Pagnozzi to leave it tied. There was no rule declaring the Mets couldn’t have won it in the bottom of the ninth. Yeesh, Bill Almon singled with one out and jogged to second on a wild pitch with Mookie Wilson at bat.

C’mon! A guy named Bill, a wild pitch, Mookie up…c’mon!

In 1987, Mookie strikes out. Even a walk to Tim Teufel goes for naught when Keith Hernandez, the all-time Mr. Clutch for this franchise, grounds out to Driessen.

Orosco replaces McDowell and allows consecutive one-out singles to Vince Coleman, Smith and Herr (5-4) and an RBI grounder to Driessen (6-4). The bottom of the tenth consisted of Darryl Strawberry striking, Kevin McReynolds flying and Gary Carter lining out against Ken Dayley.

Gone was this game.

Gone was the opportunity to move within a lousy half-game of the Cardinals.

Gone was the momentum that had carried the Mets from 10-1/2 out on July 23 despite the steady diet of Don Schulze starts that held the fort for all the disabled pitchers.

Gone was the vibe from the Newsday back page from that week that I clipped immediately and I saved for years until I couldn’t stand to look at it any longer, the one that turned a Mets cap into a birdcage about to trap a runnin’ Redbird.

Gone was the reprieve from the exhaustion of the long season in which players accused other players of jaking, players demanded more playing time, players demanded trades and almost everybody was kind of a jerk at one point or another.

Gone was Ron Darling’s near no-hitter, which lasted until there was one out in the sixth, until Coleman put down a bunt on which Darling managed to mangle his thumb and miss the rest of September.

Gone was the good sidebar cheer from Darryl’s and HoJo’s 30-30 chases.

Gone was the renaissance of the human spirit represented by Doc’s comeback from drug rehab.

Gone was anything but “oh yeah, that’s nice” from Terry Leach’s sterling 11-1 record as a spot starter and long reliever.

Gone was the shimmy from the Teufel Shuffle, a hippy hippy shake that translated to a totally unforeseen 14-61-.308 right half of the second base platoon.

Gone was the sense that there was no way we couldn’t come all the way back on these White Rat bastards.

Gone was what could have been a great and a noble comeback for the ages, to be replaced by a story pockmarked by bitter recriminations.

Gone were the defenders of the 1986 world title.

Except that there were 22 more games after September 11. From early in 1987, every time a caller to Mets Extra panicked, calm Howie Rose reminded them there were still ‘x’ number of games to be played (the first suicide he prevented came with 152 games to go after Herr socked a grand slam off Orosco on April 18). A championship-caliber club could make up 2-1/2 games with 22 to play, especially with two more at Shea against the Cardinals immediately and three at the schedule’s end. All we had to do was treat this like the bump in the road it technically was and continue to pick up ground the way we had from July 23 until September 9, when we took 29 of 45 and picked up those nine games on the Cardinals. Why couldn’t we do that?

That’s not a rhetorical question. We couldn’t do it. I just want to know why.

By September, we had most of our pitching back. OK, Darling was lost (replaced by the once great John Candelaria) but Gooden had been pretty much on fire since June. Except on September 12, he was doused. The Cardinals acted as if Saturday afternoon was simply an extension of Friday night and jumped the Doctor for five runs in the first. Still, there were 21 to go.

We did win Sunday after an insanely long rain delay (St. Louis’ last trip in and all that). Then we took three straight from the Cubs and the Expos. We even managed to close the gap back to the 1-1/2 it was before Pendleton. In fact, we hung on exactly 1-1/2 back clear through September 19, eight days after Terry’s tater. And a championship-caliber club could make up 1-1/2 games with 14 to play, especially with those three at Busch.

I thought so. But the Pirates didn’t. And the Pirates are unremarked-upon villains in the story of the 1987 Mets. For as much as you hear about Terry and the Cardinals on a Friday night in September, it was the Pirates on a Sunday and the Expos on a Thursday and the Phillies on a Wednesday all in the same month who determined there would be no Mets celebrating in early October.

Crusher No. 1: Sunday 9/20 at Three Rivers

Friday at Three Rivers had been bad enough. That one went back and forth, the Mets leading 8-5 in the fifth, but the Pirates winning 10-9. OK, those games happen, especially when you’re using your twelfth starting pitcher (Candelaria) of the year. The Mets won on Saturday, the night the Pirates got around to retiring Ralph Kiner’s number.

But Sunday…bloody Sunday. A 6-2 lead in the sixth for Sid Fernandez after Teuf jacks a three-run job off Bob Kipper. The Pirates, waking up from a several-years nap, are just beginning to feel their oats in late 1987. They have kids named Bonds and Bonilla leading their pack. They have a second-year manager named Jimmy Leyland. But they are still the Pirates. And we are still the Mets.

They, however, have Darnell Coles. Entering Sunday, Coles, the starting rightfielder, owns a batting average of .186 for 1987. He has five home runs and 24 RBI. Yet with two out, El Sid, the pitcher nobody hits all that well, loads the bases for him and Coles unloads them with one swing. It’s a grand slam, it’s 6-6 and it’s a nightmare in broad daylight.

Mazzilli and Dykstra double in the top of the eighth to retake the lead for New York, but unknown Pirate pinch-hitter Mack Daniel Sasser — Mackey, they call him — in his thirteenth big-league plate appearance, singles home the seventh Buc run of the day in the bottom of the inning.

It stays 7-7 ’til the twelfth when Teufel doubles home Keith Miller. Same inning, different half: Barry Bonds singles, is moved around the diamond on a bunt and a fly until Bobby Bonilla singles to make it 8-8.

Finally the 14th, the bottom: Bobby Ojeda surrenders a one-out triple to young Bonds. Randy Myers comes in and gives up the fly ball necessary to bring him home. Mets lose 9-8.

We’re 2-1/2 back with thirteen to go, ending with those three in St. Louis.

Crusher No. 2: Thursday 9/24 at Shea

Somehow we’ve lost no more ground to the Cardinals in the intervening three days since Darnell Coles. The margin is still 2-1/2. And the Expos are giving us every chance in the world to sweep them a two-game set. We beat them Wednesday night but trail here 5-2 in the eighth. Darryl reaches on a miscue by second baseman Tom Foley, steals second with one out and moves to third on the bad throw. He then scores on an error by the third baseman Tim Wallach. The Expos have been entertaining pennant race notions of their own all season, their record only a bit behind ours, but they are playing like they’re afraid customs will give them a hard time at LaGuardia if they beat the locals.

Come the ninth, the Mets have a golden opportunity: Mookie singles and steals off of Tim Burke. Dave Magadan strikes out, but Teufel drives him in. It’s 5-4. Bob McClure replaces Burke, a lefty to face Keith, dangerous Keith. He, too, strikes out. No worries, though: Strawberry walks. Randy St. Claire comes on to face McReynolds. Another walk. Now the bases are loaded for Gary Carter. Future Hall of Famer Gary Carter. Journeyman Randy St. Claire. World Champion Mets. Shea Stadium.

St. Claire induces a bases-loaded groundout from Kid, Wallach unassisted. Mets lose 5-4. Mets lose in three hours and fifty minutes. Mets lose by leaving eleven runners on base, including three in the ninth. Mets lose at home. And the Cardinals won.

We’re 3-1/2 back with nine to go. Three of them, if you hadn’t heard, would be on the road versus the Redbirds.

Crusher No. 3: Wednesday 9/30 at the Vet

The Mets didn’t completely fold after St. Claire. They took two of three against the Pirates to finish out their home schedule and bused down to Philly on Monday night. An unlikely combination of pitchers — Candelaria for five, Aguilera for three-and a-third and freshly minted closer Myers for the last two outs — shut down the Phillies 1-0. We had narrowed the St. Louis lead down to two again. But the next day it was the Mets who were whitewashed, Carman (a one-hitter) besting Cone. Thank goodness we had our ace going on Wednesday night.

Dwight Gooden was everything one could have hoped for once he was straight again. You could overlook that his addiction we hadn’t heard anything about until April Fool’s Day cost us two months of his badly needed services. He came back to the majors and pitched very much like the Doc we knew and loved his first three years. He was 15-7 since June 5. He would have won 20, we told ourselves, had he pitched in April and May and not snorted cocaine in the months just prior. And on this final night before the showdown in St. Louis, in this game we absolutely had to win to make those games mean anything at all, amid a do-or-die situation for the team that was struggling to stay alive, Doc Gooden did all he could.

It should have been enough. He went nine innings. He struck out ten, including two in the eighth and all three in the ninth. He retired 16 of his last 17 batters faced from the fourth ’til the ninth. He had given up three early, but following the contours of his unanticipated 1987, he righted himself in the middle and was finishing strong.

He gave the Mets life and gave Mets fans hope. Darryl homered in the fifth, a solo shot. Teufel went deep with Mookie on an inning later. It was 3-3 then and stayed 3-3 through nine. In the top of the tenth, with two out, Gooden was due up. Davey Johnson had never, ever let Dwight Gooden pitch past the ninth inning in a regular-season game before (not common for starters, but not unheard of for studs). He had permitted Doc a tenth inning in Game Five of the NLCS the year before, that classic duel with Nolan Ryan. This moment in baseball time was every bit as crucial to the Mets as that playoff game had been.

Davey pinch-hit Bill Almon for Dwight Gooden with two out and nobody on in the tenth. Almon struck out.

Jesse Orosco, no longer the closer, no longer a reasonable facsimile of the man who dropped to his knees and flung his glove skyward twice the previous October, no longer to be trusted in a tie game with the season on the line, was sent out to pitch the bottom of the tenth. He popped up Ron Roenicke for the first out. And then he threw a gopher ball to Luis Aguayo. Aguayo took note and swung.

The Mets lost 4-3.

Just as it completely escaped me why Orosco was on the mound instead of a well-rested Myers, it completely escapes me why the name Luis Aguayo doesn’t live in Met infamy alongside Terry Pendleton’s (to say nothing of Darnell Coles and Randy St. Claire), maybe ahead of it given the timing of their respective crimes. Who the hell was Luis Aguayo to be crushing a season? Pendleton would eventually win a Most Valuable Player award. Pendleton is a Major League hitting coach. I don’t know what Luis Aguayo’s doing right now. I’m sure I don’t want to know.

The Mets had played 159 games and were 3-1/2 behind the first-place Cardinals. We would be off Thursday. The Cardinals would play at home against Montreal that night. Our prospects could be summed easily:

• If the Expos beat the Cardinals, we’d be three out with three to play against the Cardinals and have at least a chance to sweep them and force a one-game playoff, one last shot to bundle 1987 with 1986 as truly Amazin’ years.

• If the Cardinals beat the Expos, the Cardinals would be division champs and we would be left to defend nothing.

What do you suppose happened?

The game was on the radio in New York. WNEW-AM broadcast a network feed. WFAN sent Howie Rose, who didn’t usually make road trips and who had repeatedly reassured us that there were still games left until there was only this game, with the team to St. Louis. He played the role of correspondent for the first and only time I can recall. He wasn’t the only member of the Met traveling party at Busch. Since the Mets were already in town, Cardinal management gave a bunch of players — including beloved Bird turned insidious city slicker Keith Hernandez — a luxury box to watch the game…to watch their demise.

On October 1, 1987, Danny Cox threw a five-hitter and the St. Louis Cardinals clinched the National League East title 8-2 in front of 48,763 fans and several of their humiliated enemies. It was perfect for them: The Cardinals led by four with three to go.

It was perfectly appropriate for us, too. It was a season of almosts. We almost caught the Cardinals who were only as good as they had to be to hold onto first. We almost won the Pendleton game. We almost beat the Pirates that Sunday. We almost came back on the Expos. We almost extinguished the Phillies. If we had taken care of those four particular bits of business — Pendleton (+3) — we win a second consecutive division title for the first time ever. We play the Giants in the NLCS and if we beat them (the Cardinals did), we play Frank Viola and the 85-win Minnesota Twins in the World Series.

But we didn’t do any of that. We were the 1987 Mets. We weren’t the 1986 Mets. We were sixteen games worse in the win column and one notch lower in the standings and utterly out of tune the entire year. In 1986, every radio station in town played that catchy “Let’s Go Mets Go” all through October. In 1987, after the Cardinals eliminated us on October 1, WNEW-FM played “The End” by the Doors. Then you didn’t hear a thing about us the rest of the month.

It was the end. Four out with three to go will clinch that much for you.

Terry Lee Pendleton did not act alone. He had accomplices all over the East, including on the amazingly unmagical Mets, where the pitchers couldn’t stay in one piece, the batters couldn’t bring runners home, the manager couldn’t remember which of his relievers he could rely on and everybody sniped, carped and nitpicked everybody else to death. It was a horrible month that ended a horrible year, one of the most horrible years I’ve ever lived through as a fan, the most horrible year I ever experienced that didn’t accompany a severe losing record because even a hot pennant race couldn’t mask the sadness and anger and shoe-flinging frustration that was perhaps due us after such a joyous ride the year before. It short-circuited the dynasty every blessed one of us expected to blossom following 1986. It wasn’t a nice and valiant try like 1985. It laid the groundwork for the perception (cemented by the loss to the Dodgers in the ’88 playoffs) that the Mets of the late 1980s weren’t anything special unless you’re impressed by all-time disappointments. 1987 basically wrecked an entire era. Of all Met seasons, I can’t believe how mad that Met season makes me to this day.

Oh well. Such is life.

Next Friday: I wish I’d said goodbye.

You're Going Where? And Doing What?

For the Mets, it was the final off-day of the regular season. For me, it was a preview of some enforced downtime.

On Saturday afternoon I'm doing something utterly ridiculous from the perspective of faithful and fearful alike. I'm getting on a plane and going to London. From there, Vienna. And Milan. And Lausanne. And Geneva. (And then home for 50-odd hours before a day and a half in Utah, of all places.) When I'm done traversing these baseball-free cities, it'll be Sept. 29, just four days from the opening of the division series. (Why would I do something so foolish? It's for work. I'm not totally insane.)

I don't have anything against Europe. If the timing were different, I'd be intrigued by all these places, none of which I've ever seen, with the exception of a seven-hour layover in London 15-odd years ago. (I took the tube, cars drove the wrong way, and they tell you which way to look crossing the street so you don't get killed. Seven hours wasn't enough time to make it stop feeling like trying to do something in the mirror.) But my goodness, there's a pennant race going on, and I'm going to miss it.

And I am going to miss it. Seeing how 7:10 starts will turn into 12:10 and 1:10 a.m. affairs, I seriously doubt there are expat bars where satellite dishes pull in Gary and Keith and Ron. (And let's not kid ourselves — if there are such bars, they'll be showing the fucking Yankees. Why should Milan be any different than, say, 14th Street?) So it's MLB.tv to the rescue. Or maybe Gameday Audio. Do European hotels have Internet access by now? Is it free? I suppose I'm about to find out. Even if all's well technologically, can I possibly stay up until 3 a.m. every night?

I've calculated scenarios and tried to figure out if there's some way I might yet see the clincher — perhaps during the Europe/Utah interregnum? But after some fretful attempts at math, I gave up. The important thing is that the champagne get sprayed and the cigars get lit, not whether or not I see it. I can peer at it on the Internet later or try to relive it on TiVo. (And of course there will be 10,000 opportunities to see it as a Met Classic.) In the meantime, I'll be relying on my co-blogger and our wise commentors to paint the word picture. Sigh.

But since this is the Internet and a global audience and all, I'll throw it out there — if any of you know the places I'm going, drop me a line. Any and all wisdom greatly appreciated. Who knows, maybe that mythical overseas Mets bar really does exist.

P.S. Anybody get good news from mets.com? Yours truly was 0-for-2. They throw ungodly breaking shit in the NLDS lottery.

Met-a Culpa

There are dumb quotes…

“Three-and-a-half-game lead and all, the key numbers are these: six games left against Atlanta and 42 against everybody else. The Mets are advised to kick the ever-lovin' spit out of everybody else in those other 42 in order to secure their second consecutive Eastern Division title and another shot at the belt because I have no confidence, none, that they'll handle the Braves in the other six. Not after four series comprised of one win and two losses every time. I thought we buried this bullshit last year. Apparently we have not.”

—Me, August 9, in a Willie Harris-inspired snit

…and there are smart quotes:

“I've run out of things to say. We're not as good as them. They've won every game against us they had to win. That's why they're where they are. We have to find a way to win these close games, and I am talking about next year as well as the next couple of weeks.”

—John Smoltz, September 12, in a Met-inspired snit

Always use smart quotes.

Yeah, I would say I was pretty wrong about these Mets and their ability to pick themselves up, dust themselves off and start all over again following the fourth consecutive Braves series that they lost 2-1. I think I was in that Randy Quaid Major League II (not the good one) mode, where he plays the superloyal Indian fan who drowns out all mounting Tribe criticism with supportive, rationalizing blather until he finally reaches his breaking point and completely turns on his team. I didn't see 2007's Met-Brave dynamic as any more than a faint echo of its Coxian worst until Harris leapt and stole Delgado's ninth-inning, game-tying homer five long weeks ago and unleashed some seething demons of distress. Then and only then was I willing to give in to that old chestnut that we'll never beat the Braves when it counts, woe is us and that whole pile of self-pitying shaving cream Mets fans occasionally like to leap into.

Met-a culpa. I take it back. I take it back with a grin that reaches from here high atop the National League East to however far out Smoltz and his teammates sit and stew in the doughy middle of this division. I don't ever like to statistically dismiss any opponent who has enough games left with us to uncomfortably close a gap on us. The Braves have no games left with us. They're 9-1/2 back, primarily a function of their losing five of the six head-to-head chances they had to gain on us since August 31. I do believe I've washed the shaving cream off my face and my hands of them for another season.

Floss will take care of that delicious plate of crow I just enjoyed.

As we gloat, the Phillies are seven behind the Mets, which isn't just formidable, it's a hoot. Remember that when the Mets were going through one of their modestly competent stretches in their summer of stumbling around, they managed to boost their first-place margin to a surprising seven on August 25. It was almost too soon for this recurrently beleaguered cast of characters to pull away. Indeed, they lost the next night to David Wells and then hit the Turnpike for four more defeats.

Since then? A nicely done 10-2. The Phillies? Who cares? We're seven games in front, for the love of Pete Incaviglia. That means that even by sweeping us four — three of them with the force of a red-hot poker — the Philadelphians have picked up no ground on us. None! While we were ten-and-twoing, they've been five-and-sevening. What a waste of evil.

They have one left with the thunderous Rockies today and then come here for three. I like to run the worst-case scenarios before every series. Phillies win today and then find their inner pokers and brooms, they will sit 3-1/2 back with two weeks to go. That's a pretty unlikely worst-case scenario, but even if it were to come to pass, there would still be the matter of those 3-1/2.

I won't rest until we're not swept this weekend — and maybe with one eye open then — but we're in pretty good shape, according to the Metropolitan Department of Understatement.

Y'know what's been particularly gratifying about the recent spurt of quality New York Mets baseball? The way it's been achieved. The last four victories have been posted by scores of 3-1, 4-1, 3-2 and 4-3. It's just been so gosh darn sturdy, a bullpen hiccup here or LOB there notwithstanding. The starting's been solid. The defense, except for the occasional pop fly to deep short/shallow center, has been airtight. There have been just enough big hits to make these wins seem a lot wider than they appear. Nothing wrong with a sprawling victory (unless you're Keith Hernandez), but these have been so…pleasant to watch.

Beltran Wednesday night in the eighth was a gunning, running clinic along the basepaths. He probably won't receive more than a token MVP point or two, but — due respect to the vitaminwater Kid — Carlos is by his presence the most valuable Met at any given moment. When he does his Beltran best, we win. Shawn Green (L'Shawn-ah Tovah!) is treating September like it followed on the heels of May, like his dreadful post-foot problems didn't happen or at least healed; I do think a little competition for playing time did his soul good. Marlon Anderson is the best second-half spot player this team has picked up since, geez, maybe ever. Alou…Milledge…the revitalized Reyes…the undeniable David…everybody's been doing something helpful at least every couple of days. I'm almost willing to give Mota a pass because he battled Francoeur so gamely, but mostly I'm willing to give Mota a pass to sit in the stands come October.

At Shea. Where else, barring horrific circumstances even I'm having a hard time imagining, would the N.L. East champ be playing its home playoff games?

He Goes to 11

Backup catchers are supposed to be forgettable — an endless parade of Charlie Greenes and Tom Wilsons and Joe DePastinos. Except the Mets have a way of finding memorable ones. Mackey Sasser could hit and could throw the ball to second but not to the pitcher, which was quirky when we were good and really annoying when we weren’t. Ed Hearn did an admirable job backing up Gary Carter, got traded for David Cone, got hurt and became a motivational speaker. Todd Pratt, to paraphrase his own words, was Mike Piazza for a day when it really, really mattered.

And then there’s Ramon Castro. The Round Mound of Pound could start for plenty of teams and make any clubhouse a better place. Right now he’s playing for a championship with Brooklyn until his bad back comes around. Ramon’s accepted this with good humor, joking to Ryan McConnell that he wanted to “drink champagne with the kids.” Here’s hoping the RMOP does just that — and then returns for four tastings with us.

Magic Number: 11.

The 12 Minutes of Dunston

Magic Number 12 had a shelf life of about 12 seconds — the score from Philadelphia went to “F” on the Shea Stadium scoreboard with a pitch left in the Mets’ game, and that pitch advanced our magic-number countdown to 11. Eight years ago, with the Mets’ season facing extinction, Shawon Dunston (who wore No. 12 for Miracle Met Ken Boswell) batted for about 12 minutes. He worked the count full, and turned Kevin McGlinchey’s 10th pitch into a single up the middle. Not long after that, Todd Pratt’s bases-loaded walk would make Dunston the tying run — and not long after that, Robin Ventura would hit one back to Georgia.

The Mets’ next game would be their last. Afterwards, Dunston — who’d never wear the uniform again — offered a requiem for the season. Lisa Olson of the Daily News recreated his speech to his drained, broken-hearted teammates, a column that still leaves me blinking away tears.

“I am so proud to be a Met … You guys made me believe again. You made baseball fun for me. I will never, ever forget what this team did.”

Neither will we, Shawon. Neither will we.

Finding Our Way

Billy Wagner was lost.

His momentum carried him across the first-base line, ball in hand. He got himself stopped, and turned, but didn't find the bag he was expecting — somehow it was an extra foot to his right, accessorized by a mildly dumbfounded Shawn Green. Oops! Billy kept turning, and Plan B arrived in the form of Kelly Johnson, who walked into the tag and became the final out of the game. Billy had found his way after all. As had his teammates.

One quality of Willie Randolph's that I admire despite the teeth-gnashing it causes is that he's not afraid to take risks in order to find out something important. It always goes like this: The camera focuses on an unlikely pinch-hitter, an unestablished reliever in an unaccustomed spot or an established pitcher trying to get one more out than you'd expect. Discussion ensues in the booth, followed by a shot of Willie at the dugout rail, looking even more stoic than usual. He's administering a test and wondering if his latest pupil will pass or fail.

So it was in the eighth. Heilman was faltering, teetering on the verge of collapse thanks to another Brave two-out rally. (If the standings were different, these would be terrifying instead of vexing.) In came Feliciano with one out to get. To first base went Brian McCann, whom I am heartily glad not to have to see again until next spring. Exit Feliciano, enter … Mota?

Yes, Guillermo Mota. Guillermo Mota who'd pitched fairly well of late, but only in garbage-time situations. Willie had decided to administer a bullpen pop quiz. I called Emily (attending the game with her dad) and said, “For the last hour I've been envying you being at a wonderful game on a nice night. Now … not so much.” She laughed.

The crowd handled Mota's arrival like New Yorkers often do — they booed the sight of him thoroughly, then grumpily accepted that for better or worse he was the one with the ball and tried to cheer him through his confrontation with Jeff Francoeur. Which he lost after a succession of good changeups and not-so-good changeups and foul tips and finally a clean single through the 5.5 hole. Tie game. Then Mota got Andruw and the crowd, reversing an earlier motif, roared its approval of the strikeout and then booed Mota to the dugout for his earlier misdeed.

No matter — Carlos Beltran promptly restored order with a sharp single, a steal of second off a kid catcher just up from Double-A, a wily theft of third beneath Yunel Escobar's nose, and then walked home courtesy of Green's third hit of the night. How about Shawn Green? He either needed a rest, has been revitalized by a move to first or — most likely — senses the barn after an admirable career. If he stays hot, he could retire with 2,000 hits, not counting whatever he might earn in a final October. That ought to be worthy of a last standing O.

The rest of the game? Crisp and exciting with occasional spots of worry. John Maine is so easily spooked by misfortune (in this case a muffed fly-ball single between Reyes and Beltran) that I'm surprised more teams don't try to rattle him. And Mota failed Mr. Randolph's exam convincingly. And got a win for his troubles.

But no matter. This is the time to find things out, to figure out what needs to be tuned up and what needs to be rethought. And there was plenty to celebrate. Reyes looks revived, Anderson and Milledge proved jolts of excitement, we beat John Smoltz (again), got up after a punch and responded with a knockout blow, and moved closer to Game 163. All in all, not a bad night's work.