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Faith and Fear in Flushing made its debut on Feb. 16, 2005, the brainchild of two longtime friends and lifelong Met fans.

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Flashback Friday: 1980

The year was 1980. I was 17 years old.

I learned the truth at 17.

I learned that advertising slogans are come-ons, not guarantees. I learned that a few dozen wins in the middle of summer does not mean a pennant is in the offing. I learned that every promising story doesn’t have a happy ending, just an ending. I learned that the magic isn’t back just because somebody says it is.

And I learned that a baseball team isn’t all it seems at 17.

Ah, but there was a fleeting moment when I was 17 when I hadn’t learned any of that. I was happier when I was that much more ignorant. For a summer, I basked in the momentary sunshine of being 3-1/2 behind and thinking my team was going somewhere.

It did — right back to fifth place when all was said and done. But somehow I’m not fazed by that or by the 95 losses that piled up at year’s end or the eventual likelihood that when my team got good, pretty much nobody from then would have anything to do with it.

I still don’t care. I was in love with the 1980 Mets. They weren’t the first Mets team I was ever hung up on, but I think, given where I was in life, that they were my first love. I didn’t date or anything like that in high school, so that description may be apt, as apt as it is sad. When I was 10, I learned that you gotta believe; at 17, I was infatuated beyond belief.

Once it got going, I don’t think it ever occurred to me that this team wasn’t a contender. I don’t think I ever saw a reason it couldn’t win. Manager Joe Torre was a genius. Doug Flynn was a Gold Glover in the making. Frank Taveras had played on a team that eventually went to the World Series, albeit after trading him. Lee Mazzilli and John Stearns were certified All-Stars. Steve Henderson was talented enough to have been the linchipin of a trade involving Tom Seaver. Elliott Maddox was at long last the third baseman who would put down roots. John Pacella’s hat fell off but he got guys out. Mark Bomback was an absolute find; they called him Boom-Boom for what hitters went-went on him, but he found ways to win. Tom Hausman was my candidate for Cy Young.

Cy Young? I was young. I was old enough to know better but chose not to. I had already learned far too much in the previous three years that I was dying to forget. 1980 would cleanse me.

1980 was wonderful because 1979 was dreadful, 1978 was desperate and 1977 was disgusting. When I became a Mets fan, they were becoming world champions. I knew that was a little out of the ordinary, but I didn’t expect the Mets to eventually become the opposite of world champions. I didn’t expect them to live down to their pre-1969 heritage. I didn’t expect them to collapse on me.

But they did. The Mets made being a Mets fan no fun when I was in junior high. They made it a chore. They made it a badge of stupidity. Whatever awkwardness I carried into adolescence was not helped by being known as The Mets Fan. I didn’t bargain for it. When I was a kid, there were lots of us. By the late ’70s — 8th grade, 9th grade, 10th grade — there weren’t. There were some guys who didn’t make fun of the Mets and some other guys who felt kind of sorry for the Mets, but there were mostly Yankees fans.

Yankees fans? Where the hell did they come from? Look way out in front and you could see them gathering in a mass. The other New York team, the New York team that was of secondary importance when I was growing up, had taken over. In their wake they swept up a lot of former Mets fans…a lot of very weak-minded, shallow, soulless, craven bastards whose company I decided I could do without.

On the eve of the 1977 season, I got a call from one of my friends, a kid named Stephen. He had been a Mets fan, but now, he revealed, he was going to be a Yankees fan. Not only that, he told me, but the other Steven in our circle? He was switching. And this guy David? Him, too.

They went with the crowd. They and seemingly millions like them opted for instant gratification. For success by association. For winning the moment it appeared to be available.

I stayed a Mets fan. That sounds very noble or at least like it was a decision of some sort. It wasn’t. What was to decide? I was a Mets fan starting when I was 6. I stayed a Mets fan. That was that. There was nothing to think about. Mets got bad? That hurts, but I’m a Mets fan. Mets trade my favorite player of all-time? I wish they hadn’t, but even if Tom Seaver’s not here, the Mets still are. I root for them. The Mets just keep getting worse and less popular and by 1979 it’s all they can to do not lose a hundred games and they don’t come close to drawing a million people and almost nobody you know likes them and almost everybody makes fun of them and, by extension, you?

That sucks. But I’m a Mets fan. I don’t know how not to be. Not then, not ever.

Still, it would’ve been nice if the Mets could’ve gotten better. It seemed like a pipe dream, a fantasy. It seemed like the Mets would forever wallow in irrelevancy and ineptitude. It seemed like the Mets would forever finish last or, if the Cubs could be persuaded to be just a little worse, fifth.

I’d had a social studies teacher, Mr. Patton (he rode his bike to school) who told me he was a Mets fan but hoped they would lose every game in 1979. If they did, he said, maybe the team would be sold.

They lost only 99 but he had the right idea. In 1980, the clueless De Roulet family sold the Mets to Nelson Doubleday and Fred Wilpon. They hired Frank Cashen, the old Orioles’ GM. It was something if not much. The Mets wanted to be new. Their yearbook presented them as the NEW New York Mets, but it was more a concept than reality. The 1980 Mets looked a lot like the 1979 Mets. The biggest difference I could detect was an exchange of third basemen. Gone was the surly Richie Hebner (I was at the game the previous August when he saluted the fans in his own unique way) and in his place came Phil Mankowski.

The NEW New York Mets, featuring Phil Mankowski, who made two errors in his very first inning at third while the Mets made six, did not seem all that new. They got off to a 9-18 start, the highlight of which was Mankowski beginning a five-month stay on the DL. The bad baseball was sin enough, but they were taking out ads telling us how much better they were going to be. Those ads said The Magic Is Back.

I can still hear the laughter.

The worst came at the end of the first homestand. The Mets drew 2,052 for a midweek afternoon game against the Expos. THE MAGIC GARDEN was the back page Post headline, giggling over a picture of 53,000 empty wooden seats.

So they weren’t any good and nobody liked them. Well, nobody but me and Joel, my best friend through high school. Shortly before that season started, I had my fondest non-Mets wish come true when I was tabbed to be editor-in-chief of our high school paper. My first act was to add Joel to the masthead and find something for him to do. Talk About Mets With Me Editor would’ve been the most apropos title.

We had a good group back then. Our pal Larry also came aboard the Tide that spring mostly because he was the first in our crowd to get a driver’s license. I wanted to name him Transportation Editor. But Larry didn’t follow baseball. We met a very smart, younger guy (skipped a grade) named Fred. Fred was very funny and was up for anything. I went to his house one afternoon toting a transistor radio, listening to a Mets game that drew 2,052. I was very matter-of-fact about it. I thought I detected a smirk from Fred, but he kept it mostly to himself. He didn’t follow baseball. Nor did John, the earnest guy from the other side of town or Mark from Lido. Adam, Fred’s neighbor, did, but he was a Yankees fan.

Essentially, it was me and Joel and Phil Mankowski against the world in the spring of ’80, against preconceived notions, against an uninspiring track record, against smug, hateful Yankees fans who told us we were no good. As eleventh grade wound down, though, the world would begin to come our way, just a little.

The Mets started to win. Not a lot. Not to an extent that anybody who didn’t care would notice, but enough so that people like me and Joel did.

• In late May, they swept the Braves. The Braves were as lousy as the Mets, but we never swept anybody.

• In early June, the Mets took four in a row from St. Louis and Pittsburgh. Those were pretty good teams.

• On June 11, the benches emptied at Shea as the Mets took on the Dodgers. Ron Cey was pissed off at Craig Swan for coming inside. No punches were thrown but Mike Jorgensen took a swing. Hit the winning grand slam in the tenth off Rick Sutcliffe. POW!

The Regents were just around the corner but mostly I studied the Mets’ chances. After Jorgy went deep and stuck it to L.A., the Mets were two games under .500, just six games out. The Mets were winning late and they were losing not that much. It was beginning to feel a lot like Christmas.

Three nights later, it was New Year’s Eve.

There are dates that you live through that you know you’ll remember as long as you have a mind. When Neil Armstrong walked on the moon, July 20, 1969 made itself indelible in my memory. When Nixon said he was going to resign, I knew I’d always be able to identify August 8, 1974. And once the events of June 14, 1980 became the events of June 14, 1980, there was no way I would ever, ever forget June 14, 1980.

Or ever, ever forget Steve Henderson. My goodness how I’d never forget Steve Henderson after that Saturday night. Steve Henderson was one of four players received by the Mets in exchange for Tom Seaver three years earlier, almost to the day. Hendu, it was said, was the difference-maker. Pat Zachry was taking Tom’s starts, not filling his shoes. Doug Flynn was all glove, no bat. Dan Norman was rumored to be down in Tidewater learning to switch-hit. But Steve Henderson was the kind of talented outfielder the Mets never had, the kind of talented outfielder the Reds had too many of.

Steve Henderson was a nice player. He collected hits, some of them clutch, during his time as a Met. He wasn’t George Foster, Ken Griffey or even Cesar Geronimo, but we liked him. I liked him. Maybe my standards had been hopelessly lowered since 1977, maybe my heroes were mediocre baseball players, but he was one of my favorites, right there with Mazzilli.

On the other hand, Steve Henderson hadn’t homered all year through June 13. It was getting to be a cause celebre. The Mets didn’t hit many homers to begin with. Jorgensen, who got his fifth with that grand slam, was the Mets’ idea of a slugger in 1980. The Daily News was running a chart, comparing the day-to-day progress with that of Roger Maris in 1961. Not Jorgensen vs. Maris but 1980 Mets vs. Maris. They were running neck and neck.

The Mets weren’t hitting anything against John Montefusco and the Giants on June 14, not for the first eight innings. We fell behind 6-0 in the fifth. It was 6-2 entering the ninth, a second straight loss to San Francisco staring the Shea crowd in the face.

But these were the 1980 Mets and this was June 14.

Maddox grounded out against Greg Minton.

But Flynn singled.

Jose Cardenal, useless his entire Met tenure, grounded out, moving Flynn to second.

Mazz singled Doug home.

It was 6-3.

Frank Taveras walked.

Claudell Washington, acquired so recently that he was the only Met with no name on his back, singled Mazz home and Frankie to second.

It was 6-4.

Allen Ripley replaced Minton. All he had to do was retire Henderson.

He couldn’t.

He didn’t.

Steve Henderson hit a three-run homer.

The Mets won 7-6.

THE METS WON 7-6! THE METS CAME BACK FROM 6-0! THE METS SCORED FIVE IN THE NINTH!

THEY NEVER DO THAT!

It was bedlam everywhere you looked. There was Cy Hausman catching the ball in the Mets’ pen. There was Hendu circling the bases. There were his teammates waiting for him at the plate. There were the fans not letting him go into the clubhouse until he returned for a curtain call.

And there I was, jumping up and down in front of the televsion in my parents’ bedroom, all alone.

THE METS WON!

I ran into the dining room. I breathlessly explained to my sister and her boyfriend what just happened. This was big, this was unprecedented, this was the greatest thing that had occurred to the Mets since at least 1973.

My sister’s boyfriend, a former Shea Stadium vendor who grew up in Flushing and thus took a lifelong dislike to baseball, had one question:

“Who cares?”

Killjoys. I continued running through the house that night and I swear I didn’t slow down all summer.

Everything was better. Shea was better. It was alive with color. The fence was repainted royal blue. The old wooden seats were replaced, top to bottom, with bright plastic ones — red, green, blue and orange, beautiful Mets orange. And the seats, instead of holding nobody, held everybody. The day after Steve Henderson made June 14, 1980 a night to remember, Shea was sold out. They drew more people that Sunday afternoon (44,910…some sections were still being refurbished) than they did in their first six-game series in April. The Mets lost, but that was a technicality.

The Magic Was Back!

Magic was my favorite word in the summer of 1980. When school ended, my father relocated his office from the city to Rockville Centre. Instead of hiring a full-time receptionist, he gave me the job. Truth be told, it was kind of slow, so I mostly sat at my desk, answered the occasional phone call and listened alternately to WYNY, a middle-of-the-road FM station that my father didn’t mind too much and WPIX, reborn as a Top 40 station. One of the first new songs I heard from that desk was by Olivia Newton-John.

You have to believe we are magic

Nothing can stand in our way

Fate! A song called “Magic” was a big hit in the summer of ’80. I listned carefully for “Magic” by Pilot and “Do You Believe in Magic?” by the Lovin’ Spoonful and “This Magic Moment” by Jay & The Americans. For the first time, I had a soundtrack for my season.

Given that there wasn’t much more to do at work, I read the papers. It was the first summer I read every paper available every day. The Post, the News, the Times and Newsday were brimming with Mets stories. Anything I could find, anything that confirmed the Mets’ presence in a four-way race with the Expos, the Phillies and the Pirates, I absorbed as quickly as it was printed. I remember a new weekly paper came along to cover the burgeoning New York sports scene. There was too much for just daily papers now.

There was also a lot to listen to. 1980 was the summer I discovered sports talk radio. On WMCA, the Mets’ flagship, there was a man named Art Rust Jr. He guaranteed the Mets would be playing October baseball at “Flushing by the Bay.” He also promised that by the end of the decade we’d have interleague play and every team would be under a dome. He referred to good defensive catchers as guys who could really flash that leather behind the dish. When Art got to be a bit much, I turned my loyalties to WFUV, Fordham’s radio station. There, every Sunday night between 11 PM and 2 AM, hosts and callers debated Mets vs. Yankees. For college students, they weren’t bad, except for this one hyperobnoxious Yankees fan who sounded awful on the air. His name was Michael Kay.

The Mets were on a mission. I could feel it. I wanted to high-five, a gesture I picked up from watching football games, everything in sight. I wanted to beat everybody in the N.L. East like it was life and death. On the Fourth of July, the Mets split a doubleheader with the first-place Expos. There was another near-brawl brought on by Bill Gullickson headhunting our Jorgy (who had once suffered a serious jaw injury) because Montreal, I figured, couldn’t stand the fact that the Mets were so good. I pedaled from Long Beach to Island Park where Joel was working at Shell Creek Park, signing out volleyballs, to fill him in on the action. If I had seen an Expos fan as I crossed the bridge between towns, I’m convinced I would’ve started a fight.

It took me until July 6 to go to my first Mets game of this brilliant, new era. Joel wasn’t available, so I enlisted Larry. Larry was a great guy, but like I said, not a baseball fan. That wasn’t necessarily a bad thing. It made him more observant of details a baseball-savvy person might not pick up on. In the bottom of the first, Mazz doubled. We were sitting in the orange seats behind third base. As he rounded second, I put up both my hands to warn him to stop where he was. “What are you,” Larry asked me, “the coach?” He caught something. I had begun to mimic what I was seeing on TV because I was watching every single game as if there would be a test afterwards. I couldn’t say that before 1980, but now I could.

The Mets lost that game but Shea was beautiful. Even the ride home was good. We had to change at Jamaica. Another Mets fan, our age, started telling me how happy he was, how great it was to watch the sports report on the news and how sometimes the sportscaster, whether it was Bill Mazer on channel 5, Marv Albert on channel 4 or Warner Wolf who had just taken all his highlights (couldn’t get enough of those) from channel 7 to channel 2, would sum up the night’s events with “Mets win, Yanks lose.” For so long, it had been the opposite.

Three weeks later, Joel and I made it out there. I was very confident of my abilities to guide us from the LIRR to the Subway at Woodside but I led us down a staircase to the street that made us miss the first train that came. Joel let me know about it. When we arrived, he wanted to buy two field boxes from a scalper. They were 10 bucks each. I said no. I wasn’t ever going to spend that much to see my team in my stadium.

We got pretty good seats nonetheless at the box office. “As long as no balls are hit in the right field corner, we can see everything,” Joel said. Jerry Morales was starting there. Eventually, Jerry and a ball went into the corner and out of sight. The ball came out. Jerry didn’t. The right field corner immediately became known as Jerry Morales territory between us. The Mets lost. They lost John Stearns, too. He took a foul off the index finger. Out for the season.

The Mets hung in. They played footsie with .500, twice touching it if never going over. Joel and I went into the Village on a Friday night in early August to see Uncle Floyd, the subversive faux-kiddie show host, live at the Bottom Line. On the train home, we ran into a guy we knew from school. He was at the game. The Mets beat the Astros, he said. Then they won the next night. Both times they came from behind. On Sunday, the Mets went for the sweep, falling behind early. Steve Albert said that was only fitting, that’s how the Mets like it. I had the feeling he shouldn’t have said that. The Mets lost.

But it wasn’t fatal. The Mets got to mid-August still playing pretty well. They took two of three from the defending world champions in Pittsburgh and were 56-57, 7-1/2 out of first. Since that awful 9-18 start, the Mets had gone 47-39, a solid, winning record that spanned more than half a season.

Next up was a five-game set against the Phillies at Shea. This, I was convinced, would be the moment we took off. This would be 1969 and 1973 all over again. I sat down with the schedule, factored in all the ground the Mets would gain over the weekend (we had nothing but aces — Zachry, Bomback, Swan, Burris, Roy Lee Jackson — ready for ’em) and then all the wins they could count on when the West Coast teams came in. It would take a pennant race, but the Mets would prevail.

The Phillies swept the Mets. Five straight. They weren’t close, none of ’em. By Monday morning, the Mets were 11 games out of first and for the first time all summer I avoided every single newspaper. Somewhere along the way, Flynn and Taveras went down. The rest of the homestand was just as bad. The Mets tumbled and tumbled again. I went to one more game. It was against the Giants. The Mets lost. Ripley didn’t pitch. Henderson didn’t homer. My record at Shea in the year it was made over was a drab 0-3. I would never have such a bad record there again, but I couldn’t have known that then.

By the time my senior year in high school began, the Mets had returned to where they were in the spring. Nobody talked about them except to mock them. One guy in my AP History class asked if my “The Magic Is Back” t-shirt meant I was a Doug Henning fan. Even at home I couldn’t get any love. On a Sunday in September, when the U.S. Open was finishing and the football season was starting and the Yankees were closing in on another division title, I was at the kitchen table, wrapped up in the fading Mets.

“All those other sports on,” my dad asked, “and you’re watching this?” He shook his head and walked away.

Yeah, I was watching. I never shook the idea that it was a great season, even as the Mets finished up — or down — 11-38. It was the exact mirror image of 1969’s last 49 games. The Magic was out of the standings while the fans had vacated the stands. I was still watching. In the last week of the season, Joel Youngblood practically channeled Steve Henderson or at least Mike Jorgensen. He hit a two-run homer off Grant Jackson to beat the Pirates 5-4 in the tenth. It was witnessed by 1,787 souls, the lowest attendance ever at Shea (a record that would last 24 hours). There were no derisive headlines the next day, though. Met misery wasn’t novel enough to rate the back page.

By then, the 1980 Mets were no longer the 1980 Mets who had me running gleefully through the house in June. Torre was now managing rookies. Mookie Wilson, Hubie Brooks and Wally Backman were all recalled in September. Maybe they’d be recalled longer than the season itself which felt like it had faded from institutional memory even before it was over. On paper, the Mets’ 95-loss campaign appeared not altogether dissimilar from ’77, ’78 and ’79 except that they finished fifth and drew more than a million. Boom-Boom won-won 10 games and led the team in victories. The hitters, all of them, tied Maris with 61 homers. Statistically, the Mets of ’80 were of a piece with the disgraces that preceded them.

Emotionally, they couldn’t have been more different. The Mets acted like a contender for three months, and all I really wanted was to root for a team that seemed to have a chance. They led the sports. They got segments on This Week In Baseball. They gave me something to talk about and think about and never, ever forget about.

Just to be lifted from the morass of last place and to have a little hope — what a gift for one summer. Try to explain that to somebody who wasn’t in high school or thereabouts then. Try to explain that to a fan of any other team.

The year was 1980, 25 years ago.

I was 17.

Flashback Friday is a weekly tour through the years, every half-decade on the half-decade, wherein a younger Mets fan develops into the Mets fan he is today. Previous stops: 1970, 1975. Next stop: 1985.

Expanding Our Roster

Editor's Note: As you are probably aware, baseball blogs can expand their rosters beginning September 1. We at Faith and Fear in Flushing have called up Dodd, a young blogger with great stuff, for the stretch drive. He's a little raw, but we hope you enjoy his debut.

The Mets suck.

The Mets totally suck.

I'm serious. I don't wanna do this. I don't even like baseball.

What?

I didn't say that. You just thought I said that. You're the one who likes baseball. I was just nodding to shut you up.

Fine, I'll do it.

OK, so I'm supposed to blog today's Mets-Phillies game…

Wait, don't they have sites for this crap? Doesn't ESPN have a site or something? Don't they give the scores on TV?

Perspective? What's that?

Well who cares what “we” think?

Big deal, losers writing about baseball for other losers. Congratulations.

I did NOT say I wanted to do this. What I said was I wanted you to buy me an iPod and you said you wouldn't do it unless I watched a baseball game with you and told you how much I liked it because you're so pathetic. Now I have to do this too? No wonder you don't have any friends.

Real friends, not just other losers you meet online.

I suppose if we're gonna get to Best Buy before it closes I better do this. So what am I supposed to say?

Um, the Mets lost to the Phillies 3 to 1 on Thursday.

What? They already know that? Well, DUH!

Tell them WHY they lost? Because they suck. I already said that.

Fine…the Mets lost to the Phillies 3 to 1 on Thursday. Although I'm pretty sure it had something to do with them sucking, I'm supposed to give you “perspective,” whatever that is.

My perspective is baseball is stupid. And the Mets are stupid. The Mets don't ever win, do they?

What? Two world championships? Is that a lot?

I didn't think so.

So anyway, the Mets are apparently trying to win games more than they usually do and it's not working. I'm told that the game they just lost was a big game which figures since they suck. If they didn't suck, they probably would've won, but they didn't, so they do.

Suck, I mean.

Details? I don't remember what happened. It was like hours ago.

Uh…some old dude pitched. And he couldn't pick up a ball. And the other team scored. And the Mets didn't score like at all…oh wait, they scored once when that fast dude ran really fast or something.

And then the Mets lost like they usually do. And they still suck.

There. Can we go now?

I'm supposed to give them reasons why the Mets lost? Didn't I just do that? Oh man, it's amazing what you losers can find to kill time with. Can't you download porn like everybody else? I know a really kickass site for that!

Loser.

The Mets lost their game today because they don't have enough good players. The Mets should get more good players, more good players than the other team has. Today the other team had more good players. The Mets suck.

Is that enough? Because I don't know what else to say. I still don't know why you made me do this.

What? Link to the ESPN site? So there is an ESPN site? You're writing about these stupid baseball games for other stupid baseball fans and then you're all like “go to the ESPN site for the box score”? Wow, you bloggers are bigger losers than I thought.

Um, if you need to know more about why the Mets suck, click here or something. Losers.

That's it, I hope. It is? Good.

What do you mean Best Buy is closed? Oh, you SUCK!

I hate baseball.

Editor's Note: We will be slightly contracting our roster beginning September 2. Dodd has been designated for assignment. And he's not getting an iPod.

Keep Me Up 'Til September Ends

I heard Pedro after the game talk about the mistakes he threw. If he's big enough to own up to his, I'll own up to mine.

1) I wore MARTINEZ 45 to Shea. It was the third time I've worn it this season. The Mets are 0-3 when I've done that. In retrospect, I figure I was asking for it the first two times because Pedro wasn't pitching then. But tonight? Geez. Sorry. Yo, shirt: Back into the drawer until winter. (Give my regards to VAUGHN 42 while you're there.)

2) When Pedro was briefly rolling, retiring the primary Philadelphia banes of our existence, I turned to my companion and remarked what a pleasure it was to have a pitcher who has no problem handling Abreu and Burrell. Ryan Howard hit the next pitch over the left field wall and nothing was ever the same. I hope I mean that in the short-term sense. I will never again say nice things about a future Hall of Famer unless he's up by eight runs after six.

3) With the Cardinals up 2-0 on the Marlins and us up 2-0 and the Braves having beaten the Nats in their first game (though I declared their doubleheader a gimme because there was nobody to root for between them) and the Reds not yet having taken on the Astros, visions of a September 1 that included us at the top of the Wild Card standings began to dance off first base in my head. Thirty-seven seasons of hypercaution gave way to glints of optimism. My sincere apologies for not being more of a wet blanket.

So I'm owning up to my mistakes and I'm willing to suffer the consequences. I'm willing to have Glavine take care of the Phillies Thursday afternoon, willing to have the Mets take two of three and willing to have me absorb the one loss there was to be absorbed in person. Three hours of my life that I'll never get back is a small price to pay to get back to within a half-game of the WC.

Besides, it's not about where we are on September 1. It's about coming home on the afternoon of October 2 and figuring out what time our first-round game is.

WHOA! Who's getting optimistic now? Well, there's wet-blanketing and there's the reason we do this. The reason we do this — be fans beyond all the stuff about how we like to “suffer” for our teams — is to have a September and use it to get to October. As I fought my way through the uninvited, unwanted, unnecessary U.S. Open beautiful-people hordes exiting the 7 (oh Muffy, it's raining…this Flushing place is awful!), I had an extra bounce in my step. Man, I thought, I haven't felt this way since 2000. September's starting and we're good and we're close and we're not done. Has it really taken us this long?

After the Phillies ruined a perfectly good storyline (oh Chase, it's raining…this Flushing place is awful!), I was left to contemplate what September can be like in Metsopotamia.

It's not pretty.

Our most mythic month has had its moments. September '69 and Goodbye Leo, we hate to see ya go! and September '73 and Tug slapping glove to thigh and September '86 when the Mets were so bold that they painted A SEPTEMBER TO REMEMBER at the base of the leftfield wall and handed out pennants every night lest anybody get the idea we wouldn't have one in October. September '88 was at the heart of a 29-8 finishing thrust that kicked sand all over the East and frightened the Dodgers into submission (I fell asleep toward the end that year — what happened in the playoffs?).

Thing is, September hasn't been much of a Met month since 1988, a mere 17 years ago. When the Mets had nothing to play for, it didn't matter what they did. And when they did have something to play for, well, hoo-boy. I suppose it's all kind of irrelevant given that hardly anybody on this team had anything to do with anything that happened more than a couple of years ago, but the Mets have not cashed in on any opportunities presented by any September since Gregg Jefferies was hatched from his pod.

• The Mets couldn't catch the Cubs in September 1989. The Cubs!

• Every pitcher except Doc, especially Frank Viola and John Franco, made a ptui! noise of some sort when confronted with the bit in their mouth in September 1990.

• Bobby Jones' right hand was either too sweaty or too dry, I forget which, in September 1997 during a crucial game at Turner Field. He didn't get out of the first. (What, you thought Al invented that?)

• September 1998, lost last five games, don't wanna talk about it.

• The melodrama of 1999 was exacerbated thirty times over by the Mets' near-fatal collapse that September. It's more fun to relive than it was to live.

Five years ago tonight, as September 2000 dawned, I was beside myself — it's true, there were actually two of me — with joy because the Mets had pulled ahead of the Braves. No Wild Card pikers us. We were going to capture the actual division title that was rightfully ours (we won the first one, therefore it belongs to us). About five minutes later, the Mets went to St. Louis and lost three straight one-run games, all of them in walkoff fashion. A few days later, following a series of crushing losses that featured a grand slam by Benito Santiago off Benitez in Cincinnati that turned an 8-7 eighth-inning lead into an 11-8 loss, the Mets were thoroughly ensconced in second behind Atlanta. The Wild Card looked dicey for a bit but was preserved. Still…

• September 2001, not a good month in New York to begin with. In his own nefarious way, Brian Jordan made baseball matter here every bit as much as Piazza did. I never thought I'd hurt over baseball again, but only a dozen days passed after 9/11 when Brian Jordan wrecked our miracle comeback, already in progress. Six days later, he wrecked it again. Honestly, as beautiful as Mike's 9/21 shot was, it was Jordan torching our bullpen over (9/23) and over (9/29) that refocused my attention on the Mets. I suppose I owe Brian Jordan some small debt for helping me return to normality and care about a silly game. (Now that's what you call some serious rationalization.)

Well, better that September has the capacity to disappoint than not matter at all. I'll take my chances with whatever lies ahead versus talk of spoilers and callups and hunting and fishing. September has arrived. We're part of the welcoming committee. And we don't necessarily have to wave goodbye when it's over.

The first pitch of the rest of our season is scheduled for 1:10 PM.

Well, Damn

No reason to freak out. We go into September 1.5 games out with a chance to make it .5 before the day's done. Back in spring training, if you'd given me a choice between that scenario and whatever was behind Door #2, I'd have taken 1.5 games out and never wondered about what else we might have had.

But still, damn.

Strange game — at the beginning, as we were marching out to a 2-0 lead and looking for all the world like more was coming, this felt like one of those nights when baseball's a sweet dream, when your players can do anything asked of them and look like they know it, too. And it wasn't just the scoreboard that made me think it — it was the crowd roaring and the cool, calm looks on the faces of Beltran and Floyd and Wright and Co.

But things slowly started to turn. Maybe it was the hideous heat, or the slow realization that Pedro didn't have it and was mixing and matching grumpily out there in search of something that worked, or that Brett Myers (who desperately needs a grooming intervention — he looks like a fricking cartoon character with his bald head, Magic Marker-black eyebrows and red chin beard) was mixing and matching and finding somethings that worked, or that the Phillies were approaching their at-bats with demonic concentration and not letting a single mistake pass them by. By the time Kenny Lofton made like it was 1990 out there, for all intents and purposes breaking us, I wasn't even that surprised.

I was surprised, however, to see Pedro back in the seventh. I didn't figure out until later that he was well under a normal pitch count, but then this was no normal night. What made me sure he wasn't coming back was the way he was clearly gathering everything he had left and airing it out in the sixth, bringing the velocity up as far as he could (to 88 — something is wrong, by the way, intensity of wrongness unknown for now) like an exhausted horse that can smell the stable and so breaks into a trot anyway. And when's the last time Pedro J. Martinez forgot how many outs there were? When he came out in the seventh the needle was clearly on 'E,' no matter what the pitch count said.

Oh well. Get 'em tomorrow. Please. Because I hear we got a road trip coming or something.

Explosions! The Earth Is Moving!

Is that an earthquake?

No, it's Ramon!

Fans of Romy & Michele's High School Reunion, which include my six-pack partner and myself, will recognize the above line and may have very well applied it to the eighth inning Tuesday night. Laurie and I have been tossing it back and forth all season every time our backup catcher gets a big hit.

We've used it a lot.

Was it only in July that we were all kvelling from our catcher's dramatic home runs and the curtain calls he was generating? Different month, different backstop, same response. Who was the last catcher not named Mike Piazza to receive a curtain call at Shea? The immediate answer would be Todd Pratt, but did Todd Pratt actually get a curtain call for his Finley-veiled series winner? It's not like he actually went into the dugout and returned to the top step at the audience's behest. (Just realized he was in the house tonight. Think he thought of that?)

Maybe Jason Phillips was lured out in 2003 but he was probably playing first (say, does Mike still have to break the record for most curtain calls by a catcher?). Vance Wilson? Hearty applause once or twice at best. If it wasn't Pratt, you may have to trek all the way back to Todd Hundley when he was hitting it hard for the previous unMiked catcher curtain call.

So much for getting lost in the moment. The important thing is that a Met rated a curtain call. They all did.

Ramon Castro's blast off Ugueth Urbina (the second-greatest home run Uggie's ever allowed; this explains the greatest) will surely stand the test of time as a touchstone in Mets history. It was a game-, season- and life-altering event.

Unless we lose the next two. So let's not do that.

Hangin' With 'Em

Hang with 'em.

I kept saying that.

I said it in the 1st, when David Wright came up as the tying run and got under a Robinson Tejeda pitch. Hang with 'em, David.

I said it in the 5th, when Cliff Floyd came up as the tying run and hammered a first-pitch Tejeda fastball to center. Just under it. Right instinct, didn't work out. Hang with 'em, Clifford.

I said it again in the 7th, when Marlon Anderson came up as the tying run and absolutely smashed a Ryan Madson pitch — one of those high-trajectory jobs that looks like a nine-foot guy hit it when it leaves the bat. Did you? Did you? No, you didn't. Into Abreu's glove at the fence. Rats. Hang with 'em, Marlon.

“Hang with 'em” is one of my favorite baseball phrases, a vow that you are patient, that you understand a split-second or a fraction of an inch can mean the difference between sucess and failure, that you applaud the correct approach even if it doesn't pay off, that you are willing to wait for redemption. (It's also, of course, just one of those things you say.) The problem is games where you say it a lot generally wind up as frustrating losses. “Hang with 'em” is great, but you only get so many chances.

That goes double or even triple when Billy Wagner's out there in the bullpen. Thanks to Ramon Castro, our pudgy-cheeked Juggernaut of Clutch, we never saw him in action. And hey, Looper was just fine. I was sweating that the home-plate ump would put Chase Utley on with a bruised sleeve, forcing Looper to pitch to Abreu, who so totally owns Looper that his name is probably tattooed on Braden's ass, and I suppose in some other parallel universe that happened. Whatever — I'm glad I don't live in that one. (And in some other parallel universe we have a lefty in the pen to pitch to these Phillie lefty bats, but no harm no foul. At least for tonight.)

Random observances:

* Carlos Beltran on base all four times, getting there with a full complement of dinger, solid single, infield hit and walk, swinging the bat without any apparent pressure from those big heavy dollar signs that seem to have weighed him down this year. And making a fantastic throw to the J. of C. Only one night, but an awfully nice sight.

* Victor Diaz is a rollercoaster ride all by his lonesome. A typically bad reaction on a fly ball, a loafing trip around the bases he almost paid for — but he wound up loafing around for a triple, added another hit and had an absolutely terrific, wise at-bat against Ugie Urbina for a crucial walk. Go figure.

* Why is Chris Woodward a defensive replacement for Mike Jacobs? I know Jacobs is a converted catcher, but he sure looks like he's got nice hands over there — witness that nice play he made on a hot shot. Woody, for all his usefulness, is a utility guy. And he's short.

* Mike Jacobs has officially returned to Earth. Oh well, it was a nice trip.

* Welcome back, Mike Cameron. You do realize that now you have to bring out the lineup card every night, right?

Don't Be Silly, Let's Beat Philly

There's one silly story going around that's getting loads of attention and one fascinating story that should be obvious but has gone generally unreported.

The silly story regards Steve Trachsel and his place in the rotation. Oh yawn. Please, Steve, you couldn't be any more boring if you tried. And goodness knows you've tried.

You pitched a two-hitter over eight innings? Great. We loved it. We'd love to see you do it again. And you know what? We'll get the chance to see you try.

Why, oh why must so many fans and reporters have the attention span of a tick (apologies to ticks) and get distracted by this stuff? Why is every possible move that Willie Randolph might and often make doesn't so relentlessly skewered before it's shown to work, not work or never take place? Are we really that incapable of entertaining ourselves on off-days?

Let's think back to the big story of spring training, that David Wright is going to bat eighth. That's what Willie said. That was the law. And immediately Willie Randolph was an idiot.

How many times has David Wright batted eighth? Go grab yourself a doughnut and find the answer. The only thing Randolph did, really, was not anoint David Wright the second coming of Rod Carew. He let him get comfortable. He took the pressure off. He said this is a kid and we're not going to lean on him…yet. Now it's late August, we're in a pennant race and we're leaning on David Wright. David Wright was just named National League Player of the Week. I'm sure he's been anointed Human of the Millennium in some quarters.

Is it possible that Willie knew what he was doing?

Hey, remember fretting over Roberto Hernandez's inclusion in the Mets' bullpen? How about going apoplectic over the idea that the Mets would even consider Roberto Hernandez for the bullpen? It's an affront to progressive thinking! The Mets are operating in the 13th century! Why isn't Heath Bell closing?

Well, not every veteran reliever is going to contribute. DeJean didn't. Aybar didn't. Matthews didn't. But Hernandez did. He wasn't them. Nobody's not worth a look. It doesn't have to wreck an organizational philosophy to conjure a few things up on the fly. What's that bit about foolish consistency, hobgoblins and little minds? I don't understand why Roberto was dismissed out of hand before he ever threw a pitch or why Heath was hailed so quickly (and may he someday validate it). Why is the favorite player of so many Mets fans the one they've never or hardly seen?

Lineup…bullpen…rotation now. The Mets are out of their minds for not dumping Zambrano for Trachsel. That's because Victor Zambrano has had a couple of bad games mixed in with mostly good ones (and had the gall to be traded for the greatest pitcher almost no Mets fan ever saw) across the balance of an entire season and Steve Trachsel — when did he become the peepul's cherce? — had one very good start after back surgery.

Blame Jae Seo for blowing the precious order that we apparently all crave. He was supposed to be a stopgap. He wasn't supposed to make himself indispensable (I'll be the first to admit surprise/shock at his staying power). If he's not going anywhere, and we know the three high-priced vets who have been healthy most of the year aren't, what are you gonna do?

You're gonna do what you can do. You're not gonna give up on Zambrano just because his existence waves a red flag at so many fans. There's a reason they keep stats like how each pitcher does in each ballpark against each team. If you have evidence that Victor Zambrano is superstudly against the Marlins at Your Name Here Stadium then why wouldn't you use him? Granted, he's a better candidate for middle or long relief than Trachsel, but sayeth Herm Edwards, you play to win the game and, to put it in a baseball context, you start so you don't have to use long or middle relief. (Don't make me quote football guys again.) Plus we're hours removed from roster expansion. Some guy we never saw will be recalled and be the best pitcher ever if we need him to be.

So I'm advocating a shunting of Steve Trachsel now and forever, right? No, and neither is Willie. Think a sane manager (Don Zimmer doesn't count and he never did) would really avoid using a reliable veteran with an outstanding outing in his back pocket? I don't think so. I think we're gonna see Steve Trachsel as soon as next week as long as the Mets don't do anything self-destructive like trade him.

The Mets have a surfeit of starting pitching. And how often does that kind of thing hold up? What contending team trades starting pitching during the last two days of August? Stuff happens. It rains. Somebody stubs a toe or hyperextends a joint. The last guy you'd suspect gets shelled and needs to take a seat. Steve Trachsel has a right to feel wronged but has he been so immersed in his rehab and his wine to not notice that almost nothing is forever where Willie Randolph is concerned?

Let's pick a year at random…1987. OK, I lied, it wasn't at random. That was the year the Mets were a sure thing to repeat because they had so much pitching. The five horsemen of '86 would all return, right? And in addition to Gooden, Ojeda, Darling, Fernandez and Aguilera, we stole David Cone from the Royals.

None of those guys made it through the season unscathed. It was a year to mix and match Terry Leach and Don Schulze and John Mitchell and Tom Edens and, come September, John Candelaria. There is no such thing as too much pitching then or now. (Need additional proof? What are Shawn Chacon, Aaron Small and our ol' buddy Al doing these days?)

We overreact. We panic. We're fans. We're goaded into it by all manner of media (this one included), but let's pick our spots. There'll be so much more to go nuts over between now and October 2 that we won't remember what will have passed, in near-future retrospection, as fleeting lunacy.

So that's the silly story. The fascinating one is the Mets are playing the Phillies toward the end of the year in a game crucial to each team's fortunes. You knew that? Did you know it's the first time in the shared history of the two teams that this has happened?

Seriously, it is. Think about it. When the Mets have been good, who have they battled? The Cubs…the Pirates…the Cardinals…the Marlins once…the Braves too often…do you remember a pennant showdown involving the neighbors? Me neither. That's because it's never taken place. The Mets and the Phillies have never taken their closeness literally and have thus skillfully avoided concurrent success. Maybe they thought it would cause a lethal backup on the Turnpike.

This is the 44th season of Mets baseball and, by extension, Phillies baseball with the Mets as an opponent. The two teams have had winning records in the same season only four times: 1975, 1976, 1986 and 2001. Only in '01 were the two even remotely embroiled in the same September cauldron, but by the time the Mets got serious, the Phillies were off their schedule.

There's been lots to link New York and Philadelphia. Ashburn…Tug…Lenny…Rico…Burrellnitez…Bunning's perfecto…the Mets winning the Damn Thing at the Vet…Tom's homecoming against Lefty at Shea…that 26-7 embarrassment in '85 (they were us and we were the Diamondbacks)…the sweep that delayed our division-clinch in '86…a far more painful broom job that almost denied our playoff spot in '99.

There have been great Mets teams and great Phillies teams but somehow they missed each other. No more. It's the Big Apple versus screw them I'm not going to refer to them by some cute nickname.

It's time to hate the Phillies in a whole new light.

The Mets-Phillies rivalry, or the lack thereof to this point, is so compelling a story that it is explored more in-depth at Gotham Baseball.

Take Off Your Rainbow Shades

The San Francisco Giants can go wait by the curb with the Brewers and the Royals (not our direct concern, but all of humanity was let down by those bargain-basement bumblers Saturday) and the rest of Sunday's baseball detritus. They lose two of three to the Phillies but beat us two of three? Some nerve. And whatever generous ground I was willing to give Armando Benitez from a historical perspective…it's all over now, baby blue.

On the other hand, the Diamondbacks disbursed their competence in a pleasing fashion, losing four straight to us then wisely winning over the weekend. Their sense of fair play allowed us to stay a game-and-a-half from the WC, ensuring that come September 1 we'll actually be playing a meaningful game. I haven't felt this good about Arizona prevailing at the BOB on a Sunday night since November 4, 2001 (as if that date's glory isn't self-explanatory).

You can stop looking for television's worst advertising campaign, particularly as it regards unfunny, unmoving, unavoidable spots that run in nauseatingly frequent rotation during baseball games. Lee Iacocca and Chrysler: If you can find a worse commercial, air it.

Word, regarding those hideous “Brooklyn” uniforms worn by Los Angeles on Sunday. I don't think I ever saw a picture of the Brooklyn Dodgers wearing white uniforms with their borough/city in script. That's a road thing, but I guess it's appropriate in that the whole idea of L.A. celebrating 1955 is wrong. Double word, regarding the Milwaukee Braves nonsense the other night as well. Do the Brewers have to fail at everything except beating us?

As long as we're meandering on ancillary issues, how about the 2006 Mets wear 1986-style uniforms a few times next year? Surely there will be a 20th anniversary celebration at Shea. Racing stripes all around!

Or maybe orange jumpsuits. Good Ol' No. 16 appears to have interminably delayed his induction into the Mets HOF given his designation for assignment by the Hillsborough County Sheriff's Department. Plastering 05054577 on the outfield wall — the formerly great one's most recent booking number — might serve as a cautionary tale or something for somebody.

Then again, I can't imagine a current or future Mets relentlessly fucking up his life the way Dwight Gooden has. A former Shea Stadium tour guide (“To your left is where Anthony Young sucked with regularity so dependable that he was one loss away from getting an endorsement deal from Ex-Lax. And if you look to your right, you'll see one of the many spots from which Bobby Bonilla stole money.”) brings a truly unique perspective to one of the several previous times Doc broke our hearts. I thought I was done feeling for him in 1994, but it's impossible for any Mets fan who absorbed 1985 as thoroughly as so many of us did to ever quite get Gooden out from under our skin. Twenty years ago, all I wanted to tell him was “DOC! WE LOVE YOU!” Now if I could send him a message, it would be, “Get better, Stupid.”

Scoreboard Watching

What do you do when your offense has vanished again and you wind up dropping two of three to the Giants? You look for help from your friends, of course.

So let's call the roll.

God bless you, you St. Louis Cardinals. You're fine players and good people.

The Chicago Cubs are just terrific. Man, put a Zambrano on the mound and good things happen. What a wonderful way to celebrate retiring Ryne Sandberg's number.

Some might say it was gauche for the Los Angeles Dodgers to celebrate the 50th anniversary of their first World Series title, since it was won in a city that they abandoned like thieves in the night. (And that so totally kicks Los Angeles' ass.) And wearing BROOKLYN on the unis? Double gauche. But we're not about hating, particularly not when there was a Satanic presence in the stadium. Good job on the exorcism! Happy anniversary! We love the Dodgers.

Ah, you Arizona Diamondbacks. What a big-hearted crew of excellent young men you are. We're glad to see you didn't take that shellacking personally. Top-notch work from one of our favorite teams. Bravo!

Isn't it a wonderful world where you have friends like these to pick you up where you're down? Makes me wanna walk down the street patting dogs and handing out flowers and candy. Would you excuse me a moment? I — I think I've got something in my eye.

As for you, Milwaukee, well, you are so not invited to our next party. Thanks for nothing, suckos.

The Almost-Almost-Met

Jose, we love you. Rest assured of that. Now, please keep working on working counts. Um, especially when the pitcher's walked three guys in the inning and the opposing manager doesn't have a reliever warm. Please, Jose?

But OK, yesterday's gone. In the New York Post, Kevin Kernan has a nice piece about Tim Hamulack, the Norfolk reliever we summoned to Phoenix but not, apparently, to the BOB, let alone the roster.

Stories like these are a bit of an obsession with me on two levels. Hamulack didn't quite achieve almost-Met status — guys who put on the uniform, made the roster and never got to play. We've got four of those: Jerry Moses in '75, Terrell Hansen in '93, Mac Suzuki in '99 and Justin Speier in '01. (We've rattled on about this before.) Joe Hietpas would be stuck on that list if not for the fact that he got to catch the final inning of 2004, the only good move Art Howe ever made. It looked like Mike Jacobs would be an almost-Met, but we know the rest of that story.

Of those guys, Hansen is the one I've never been able to stop thinking about: He got sent back down, knocked around the minors for another decade or so, but never got the call-up. Got a number (21), a baseball card, clubhouse time, a chance to loathe Jeff Torborg, but never a line in the Baseball Encyclopedia. I'm sure it bothered him that he never got a chance to play in '93, but he was young and had to figure his day would come. It never did. Hell, compared with Terrell Hansen, Moonlight Graham looks like a lucky guy.

Hamulack's a 6' 4″ lefty who can throw 95 and has held opponents to a .175 average. He's nearly 29 and has been in the minors for 10 years, without a single day in The Show. Sounds like a guy we could use in September. Sounds like a guy to root for.