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Faith and Fear in Flushing made its debut on Feb. 16, 2005, the brainchild of two longtime friends and lifelong Met fans.

Greg Prince discovered the Mets when he was 6, during the magical summer of 1969. He is a Long Island-based writer, editor and communications consultant. Contact him here.

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Movin' On Up

“Mr. Randolph? Hi, I'm Rachel. NLE Properties.”

“Hello Rachel. Sorry I'm running late. I had to call a last-minute departmental meeting.”

“Is everything all right?”

“Oh, just had to shake up some complacent employees. Nothing to worry about.”

“Are you sure? Because I know we're so close to signing the papers…”

“Really, just a bump in the road. And to make up for my tardiness, I brought us lunch.”

“Oh, Mr. Randolph, sandwiches. You shouldn't have.”

“No problem. I get 'em free. They're toasted.”

“Yes, of course they are…um, are they tuna?

“No. Why?”

“Thought I smelled fish.”

“That's just from my job. We had a problem with some fish last night. That's why I had to call the meeting.”

“I see…oh, this is our floor. Penthouse.”

“Whoa! Nice.”

“Yes, I thought it would be a good idea if we looked around one more time. Now you're sure you're going to take the place?”

“Rachel, I've always been a winner. And this is where winners live, right?”

“I'm glad to hear you say that. Between you and me, I get my biggest commissions when I can get a new client into the penthouse. It's been a while. Twice I thought Mr. Valentine was going to take this space, but things fell through at the last minute.”

“Uh-huh.”

“Now what day were you thinking about moving in?”

“Any day now. Maybe as soon as Wednesday night if all goes well.”

“Is that when you expect to be ready?”

“Can't say for sure. I'll be traveling Thursday. Could take 'til the weekend. Can't imagine it will be much longer. That all right?”

“Oh, that's fine. Gives us plenty of time to get the old tenant out.”

“Old tenant? You mean this place isn't vacant yet? Seems pretty empty.”

“Well, technically the old tenant has another day on the lease. He's been moving out in stages since April. There's hardly any sign of him here anymore.”

“Hmmm…say these closets aren't empty.”

“That must be all that's left of his belongings. You know, the man who had this place has been here for a long time. I thought we were going to get a new tenant from Canada back in '94, but that whole summer was crazy.”

“I see. But his stuff will be out?”

“Absolutely.”

“Because it's kind of creepy seeing all those tomahawks in the closet.”

“Believe me, Mr. Randolph, everything will be ready for you to move in when you're ready.”

“What's with this guy? There must be like 14 of those things in this closet!”

“We try not to pry. Mr. Cox hasn't been a bad neighbor. A little grouchy of late, but he knows the rules.”

“Also, this place needs a paint job. It's all red and white. I don't care for that at all.”

“Oh, we'll have it repainted for when you move in. What colors would you prefer?”

“Do you have blue and orange?”

“I was in the warehouse this morning and saw we have a nice stockpile of cans of those two colors. The company ordered a case of it around 1988. They thought we'd be using a lot of it in the penthouse. I'm not sure what happened.”

“Uh-huh.”

“I see you're admiring the picture windows. Lovely isn't it?”

“I'll say. This is a great view. I can look down on everybody from here. You know I've visited the penthouse in your complex across town…”

“At ALE Properties? You know Mr. Torre?”

“Oh, we've shared a few sandwiches.”

“He's very happy there. He used to live in this building, though not on the top floor.”

“Uh-huh.”

“Say, you know what I found out from one of our more tenured agents the other day? When this structure was built in 1969, there was something of a struggle over who would get custody of this penthouse.”

“You don't say.”

“Funny story. A Mr. Durocher was all set to move in. Had all his suits and hats — big clotheshorse, they say — on racks right by the elevator. Had a truck from the liquor store around the corner coming by to stock the wet bar and everything. But then you know what happened?”

“He didn't get the penthouse?”

“Exactly! A Mr. Hodges moved in, right in front of him. That was before my time but they say he was a really nice man.”

“I've heard.”

“Didn't stay long. Same for Mr. Berra and Mr. Johnson. They all worked for the same company as you, didn't they?”

“Uh-huh.”

“Well, we certainly hope you'll be able to take out a longer-term lease on the place.”

“I hope so, too.”

“Any other questions, Mr. Randolph?”

“No, looks good. Like I said, I'm ready to sign the papers and get my stuff in here by the weekend.”

“Great. NLE Properties will be happy to have you.”

“One thing…”

“Yes?”

“Please be sure to get those tomahawks out of the closet. No kidding, they really creep me out.”

Panic at the Dolphin

Breaks are good. It’s not a bad idea taking a break every now and then. I know how hard you all work…my point is this: Break’s over.

—President Bartlet

OK, so maybe Dave Williams isn't the answer. That was Uggla all around, but the starting pitching is where it begins and, against the Marlins, ended. Quickly.

Maine makes me nervous, Trachsel makes me nauseous and now Williams has made me negate my previous enthusiasm for his playoff elevation. Given that our last three games this trio's hurled — and I do mean hurled — has produced a composite score of Others 30 Us 6, I withdraw my endorsement of any Mets pitcher who isn't Pedro, Glavine or El Duque. Right now, if we need a fourth starter in the NLDS, Mets in three.

Assuming we qualify for the NLDS.

What I'd Rather Remember

My father goes somewhere, he generally carries nothing. Whatever he needs is presumably in his pockets. I never noticed it until I realized how he’s the opposite of me. I take after my mother. I carry a bag.

Not a purse, not a man purse. A shoulder bag I guess you’d call it. An overnight bag or a gym bag maybe. When I had a Mets game, it was my game bag. It replaced a briefcase for me years ago and it just became a habit. First for work, then for anywhere I went that involved public transportation. I was never a backpack person and those messenger bags never cut it for me. Mine was kind of bulky, a little too rectangular for the subway, but I liked it.

What was so important that I decided I needed a whole bag to schlep it everywhere?

Press kit folder from the last event I attended

Older press kit folder repurposed to hold current work stuff

Legal pad

Steno pad

Reporter’s notebook

Pens (some run dry)

Pencils (none very sharp)

Rusting paper clips

Brittle rubber bands

Dozens of tissues and napkins, mostly crumpled or deteriorating

Dozens of business cards, many creased beyond respectability

A book

A magazine

The Times

The News

Newsday

Occasionally, if I wasn’t mad at it, the Post

A plastic bag with an AM/FM walkman, headphones, four to eight spare AA batteries and three homemade compilation tapes

An extra plastic bag

Sprint PCS phone

New York City subway map

Long Island Rail Road monthly ticket

Long Island Rail Road monthly ticket sleeve

Timetables for two or three LIRR branches and two or three stations

Portable umbrella

Repeatedly refilled Poland Spring bottle

Small plastic bag for water bottle in case of leakage

Spare bottlecaps (as some facilities take your caps away when you buy their beverages)

A baseball cap if my destination involved the sun and/or baseball

The current Mets pocket schedule

The previous season’s Mets pocket schedule

A pack of Big Red chewing gum, possibly open

A Ziploc bag filled with prescription medicines plus emergency supplies of Advil, Lanacane, Band-Aids, Tums, Pepcid, Gas-X, Tylenol Sinus, Tylenol Cold, Tylenol Cold Non-Drowsiness Formula, Hall’s Mentholated Cough Drops, Chapstick and a spare pair of shoe laces.

In my entire life of carrying spare shoelaces, I’ve never needed them. Maybe the day I stop carrying them, I’ll rue it.

There was a Saturday when I grabbed the bag and hopped a train. Not because I had to but because I wanted to. Both of us, Stephanie and I, made a rare weekend daytrip out of East Rockaway into Manhattan. Our first destination was Grand Central Station. Maybe because we don’t commute in there on a regular basis, we love that place. We once spent a vacation looking for excuses to hang out there. Our two favorite destinations: the Transit Museum annex & store and the dining concourse on the lower level. We would hit both on this Saturday.

The Transit Museum held special appeal. It hosted a salute to the Subway Series, all of them. The Giants and the Yankees. The Dodgers and the Yankees. The Mets and the Yankees. One wall was dominated by a Mets pitcher. “Al Leiter,” I said. “Bobby Jones,” Stephanie corrected me. I’ll be damned. It was a righthander with facial hair after all. I so associated the disappointment of the 2000 Series with Al’s heroic effort in Game Five that I just assumed it was him.

We took some pictures and then retreated to Junior’s for lunch. Stephanie loved the original Junior’s. She worked downtown and once or twice found an excuse with a workmate to cross the Brooklyn Bridge and take out dessert from there. Its spinoff location was our favorite spot to eat in Grand Central. Overpriced, but almost worth it. The waiter, a chatty, older New York guy who probably turned on the local charm for tourists, inquired into what we were up to, specifically making note of my t-shirt. It said Mets 13 on the front, ALFONZO 13 on the back.

I’m going to the game tonight, I told him. Great, he said — where ya sitting? I’ll look for ya! I gave him my general location in the mezzanine, fully aware he wasn’t going to watch that closely and that I’d be out of camera range.

Even if he made good on his word, he wouldn’t see Stephanie. She wasn’t coming with. This was a Joe affair. Joe is my friend who invites me to games months in advance that I half-heartedly agree to attend with him. When they creep up, I begin to dread them, particularly if they’re on Saturday nights as they seemed to be at least a couple of times a year. I go to games throughout the week but if there’s one time slot I don’t care for, it’s Saturday night. Joe’s single. Saturday night is any night of the week to him. Not that Stephanie and I hit the town in any meaningful fashion on Saturday nights (we’d mostly do laundry), but being married, you tend to want to be with your wife then. Still, I had agreed, so I was going. The afternoon in the city was a way to make the day not a total loss for us.

We finished our Junior’s cheesecake, left Grand Central and headed east. Stephanie wanted to show me around Tudor City. She used to have clients there when she was a case worker. It’s all the way over on the East Side. We could walk over there and up to the UN and take some more pictures. It was a beautiful day, sunny and warm. In my black ALFONZO shirt, I needed no jacket. It was probably the only potential item not stuffed into that bag.

It must have been heading toward 5:30 when I pulled out a Long Island Rail Road schedule and coordinated our plans. We would go back to Grand Central and shuttle to Times Square. There, I’d kiss my wife goodbye and put her on a 1, 2 or 3 to Penn Station. I’d U-turn onto a 7, squeeze in among baseball fans, tennis fans and fans of nothing more than going home to Queens. I was headed to Shea for my Saturday night with Joe, the Mets and the Marlins. I found a seat and put my big bag on my lap and we chugged toward Flushing. As I had done a couple of dozen times already in the season, I rode that 7 straight to Willets Point/Shea Stadium. Grabbed my bag, found the open staircase (curse you, U.S. Open) and presented my ticket at Gate D. I walked from the subway right through the entrance completely unimpeded.

I’d see Joe on the escalator but didn’t exactly flag him down. Wanted to make a few stops before committing to our regular round of lulls mixed in with dabs of conversation. Go to the men’s room, stroll the loge, enjoy a Carvel helmet before a line formed, pick up a pretzel and a Diet Pepsi. I like Joe but I didn’t need an extra hour of him before the game. I joined him after stalling, shook hands and shoved my big bag under my seat.

The night would unfold like these tended to. Joe kept score and yelled embarrassing things at the Mets to motivate them (his favorite was telling a player who failed in a particular situation that his Yankee counterpart “wouldn’t do that”). I was annoyed, but more than annoyed, I was cold. So warm was the afternoon in Manhattan and so black was my Fonzie shirt — it held the heat real well — that a jacket seemed unnecessary. But this, rookie, was Shea Stadium, where chill can break out anytime. I grew colder and one of my headaches developed. I had those a lot then, which is why I carried the Advil and the Tylenol. They didn’t help and neither did folding my arms. I told Joe I was cold. He told me he wasn’t. If Joe played the Bernard Gilkey role in Men In Black, he wouldn’t have noticed the space ship either.

I was cold enough to break with an informal policy of mine. I usually rolled my eyes and turned up my nose at what my friend Jace called the credit card hawkers, the presumably struggling actors and actresses recruited to lure you to fill out an application for a card with a Mets logo. To entice you, they would offer you a premium. The idea of spilling confidential information where others were spilling their Gulden’s seemed juxtaposition-challenged. But at last, they had something I wanted, and it wasn’t an additional line of credit.

By signing up for an MBNA Mets credit card, I was entitled to a Mets beach towel. I wasn’t one for the beach. I just wanted something to wrap around me. It was better than nothing, but it wasn’t much help. It provided little warmth and the inks used to create the black Mets insignia only made my headache worse.

As for the game, it was 2-2 seemingly all night. Kevin Appier pitched well and hit better. He singled home the two Mets’ runs in the second. He would go eight, giving up single runs in the fourth (John Mabry homer) and fifth (Luis Castillo sac fly). Otherwise, things stayed tied and got colder. Stephanie was home. I wished I was there.

It went on like this until the bottom of the eleventh. With one out, recurring callup Jorge Toca (Joe called him his “cult favorite” and would shout “it’s TOCA Time!” during his rare at-bats) singled. After another out, Jay Payton — replacing Benny Agbayani who somehow broke a bone in his wrist checking a swing — doubled. Toca bellyflopped across home plate with the Mets’ third run, making a winner out of Grant Roberts and pinning a loss on ex-Met Juan Acevedo. Briefly snapped out of my frigid, pain-filled torpor, I high-fived Joe. Then I gathered up my big bag and headed for the 7 to Woodside and, eventually, the LIRR east. Stephanie had already gone to bed.

That bad check was Agbayani’s final swing as a Met. The W was the first Roberts would inhale. And Toca had time for only two more runs in the bigs. They’re footnotes to my Saturday night at Shea, though. The figure I remember most was not a player, not a credit card hawker, not Joe, not even my towel. What I remember now is my big bag. It would never see the underside of a Shea Stadium seat again.

The game took place on Saturday, September 1. The next day, when the Mets were stymied by Ryan Dempster, I watched from the couch. With the Mets then heading to Philadelphia, Florida and Pittsburgh, I wasn’t due back at Shea until Friday, September 14.

***

In the first week of September 2001, just as in the first week of September 2006, just as it had been pretty much every week preceding September 2001, baseball was my overriding concern. The Mets were defending National League champions. They weren’t doing much of a job on defense, falling out of the race for good by mid-August. I knew they were done. I saw them first-hand enough to claim an enhanced sense of observation.

After two thrilling postseason rides in a row when we sweated out ticket requests, bids and scrums, Jace and his wife Emily had a fairly obvious but nevertheless clever idea: Let’s buy a season-ticket plan. Jace’s co-worker Danielle was in on it and then I climbed aboard. We were in for every Tuesday and Friday, April to September. Shea’s seasonlong charms notwithstanding, the plan was supposed to result in ease of access for October. October, however, appeared elusive.

The Mets sputtered from the get-go in 2001. They fell under .500 in April and never fully recovered. Our postseason privileges were moot. It was fun going to more games than ever before, but fun had its limits. Every Tuesday night and every Friday night began to feel like moonlighting. Work all day in the city and rush out by six to get to the night job in Flushing. Could there be too much of a good thing?

This was the year of the return of the unbalanced schedule. The Saturday night with Joe was my fifth Mets-Marlins game of 2001. The Mets were bad. The Marlins were worse. I had to wonder what was more unbalanced: the schedule or my priorities? Through September 1, I had been to Shea — Tuesdays, Fridays, stray days besides — on 31 separate occasions. I enjoyed the quality time when the gang showed up (they skipped a few dates, the sanity-lovers), but the question really wasn’t whether there could be too much of a good thing. It was how much of a lousy team could I watch in person?

The cumulative effect left me cynical. I was in a fairly intense Met e-mail group that summer and I had a dark-humor ball composing tributes to the lousiness of the Mets. I wrote an obituary for Darryl Hamilton’s career. I suggested Glendon Rusch could join the cast of ER, reconfigured as a “tense drama of Earned Runs and heartstopping fifth-inning pitching changes.” And I told one of our more hopeful pen pals, Dan, to stop insisting this could be another 1973, you’re insulting its memory.

Funny thing was Dan was a visionary. For all the cynicism those Mets inspired, they had a little baseball left in them. They snapped an August losing streak in California. They came home and whupped up on an unwelcome Mike Hampton and the Rockies. They stuck it to Barry Bonds and the Giants three times before Barry got to Appier once. Pat Burrell couldn’t prevent the Phillies from losing twice. When the Marlins visited for the thirtieth or fortieth time, Al Leiter greeted them with a triple. Then Toca.

Weird 1973-style stuff was happening. The Mets, out of it by 13-1/2 games on August 17, pulled to within 7-1/2 of the Braves and Phillies on Payton’s double and Toca’s slide. They had won 11 of 14. Oddly, the Wild Card was out of reach but the N.L. East was in play. Wouldn’t it be something that after four consecutive seasons of chasing the best second-place record in the National League that this time maybe, just maybe, a miracle might lie in a good, old-fashioned first place finish? You had to believe.

Dempster’s dominance on September 2 didn’t deter them. The Mets went to Philadelphia starting Labor Day and swept three. Then they took Thursday and Friday night games in Miami. I wanted to see if they could make it six in a row on Saturday. I wanted to see something else, too.

While the Mets floundered in the summer of 2001, the Brooklyn Cyclones rose. It had been discussed for years, this idea of sticking a minor league team in Brooklyn. It sounded self-defeating and pointlessly nostalgic. Who would want to go to a ballgame in a borough abandoned precisely because enough people wouldn’t go there for a ballgame? And why would the Mets want to set up their own competitive product (never mind the obvious jokes in waiting, like “if I want to see a minor league team, I’ll go to Shea”)?

But I was flat wrong. Keyspan Park on the boardwalk in Coney Island was beautiful. Neon lights. Ocean breeze. Perfect atmosphere. Jammed every game. And though the results were inconsequential, the Cyclones were apparently good, too. It was raw rookies but apparently ours were pretty decent. Jace and Emily introduced them firsthand to Stephanie and me on a Sunday in early August. Their treat. We had a blast. I came back with some friends from work later in the month. Coney Island at dusk after a long day was even better.

The Cyclones’ first season saw them make the playoffs. Who should be their opponent in the first round but the Staten Island Yankees? It was the previous October’s Subway Series all over again in miniature. The two teams split two games. The decider would be at Keyspan Saturday night, September 8.

I was supposed to fly out on business that night. National Airlines, however, called me at home to tell me my flight from JFK was cancelled but they could put me on a plane Sunday morning, no extra charge for the lack of a Saturday stayover. Great, I said. I was only going Saturday night because of that fee. I had no reason to be where I was headed until Sunday anyway. I never much cared for traveling unless a ballpark was involved. This trip, it wasn’t.

I wanted to stay home with my wife, my cats and my teams as long as I could. I wanted to watch the Mets play the Marlins in Miami on Channel 11. I wanted to watch the Brooklyn Cyclones play the Staten Island Yankees for the McNamara Division championship on Fox Sports Net. Thanks to National Airlines, I didn’t have to go anywhere. An airline screws up and it’s a reprieve. Imagine that.

In the minor league portion of the simultaneous doubleheader, the Cyclones’ catcher, Brett Kay, deked a Yankee runner at Keyspan Park. It was called pulling the dead man. He fooled him into slowing down and then tagged him out and then got the winning hit, a homer. The Cyclones had beaten the Yankees! It didn’t make up for the Yankees beating the Mets the previous October, but for a few passing seconds, it kind of did. Call it minor revenge.

Meanwhile, it was back and forth in Florida. Matt Lawton doubled home two runs in the ninth and Desi Relaford added another and the Mets beat the Fish, 9-7 in a game that, at 3 hours and 57 minutes, felt like it would never end. It was our sixth in a row. We had pulled to within seven of the Braves. We were a game under .500, but the division was shaping up like another 1973. We had lots of dates left with the Braves.

***

“Excuse me, but what cap is that?”

“Brooklyn Cyclones.”

The desk clerk said something I couldn’t make out. I asked him to repeat it.

“Mike Piazza stays here.”

Or was it “Mike Piazza’s gay here”? No, probably the former.

Regardless, it was odd to be somewhere where a Cyclones cap didn’t elicit instant recognition. It was the accessory of choice in New York, but I wasn’t in New York anymore. For the fourth time in a decade, I was in Las Vegas to cover the National Beer Wholesalers Association convention, a city and an event that filled me with no enthusiasm.

I showed up at JFK Sunday morning brimming with baseball. The Cyclones were going to play Williamsport for the league championship. And the Mets had one more game at Pro Player, Trachsel, trying to stretch the Mets’ winning streak to seven, versus Matt Clement. I found a newsstand and bought the papers, discarding extraneous sections and supplements and saving the sports pages. All year long I would reduction-copy one tabloid page — back page if we merited it — that reflected a Mets win. It was a habit I got into late in 2000. 2001 showed no signs of being an encore, but habit was habit. I decided I’d place them all in a binder after the season and present them to Jace as a keepsake from our season-ticket adventure. With headlines on September 9 like THEY WON’T GO AWAY and Another Stunner signifying how the Mets were creeping back into the race, maybe there’d be more pages than I’d anticipated.

By the time I got to Vegas, got my bags, got to the hotel and got to the check-in clerk who wanted to dish Mike Piazza, I was antsy. The only good thing I could discern about being here was the presence of sports books. They took action on everything, even baseball games. I have no idea how one bets on baseball, but I remembered following another Mets-Marlins game in Vegas when I was in town for the same convention in 1993. I watched a toteboard flash the results for the Mets’ 59th win of that wretched year on its last day. I’m sure I was alone. My guess was I could find a monitor somewhere on the strip beaming the Mets and Marlins which was probably in the sixth or seventh inning. Since my room wasn’t going to be ready for a spell (very annoying), I found that monitor in my hotel. It was buried amid big screens transmitting the first Sunday of NFL games and horse racing. It was actually a black and white set. But here they were in Nevada, my Mets. Losing. In Florida.

Stupid Trachsel.

I rounded back to the desk. The clerk pleaded for my patience. I raised a fuss. He pushed a few keys on a computer and gave me a room I wasn’t supposed to have. I thanked him and headed there for my scheduled two-night stay, in on September 9, out on September 11 to fly to another leg of business, a San Francisco conference on New Age beverages.

Once in my room, I found ESPN. The Mets had lost. Wasn’t that big a story. Barry Bonds hitting his 61st, 62nd and 63rd was. He was seven from McGwire. The Mariners, aiming at the Yankees’ record of 114 wins from three years earlier, shut out the Orioles to improve to 103-40. Atlanta won. We were 8 back that Sunday. We were off Monday.

***

September 1, 2001 was the last time I carried my big bag to Shea. I’ve learned to consolidate. Plus, since I decided to become self-employed, I’m almost always leaving from home to go to the ballpark. Don’t have to lug work stuff around. I’m still a hypochondriac of sorts but I’ve ditched the office supplies.

Lately I use a promotional mini-duffel bag I got covering an investors’ conference in 1998. The Walkman, hopelessly out of fashion even then, has been replaced by a tiny radio I bought at the Wiz on September 21, 2001, which turned out to be the next time after September 1 that I’d be going to Shea. That night I jammed it, like my phone, in my pockets. Brought nothing to read for the ride home. We were told not to bring anything but our tickets with us.

It was no hardship to scale back then and it’s not now. I kind of miss the handy pockets and pouches of the big bag, especially when I’m buying a yearbook or a scorecard. Even if it’s not explicitly banned from the premises today — I kind of doubt it is, regardless of what it says about security precautions on the Mets’ Web site — there would just be more to be sorted through by strangers’ hands before I could walk in and see my team.

Every time I grab the mini-duffel that replaced the big bag, every time I figure out what I absolutely need, what I might need and what I don’t need to bring to a Mets game, every time I go about meticulously cramming everything in there so I can find what I want without a lot of groping, I think back to when I didn’t have to think about it at all.

I think back to September 1, 2001.

I think back to the June night in 2001 when my season ticket partner rolled fully packed luggage into the building, on to an escalator and up to our seats because he had just landed at LaGuardia.

I think back to seventh-inning stretches that consisted only of “Take Me Out To The Ballgame” and “Lazy Mary,” even on Sundays.

I think back to thinking of heroes in terms of men who throw 142 pitches and tragedy as the 38-hop single that squeaks through the infield on the 142nd pitch.

I think back to wandering through Grand Central Station or rushing through Penn Station and seeing a transit cop or two but not a single National Guardsman.

I think back to flying to Las Vegas and my biggest worry being when my stuff would come out at baggage claim so I could grab it and make it to Bally’s in time for the last few innings of the Mets and Marlins.

I think back to picking up the tickets to that first Cyclones game in August 2001 from Jace. He worked downtown. I wasn’t sure which subway stop I’d have to go to in order to get back uptown but Jace knew the neighborhood and led us down into the World Trade Center where I could head to Penn and he could go to Brooklyn.

The first time I was in the World Trade Center was on a class trip in seventh grade. The American Stock Exchange, then the Twin Towers. They warned us not to get any bright ideas about throwing pennies from the observatory deck. In the cafeteria where tour groups were led, I was introduced to pita bread. I had what they called a Pocketburger. Ate lunch with Marianne Fickler on whom I had a fleeting crush because she was a 13-year-old political junkie like me. It was the day of the California primary, June 8, 1976. The last time I was in the World Trade Center was with Jace after picking up the Cyclone tickets. It was August 2, 2001.

I think back to a helluva lot that happened later, too, starting with five years ago today, the Tuesday morning I woke up in Las Vegas, turned on the TV at about 8:40 AM Pacific time and saw destruction so unfathomable that I honestly thought I was watching a promo for some creepy movie-of-the-week, one about what would happen if terrorists struck a major American city. I never cared for those kinds of films but it sure looked realistic. The things they can do with computers, I thought.

Hey, why are they promoting this movie on every channel at the same time?

I think back to grasping that what I was watching was real and that it was taking place — had taken place, actually; we were three hours behind New York — around the corner from where my wife worked and across the street from where my season-ticket partner worked. I think back to making frantic phone calls to discover my wife had hoofed it across the Williamsburg Bridge and eventually to a friend’s house in Bay Ridge but not before she saw people jump from dozens of stories above the street and the second tower collapse. She saw a sidewalk littered with keys and beepers and a piece of an airplane engine. I think back to reading the e-mail I received from my season-ticket partner to tell me he was all right, too, that he wasn’t yet in the office when the planes hit. I think back to being stranded in Las Vegas for five days longer than I’d planned, begging National Airlines and Travelocity for the first possible flight home after the government allowed planes back in the air. I think back to spending the balance of that week in my hotel room, blowing my nose (I’d come down with a cold on September 10), changing channels, talking to everybody I could connect to on the phone and wondering what would become of us as a city, a nation, a people. I think back to thinking of all of those I never met who should have been so lucky that their worst problem was being stuck in Las Vegas for a few days.

I think back to not thinking about baseball. Not thinking about it at all.

***

The Mets were frozen 8 back, their games called off for the time being. The Cyclones and Williamsport were declared co-champions after Brooklyn won the first of their scheduled best-of-three. None of this penetrated my brain. When I ran across ESPN on my remote and heard Tim Kurkjian speculate about what might be postponed or cancelled, he expressed concern that whatever solution is reached be fair to the Mariners. Fair to the Mariners? Thousands are dead and you’re worried about 115 wins?

I had threatened to give up on baseball at the end of 1998 when the Mets choked away the Wild Card and again a year later when they came close to doing the same. Then I couldn’t imagine giving over my heart and soul to a team that had relentlessly disappointed me. Now I couldn’t imagine caring enough to be disappointed or elated by baseball. It was a game. This was life. Life was overwhelming.

Still, I sure had liked baseball. I dipped into all my convention stuff and found the clippings from Sunday’s papers. There were Matt Lawton and Desi Relaford beating the Marlins last Saturday. I remembered how much baseball had meant to me, how important the 2000 World Series and the 1999 playoffs were. Or seemed.

I wanted to get home in the worst way. If I could have driven on highways (something that gives me the shakes), I would have rented a car and driven. As I failed to make progress with the airline, I started making daily trips to the Gap at Caesar’s — past the dancing waters of the Bellagio, now stilled as Lee Greenwood replaced Frank Sinatra on the speakers — to buy extra underwear. If I can’t get out on a plane by Monday, I’ll track down a Greyhound. However long the journey takes, I am leaving Las Vegas.

Of course I wanted to get home. I wanted to see my wife and my cats, my father and his girlfriend, my sister and her husband, my office and my colleagues. But I decided it was just as crucial that I see my friends at Shea Stadium again. I wanted to be there when the Mets started playing ball again. I wanted to be there for the national anthem. I wanted to climb the stairs to Row M of Section 9 of the Mezzanine to my aisle seat, Seat 24, and stand in front of it and sing in salute to what so proudly we hailed at the twilight’s last gleaming. And I wanted to do it next to Jace and Emily and Danielle.

***

I got a flight out Sunday, September 16. The airport wasn’t the mob scene Vegas TV made it out to be. I snapped the file off of my nail clippers just in case anybody was going to ask about it. They didn’t. Was assigned the middle seat. Never so happy to be wedged between two fellow travelers for five hours. When the flight landed at JFK, I affixed my Cyclones cap (red, white and blue) to my head and ran straight for Stephanie.

The next game at Shea was Friday. I ran straight there, too.

Got my embrace with my friends. Got my national anthem, performed by Marc Anthony, me and however many of 41,235 who had made it past the bag searches and the frisking that I doubt anybody questioned. Diana Ross sang “God Bless America,” but I was in the long security line and had to listen to it on my new tiny radio. That’s also where I heard the bagpipes.

Did see the Mets and their supposed enemies the Braves wish each other the best. Did see Liza Minnelli belt out a rousing “New York New York” supported by a kickline of suddenly smiling fire fighters and police officers in full dress. She ended it by hugging Jay Payton in the on-deck circle. That was going to the bottom of the seventh. In the bottom of the eighth, Mike Piazza hit a two-run home run off Steve Karsay. The PA shelved the usual Gary Glitter accompaniment. It was left to us to cheer and wave flags. We did. And we beat the Braves to move within 4-1/2 games of first place.

It was hailed as a solemn victory of healing, a stirring triumph of the resilient New York spirit and a fitting tribute to those who gave their lives heroically so that others could keep theirs. September 21, 2001, the first home game after 9/11, is universally recalled as among the most remarkable nights anybody will ever witness or feel inside Shea Stadium. I wouldn’t disagree and I’ll never forget it.

But I’d take September 1, 2001, my last home game before 9/11, every time.

4 For 4

“If we’d had 5 decent starters, his ass would have been out of here 4 years ago!”

Thus spake a disgusted Joe in the midst of Sunday afternoon’s Trachselization. When Joe has the clearest vision among 45,000 disgruntled Mets fans (and probably 3,000 jerks who haven’t heard the Dodgers don’t play one borough over anymore), surely it’s time for action.

Stevie Shoelaces untied my 5-game winning streak and slapped me right back under .500 for the year, 24 hours after I climbed back to break-even for the first time since 0-0; Joe and I are 0-4 together…and outscored, he looked up, 38-10 on our weekend ventures. But I’ll happily — ecstatically — accept a lackluster 8-9 mark for myself for now if it means this day was not in vain. It is my fondest hope that Steve Trachsel’s 3rd-inning exit, down 0-4 with loaded bases bequeathed to Royce Ring, punched his ticket out of the rotation for the playoffs. If I can legitimately claim I witnessed the final start of Steve Trachsel’s Mets career, I’ll chalk that milestone to my record proudly.

The last time a perpetually berated Mets starter took the ball in the postseason, it was Bobby Jones. But Jones, fairly useless from the middle of 1997 to the middle of 2000, was on an upswing for a couple of months leading to October 2000. He was downright hot down the stretch. His pitching, not his since-’93 longevity, earned him his starts. We were rewarded.

Any ball handed Trachsel next month should be signed by the entire team and melded to a plaque that says, “Good Luck Steve! Fondly, Your Former Teammates.”

Loyalty’s a marvelous quality and if you’ve been on a team that has been playoffless since the moment you showed up and you’ve been with the team the longest of anybody, it would be heartwarming to see you get your chance in the spotlight. But not if it’s at the expense of success in those playoffs. Willie’s a loyal guy, but to his guys (which is probably why Ricky Ledee is here and Fonzie isn’t, though Fonzie’s .241 BA at Norfolk might have been a factor). Trachsel’s not one of Willie’s guys. Just about everybody else is. It will take guts to drop a veteran at this stage of the season. Willie’s got guts. Let’s see if he has the stomach or judgment to make the move. (Note: Willie and Omar are professionals at evaluating baseball players and what they can do for the team. I’m just cranky and kvetchy, but I do pay attention.)

If Steve is incapable of starting effectively when they need him most, then maybe this was the beginning of the end or the end of the end for Trachsel’s 6 years as a Met. He’s shown no sign that he could ever adapt to a relief role. I don’t want him out there in a Game 4 over Maine or Williams or Perez or George Stone. The 5.17 ERA he left with after 67 pitches and 8 outs wasn’t built on just a bad week. If the Tigers can release Dmitri Young in September, perhaps Trachsel can become his batting practice pitcher.

The Dodgers seem to like his stuff well enough.

Of course, Trachsel could have pitched to his earned run average against L.A. and the Mets still would have laid a wreath at the tomb of the unknown lefty. If we face the Dodgers and Little pitches Penny over Stults, he’s as big a dope as they believe he was in Boston.

The only intriguing note of a positive nature from this 9-1 throttling was a Julio Franco sighting at 3rd base in the 8th and 9th. He made 2 nifty slings to 2nd. Julio Franco hadn’t played 3rd base since 1982. Julio Franco is the Ralph Malph of infielders. He’s still got it.

By then, though, most of the patrons had left. When plenty of good seats are suddenly available with a game in progress, it can only mean Steve Trachsel in on his 2nd bottle of pinot.

Marlins beat the Phillies. Through all this yeech, comes a yay. Yay, the magic number is 4.

4.01: Is Acta Practicing the Stop Sign? It was pleasant to see Jose Reyes hit a meaningless 4-bagger in the 6th. It is shocking to realize he has more homers (19) than triples (16). He will need 4 very specific extra-base hits, 1 homer and 3 triples, to get to 20 in the 4 categories that only the greats have reached at once. He’s already doubled 28 times and stolen 57 bases. If he has 20 homers and 19 triples on the last day and he hits 1 out, would it be real bad form to trot into the dugout after he touches 3rd?

4.02: Sweep! Sweep! The Mets won the 1969 World Series in 4 straight. Game 1 was practice.

4.03: He’s in My Face. In light of the historical theme running through our countdown, it would be proper to salute No. 4 Ron Swoboda or No. 4 Lenny Dykstra or maybe even No. 4 Bob Bailor, but the No. 4 Met who’s hard for me to ignore at the moment is the current bearer, Chris Woodward. He’s half of the September page on my Banco Popular Calendar Weekend calendar hanging behind my computer. They made him share a picture with Aaron Heilman. Coulda been worse for Woody. Xavier Nady was August.

4.04: B-R-L-F-Q Spells Mom and Dad. In 2002, Steve Trachsel posted a sparkling 3.37 ERA for a last-place team. While he has seemingly regressed, we have, in 4 short years, gone from rags to riches. Bobby Goldsboro said he did the same in “Watching Scotty Grow”. Nearly 14 years ago, I was writing a sub-headline for the cover of the magazine I worked for that played off another lyric from the same song. It said that three particular executives “are Watching Snapple Grow”. I was asked if we needed the “are” in the sentence. I explained it was meant to recall the line, “Me and God are watching Scotty grow.” Another staff member, who would reveal himself over the remainder of my tenure at that publication to be the biggest horse’s ass in the rear-end genre, said that’s not it, it’s “Me and Dottie watching Scotty grow.” Dottie? Who the hell is Dottie? This guy insisted Bobby Goldsboro, like him, was from Alabama, and in Alabama, “we don’t take the Lord’s name in vain.” He was extraordinarily adamant about this, adamant to the edge of argumentive. I drove to Tower Records, bought a cassette of Bobby Goldsboro’s greatest hits and found the proof. It was “Me and God,” not “Me and Dottie”. I brought it to work, played the song and pointed out, “See? See? ‘Me and God’.” The horse’s ass’ reply? “I don’t know why you’re making such a big deal out of this.” Also, the song was written by Mac Davis of Lubbock, Texas.

Good God.

Having a Ball

Yesterday I drove back to NYC from Long Beach Island, so it was another day of catch-as-catch-can baseball. But it was an adventurous one: Emily and Joshua got dropped at Sesame Place outside Philadelphia for an outing with his grandparents, so our friend Eddie and I heard the intriguing Maddux/Duque duel on FAN as we planned an outing of our own. What better way to cap the calorie-fest that was vacation at the beach than taste-testing cheesesteaks (whiz, wit) in South Philly? So off we went to Pat's and Geno's. I drew the Geno's assignment and totally muffed order etiquette, but was treated mercifully enough. (I ordered in English, by the way.) If anyone's curious, my vote was for Pat's, whose onions I thought had more bite. But it was the thinnest of margins. You can't really go wrong.

As previously chronicled, the game was a perfect, modest little affair: good pitching, one big hit, two lead changes. Now that Greg Maddux isn't a Brave he can be appreciated far more — the story of Maddux intentionally grooving a slider to Butch Huskey in a spring-training game as preparation for the regular season is a classic, for example.

But while I'm not going to vilify him, I do have a question: Why just 72 pitches? I can't believe Grady Little pulled him (insert Pedro/Yankees joke here), so I assume it was Maddux's decision. I know Maddux had just run the bases. I know he's in his twilight and his margin for error, location-wise, is down to nothing. But with a game on the line that the Dodgers have to win, isn't it better for them to have a tiring Maddux on the mound than Tim Hamulack or Brett Tomko?

You were happy to see him depart in favor of those two decidedly mere mortals, and rightly so. Maddux has an aura about him that he earned by being a perennial Cy Young winner, by being a sure-fire Hall of Famer, by being Greg Fricking Maddux. Brett Tomko? If he has any kind of aura, he needs to do a better job in the shower. And yet there Maddux went, presumably on his own or without much resistance, after which Hamulack nearly gave up a home run to Delgado and Tomko gave up the fatal single to Wright. Assuming it was Maddux's decision, I'm not saying it was selfish or arrogant — the L wound up on Maddux's ledger, after all. If anything, it seems excessively unselfish and modest — believing too much in a supporting cast you far outshine. Whatever it is, I don't get it.

Regardless, the game turned out right and was over around Trenton. But my baseball day wasn't over. On Thursday night, after the Brooklyn Cyclones earned a trip to the New York-Penn League playoffs in unlikely fashion, I grabbed a couple of playoff tickets online. Last night was the first of a best-two-of-three series with the Staten Island Yankees, and my Internet order landed me seats 10 rows back, behind home plate.

Sounded great late Thursday night, but as I lugged various possessions out of the rental car late Saturday afternoon, I had at least a moderate case of buyer's remorse. Everybody I invited to the game was busy, I was bone tired, I would have to find a place to park the rental car and then either return it to Manhattan after the game or get billed for an extra day, and I would be late getting to Keyspan (after a long haul on the F train) no matter what I did. Frankly, getting rid of the rental car and then taking a cheesesteak-induced nap seemed like the smart plan.

But man, I had an awfully good ticket. I had a chance to end summer with an unexpected Coney Island visit. And the Cyclones were in the playoffs.

Oh, what the hell.

So it was that I strolled up to Keyspan, print-at-home tickets in hand, around 6:15. The game was on, and I saw something drop from the concourse above, land on the pavement with a dull, meaty sound, and roll toward me.

What idiot would drop a baseball out of the concourse? I thought.

I've been going to baseball games for 30 years. I've never left with a foul ball. Never. Eventually, the years of anticipation yielding nothing and reflexes dulled by overthinking everything combined to leave me almost unaware that one could get a foul ball, and all but helpless when one did come my way. At Shea, I've been caught by my wife cringing away from one that wasn't all that close. I've had one come within a couple of feet while I goggled at it stupidly (and did nothing to protect my kid). At a Bowie Baysox game years ago a foul ball skipped up the aisle to where I was ordering a hot dog and hit me in the foot. It spun at my feet for a moment; I stared at it like the ape with the thigh bone in 2001 before a passing kid gave me a strange look and picked it up. (An outfielder did toss a ball in my general direction after an inning at Keyspan, but that doesn't count. Besides, I dropped it.)

Anyway, all of this is to explain why I would actually think someone had dropped a ball out of the Keyspan Park concourse before realizing that was a foul ball rolling along the pavement in front of me. (Hit, it turned out, by recent callup D.J. Wabick.)

After all those years, it wasn't even hard: The ball rolled right to me, like a dog offered a treat. I stopped, put my hand down, the ball rolled into it, I read OFFICIAL BALL NEW YORK-PENN LEAGUE on it, thought “Cool!” and walked on into the stadium.

As if there aren't thousands of reasons already, let that be a lesson. You're tired? You've got a lot to do? You won't get there for first pitch? Whatever. Go to the game.

5 For 5

It’s been a great week for the connective tissue of the Metsosphere. Faith and Fear gets to hang with Mike’s Mets on Tuesday and then dines al fresco with Mets Guy in Michigan in Manhattan on Saturday.

The world hasn’t witnessed this great a concentration of creative Mets energy since Metstradamus blogged alone.

Dave Murray and I have been baseball soulmates all our lives even if we never met until last evening. The beauty of blogging strikes again. We were born within 16 months of one another and grew up within maybe 12 miles of one another and rooted for the same team and discovered we once attended the same Rangers-White Sox game, but who would have known all that without this thing of ours? It’s a beautiful thing. That plus the education conference his paper sent him to cover at Columbia.

He couldn’t make it to Shea so I brought a little Shea to where he was staying on the Upper West Side. We found a bar with a few outdoor tables and attracted a stream of well-wishers drawn to my DELGADO 21 t-shirt and — here’s a scoop — my brand new, custom-made replica 1976 Mets Bicentennial cap. One patron asked if the Mets were home next week, he wanted to exchange some tickets. A passerby who’s retiring from the Transit Authority wanted to tell us he’s from the same town — Aguadilla, Puerto Rico — as Carlos D. Another pedestrian gave us a little song and dance about the Mets…literally. I gave him a buck for his troubles. (Eating outdoors? Bring singles.) Dave told me he was having trouble finding suitable Mets knickknacks to bring home to Michigan. I sense his next trip here will find a more firmly grounded Mets town.

Check local retailers late next month, if you know what I mean.

Another night, another blogger reveals himself as a first-rate human being, another Phillies loss lops magic matters to 5. How lucky can a Met fan get?

5.01: The State That’s Shaped Like a Mitt. In honor of the Mets Guy From Michigan, how about 5 Michiganders who became Mets? 1) Rick Down: Somebody thank him for whatever it is he’s done this year. 2) Mickey Weston: Dave’s his virtual biographer. 3) Rodney McCray: Even walls fall down. 4) Jim Gosger: ’69…’73…23 Skidoo!; 5) Keith Miller: His best position turned out to be agent.

5.02: It Shouldn’t Have Gotten This Far. David Wright’s No. 5 will be retired if there is justice in this world (didn’t say there was). Diamond Dave should be wearing any one of dozens of fabulous numbers right now, however, because 5 should have been retired for the David who didn’t mind being known as Davey. Other than winning half the franchise’s world championships, guiding them from nothing to everything and attaining more victories than anybody in the same job, Johnson wasn’t much of a manager.

5.03: Star Watch. Back to the current and ultimate No. 5. According to the übercomprehensive Ultimate Mets Database, David Wright is No. 41 on the all-time Met hit list. He is also the No. 41 of everyday Met players.

5.04: As Long as We’re Blogging Great Met Bloggers. You have to dig anybody who claims No. 5, Mike Phillips, as his favorite childhood Met. And I do.

5.05: He’s Not Great at Math Either. Paul Simon promised to share 50 ways to leave your lover. I count only 5 specific options to get yourself free: 1) Just slip out the back (Jack). 2) Make a new plan (Stan). 3) You don’t need to be coy (Roy). 4) Just hop on the bus (Gus). 5) Drop off the key (Lee). To be honest, I think Roy got shortchanged on advice.

6 For 6

You can to go a game in which the Mets are facing Greg Maddux and feel clean. You can watch a surefire Hall of Famer at the tail end of an honorable career and come away feeling good. You can say, hey, I saw a 300-game winner pitch, a guy who knows how to work fast and hit the corners and make another generation of hitters guess wrong.

This is not Roger Clemens. I’d have croup from screaming at him for hours on end. Roger Clemens is one of the best pitchers ever but you can’t look at him for a second without hoping a light stanchion falls on him. Maddux isn’t that. He was a bedeviling intradivisional opponent and it was always sweet to defeat him when we could and there was little shame (if a lot of frustration) in not getting to him. In a jumpy, antsy sports culture where we are quick to vilify anyone who wears the wrong uniform or throws to the wrong base in the right uniform, it’s reassuring to see a Greg Maddux take to the mound and give his best effort.

It’s even better when his manager pulls him after 72 pitches on a day when Maddux is doing fine. I don’t know if it was Maddux, rarely a hurler to extend himself beyond his limit, or Grady Little, still trying to figure out when and when not to yank immortals, but as glad as I was to see Greg Maddux pitch at Shea, I was way happier to see him removed. I’ll take my chances with Carlos Delgado and David Wright vs. Tim Hamulack and Brett Tomko.

And Orlando Hernandez, Aaron Heilman and Billy Wagner against everybody in a gray, nameless uniform.

Props to my friend of a decade Laurie for treating me to this treat of a pitchers’ duel. I admire Maddux. She deifies him. Her day was both soiled by Maddux’s loss and enhanced by the Mets’ win (whereas I took my fifth straight victory with no ambivalence). Beyond a general preference for Met success, there’s no formula to Laurie’s cheering impulses. They are lavished upon Cy Young stalwarts, but also directed toward long relievers teetering on the scrap heap. Laurie’s loyal to who Laurie’s loyal to. It’s like she’s running a fantasy team in a league of her own. I can’t figure out whether she’s tied for first or last.

As if whittling the magic number to 6 wasn’t fun enough Saturday afternoon.

6.01: I’m Almost Stumped. In honor of Laurie’s ability to love the Mets and Met opponents in comparable amounts, here, strictly off the top of my head, are 6 players I like who never played for the Mets presented in no order except that in which they are typed and not counting guys from history who played before I was paying attention…and also they had to have played against the Mets at some point in their careers: 1) Dale Murphy. 2) Chone Figgins. 3) Hank Aaron. 4) Tim Raines. 5) Vladimir Guerrero. 6) Albert Pujols, though that’s conditional through the first three weeks of this October.

6.02: The Worst Trade Nobody Brings Up. Wally Backman, the pre-eminent No. 6 in Mets history, for three nonentity Minnesota Twin minor leaguers in 1988. The idea was to clear out second base for Gregg Jefferies. The Mets stopped being the Mets without Wally, who hung around and contributed to a few more teams for a few more years and never stopped being Wally, though I don’t think it ever meant as much to him again. It was great to applaud him on Old Timers Night. Wally Backman’s the kind of player you wish you could see play tomorrow.

6.03: The Worst Trade Not Brought Up Nearly Enough. Melvin Mora, the best No. 6 since Backman, for Mike Bordick, the starchiest stiff who ever played short for a pennant-winner. Melvin was Timo with brains, Jose with experience, Joel Youngblood without minding his versatility. Bordick was Kurt Abbott with a rep.

6.04: Can’t Listen to It, Can’t Live Without It. In its 20th year, the 6 best things about WFAN, Sportsradio 66 (previously 1050): 1) The Mets are on it. 2) When Howie Rose hosted Mets Extra. 3) When Howie Rose did a 5-hour talk show every weeknight. 4) Steve Somers when he was Captain Midnight. 5) Joe Benigno when he did overnights. 6) Scores every 20 minutes.

6.05: Be Grateful We’re The Pitchers’ League. Imagine the Phillies with their No. 6, Ryan Howard, at first and Jim Thome still around to DH. You shudder to think what their magic number might be. Then again, they had them both and Abreu and Utley and Wagner and a cast of thousands in recent years and where did it get them?

6.06: Movin’ On Up. There was a Jeffersons in which a therapist asked George to play free association. You know, “black…white; rich…poor”. The doctor said “sex” and George said “seven”. The doctor was shocked. George asked, “Didn’t you say ‘6’?”

Trachsel 0 Maine 0

If there really is a derby underway between Steve Trachsel and John Maine for the fourth starter's role in the playoffs, let's just say Dave Williams is well out in front.

Trachsel was his really old self four nights ago, inept and unlucky. Maine was his moderately old self versus L.A., the kid called up earlier this year who veered to the spectacularly unimpressive before straightening himself out post-break. Maine's entitled to a tepid outing, though having it against whom he had it when he had it wasn't encouraging.

True that John on Friday, like Steve on Monday, got zero help from his fielders and hitters. But Trachsel's tuneup/audition against the Braves was at least uncharacteristic…since when does he walk seven in fewer than five innings? Maine, on the other hand, for all the swinging and missing he induces, is frequently victimized by the gopher. When he gives up earned runs, they have been earned with a big stick. He was almost in Trachsel 2001 territory with two homers in the fifth to Furcal (Schuerholz's revenge) and Garciaparra. Three were hit out of the park, but J.D. Drew's ball was reeled back in by fearless Carlos Beltran. By then Hong-Chih Kuo was untouchable and untouched. All of these are people we may see again in a few weeks.

I don't mean to be unnecessarily harsh toward Maine, who's been an unremittingly pleasant surprise to a point where it's not really surprising when he goes out and wins. But that tendency to give up home runs scares me. As things stand now, we would play the Padres in the first round and if Maine started Game Four in Petco, there is a disturbingly short porch where things could go wrong. To look ahead — a luxury we can indulge — if part of the NLCS takes place in Citizens Bank Park and we face the Howards…yeesh.

Trachsel's name popping up in the probables has never been an invitation to sit back and relax; he only lulls you to sleep between pitches. Goodness knows he can be touched up. There should be a “But…” coming here. I don't have a good one. Trachsel pitches and the Mets usually win. Maine pitches and the Mets usually win. So what's the difference? I want to fall back on experience, but that sounds cheap. It may mean Trachsel knows more about pitching, or it may mean he's been maddeningly inconsistent for ages and hasn't learned nearly enough to be counted upon.

I've been waiting all season for our Bob Walk or Marty Bystrom to emerge, two pitchers brought up in-season long ago (with the Phillies in '80) to reshape a rotation on the fly and hurl it toward the World Series. I thought it would be Pelfrey. I hoped it would be Maine. Maybe it's Williams, if not Perez. Rosters were designed to be rejiggered and everybody will be eligible.

Who's to say it's not going to be all of them plus Trachsel determining our fate? Pedro's going to come back in search of his fourth life this season. We're all taking it on faith that he will be out there on October 3 or 4 getting this thing started. He represents a great case for faith but sooner or later you gotta wonder. Glavine? Had his best start in ages Thursday. Is that the precedent of record or do we look at Tom from June to August and question the long-term efficacy of baby aspirin. El Duque's never been more than a crapshoot, albeit one undertaken with dice weighted in the house's favor.

Even if everybody is back and healthy and ready to go in slots one, two and three, what can we expect? Five innings? Six innings? If we go to our stellar relief corps in the first game, how many arms will be taxed for how many pitches? Who will be available for the second game? Care to figure out Game Three? Obviously the fifth starter will become a long man. Can he, whoever he is, adjust? If it's Maine and he gives up one or two homers in one inning, it will be a lot more impactful than the one or two homers he gives up in six or seven. Trachsel…in the bullpen?

The good news is none of these guys — none of them — are incapable of effectiveness. They've all been good more often than bad this year. I'd start tomorrow with who we've got, with or without Pedro…though I'd way prefer to start with Pedro. All of this dithering is worst-casing it.

Worst-case scenarios don't usually materialize. But once in a while, they do.

The Edge Of Heaven

Welcome to Flashback Friday, a weekly feature devoted to the 20th anniversary of the 1986 World Champion New York Mets.

Twenty years. Forty-three Fridays. This is one of them.

I’m lazing about the upper deck. Left field. Far left, far up. Many have called it a day, so there is room to stretch out. The Mets have lost the first game of a doubleheader to the St. Louis Cardinals, but they’re cruising to a win in the nightcap. I’m with my college buddy Rob Costa who attends these things essentially to chat and drink warm Bud. By the late stages of a twinbill, we’re both pretty mellow. Rob keeps his own counsel. I flip on my Walkman to hear what Bob Murphy and Gary Thorne have to say about things.

It’s August 17. The subject of the most foregone conclusion in baseball comes up: When are the Mets going to clinch?

One of them picks September 16. The other picks September 19. I’m shocked. With this victory (9-2; Randy Niemann picks up the win in his only start of 1986), the Mets will increase their lead in the N.L. East to 16-1/2 over the Expos. Forty-four games remain in the season. The magic number is 30. We are playing at a .653 clip. Montreal is barely over .500. Bob, Gary, I have one question for you?

Are you kidding?

The Mets won’t need a month. They’re gonna clinch this thing in early September.

The Mets hadn’t had a magic number watch of any length since 1969. It was one of the first statistics I ever learned, the number of Mets wins combined with Cubs losses that would clinch us the division. 1973 didn’t allow much time for figuring. On the night the Mets moved into first, their magic number was 10. It would take them 10 days to clinch.

1986 was different. The Daily News began tracking the magic number in June. Just about every day there was a cartoon version of Davey Johnson pulling a rabbit out of a top hat. It was very exciting watching that number fall.

By mid-August, the inevitability of the Mets was daily old news. There had been a perfunctory warning around the All-Star break that the ’51 Dodgers and ’78 Red Sox looked like locks, too, but the ’86 Mets never felt a glove in the second half. Running 34 over and 13-1/2 up when play resumed, they actually stood in place for more than a month. After dropping the opener of the doubleheader Rob and I attended, they were a mere 35 over, but still managed to increase their lead in the preceding five weeks. The Expos were the only other team with a winning record in the East. The Phillies and Cardinals had to get hot and stay hot just to break even.

That doubleheader and brief homestand over, the Mets flew to the West Coast and got serious. Swept the Dodgers, took two of three from the Giants, swept the Padres. A 10-1 swing. It ended on the signature defensive play of the season, the improbable 8-2-5 twin killing, Dykstra to Gibbons to HoJo, that doomed the Padres in extra innings. Tim McCarver’s call — Out at home!…Out at third!…Just your routine double play! — summed up the feeling surrounding these Mets in late summer. They could no wrong.

On August 27, the Mets stood 43 games over .500. They held a 20-game lead over the now-second-place Phillies. And their magic number, with 35 left to play, was 20. I kept thinking about Bob and Gary and their pessimistic prediction from 10 days earlier. September 16? September 19? Come now. This thing was going to be over in a couple of weeks.

The Mets were already celebrating. No champagne yet, but there was dancing on the field. When they came home to face the same California teams they just pounded into the Pacific, the fans (at Shea and at home, courtesy of Channel 9) were treated to the cinematic event of 1986. Not Platoon, not Hannah and Her Sisters, not even Reform School Girls, a film Fred and I wanted to see but Larry, who was driving, steered us instead to Stand By Me, of which Fred observed, “Great — young boys coming of age.”

The night of August 29, 1986 unleashed upon the land the world premiere of Let’s Go Mets!.

The video.

I don’t mind telling you I thought it was the greatest thing I ever saw. Kids flipping baseball cards on a Shea Stadium ramp and the Mets fan kids losing until their special pals Dwight Gooden, Gary Carter and Kevin Mitchell, who just happen to be strolling by on the very same Shea Stadium ramp, hand them special cards — Mets cards. The Mets fan kids start winning like crazy, just like the Mets. And then the beat builds. And, finally, the lyrics the universe (because the world was too small for these Mets) had been waiting an eternity to hear…

We’ve got the teamwork

To make the dream work

Let’s Go

LET’S GO METS!

This video presented life as I always thought it should be: completely and utterly about the Mets. The Mets playing. The Mets practicing. The Mets goofing around. The Mets beating the crap out of Joe Piscopo. The Mets putting the cheesy, low-budget Super Bowl Shuffle to shame.

The years would not be kind to this video. Everybody in it, from the players to the fans to the celebrities (half of them local DJs, including the notoriously sports-illiterate Howard Stern) to the cutesy background chorus — pizza guys, ballgirls, hansom cab driver with horse — set new standards for tacky. It is no wonder, in retrospect, that Jon Bon Jovi and his foofy mop would surge to superstardom a few months later in the wake of this particular cultural watershed. Maybe it’s my bias toward my 1970s childhood speaking, but Americans never looked sillier than they did in the late 1980s.

That said, I loved this thing. I love it today. When SNY showed it about a dozen times during and around the ’86 reunion, I dropped everything I was doing and watched it a dozen times. The video was like totally awesome. And the song, by New York’s Dream Team, took off as a radio hit in the city. You could not turn on Z-100 or Power 95 or any station and not hear it. Every spin was like a municipal pep rally. They put out a 12-inch single which included some actual WHN highlights plus a few contrived Bob Murphy calls. I know that because I bought it. They put out a Making Of video, replete with what it was like to hang around with the Mets. I bought that, too.

Later on, in October, Friday Night Videos aired a special showdown between Let’s Go Mets! and Red Sox Rock, less an amateur clip than the result of somebody turning on a camera and forgetting to turn it off until three minutes later. Sung to the tune of “Jailhouse Rock,” it was catchy enough (“everybody in the whole ballpark/is dancing to the Red Sox rock”), but the video consisted primarily of Bostonians entering a bar and being given the high sign by a juiced-up bouncer. Then some dude shows up in a Yankees cap and everybody takes great pleasure in grinding it with their heels.

By comparison, Roger McDowell with a bat in his pocket (or was he just happy to see us?) was the work of Oliver Stone. And the FNV audience agreed, spending 50 cents a call to choose the Mets video over the Red Sox’ by about a 70-30 margin.

Video stardom obviously agreed with our boys. After it debuted, the Mets won seven of nine. After sweeping the Padres a Sunday doubleheader on September 7, the Mets were an intergalactic 92-44, 21 ahead of the Phillies. Twenty-six games were left. The magic number was 6.

The next night was my final game at Shea in 1986, only my sixth all season. It was my delayed-gratification birthday present to my mother in July. It would be the third year in a row I went to a Mets game with my parents. It would also turn out to be the last one we went to together. I’m sorry it didn’t turn out better. From out in the rightfield loge, we could see Bobby O didn’t have it for one of the few times all year. First he was outpitched by Bob Sebra then outhit by his Expo mates. The Mets were mysteriously behind 7-0 in the seventh.

Not great, but not a problem in the scheme of things. So obvious was the impending clinch, that the Mets had printed the phrase A SEPTEMBER TO REMEMBER in white block letters at the base of the left and rightfield walls. They also handed out at every single game that month a pennant with a fuzzy team picture and a clear team message: PENNANT FEVER! The only accoutrement missing from the newly presumptuous décor was a gigantic MISSION ACCOMPLISHED banner over the scoreboard.

Pennant literally and figuratively in hand, my mother seemed to enjoy blurting out “Let’s Go Mets Go!” now and then. Bandwagon jumper (back in ’84) that she was, she actually thought that was the chant of choice at Shea Stadium, having picked it up from the video. She also kept asking who would backing up Ojeda. I always had to explain that there is no designated second pitcher to come into a game, that it depends on the situation who relieves. But let the record show that Rick Anderson backed up Bobby Ojeda, and John Mitchell made his Major League debut backing up Anderson, who was worse than Ojeda.

Given the score and the hour — Monday night, pushing past 9 o’clock — my dad asked if I wouldn’t mind if we could maybe leave early since the Giants and Cowboys were kicking off the first Monday Night Football game of the year. I couldn’t really argue. As we got up after the eighth, I felt compelled to tell our row that things weren’t so bad, we were going to have a division title by the end of the week. My mother gave it one more “Let’s Go Mets Go!”

By the time we got to the car in the lot across Roosevelt Avenue, we could hear a mighty cheer. Darryl had launched a cosmetic shot to make it 9-1. Dad turned on the Giants on WNEW. They eventually lost a heartbreaker 31-28. But Ed Lynch had defeated Mike Maddux that afternoon in Chicago, so the magic number dipped to 5. And we stopped at Lenny’s Clam Bar in Rockville Centre for a late supper. Not a total loss by any means.

The next night, the Mets lost one of the few games they genuinely blew in 1986. Orosco gave up a two-run homer to Andre Dawson in the ninth and another run besides. The 9-7 loss unleashed the hounds of hell in the stands. If there had been a WFAN then, callers would have pierced the predawn stillness insisting there was no way Jesse Orosco can be trusted to close tight games for the Mets in the postseason. The scornful booing occurred hours after Leon Durham went deep off of Steve Bedrosian in extras. For all of the angst, the magic number was 4.

Thankfully, Ron Darling righted the ship and stopped the suicide epidemic the next night after the Cubs beat the Phillies again. On September 10, the magic number to clinch a division that would technically still be playing through October 5 was 2. Any combination of Mets wins and Phillies losses adding to 2 would make the Mets the champions of the National League East for 1986.

No game for either team on Thursday, September 11, but that morning on K-Rock, following Howard Stern, Maria Milito announced a great giveaway. Be the 92nd caller and you will win tickets and accommodations for the Mets’ weekend trip to Philadelphia — see the Mets clinch at the Vet. Milito, who wasn’t even in the Let’s Go Mets! video, made it sound like a sure thing. All it will take is one win, she said, so you know it’s going to happen.

I pushed all the requisite buttons on my phone to no avail. But Maria was right. You knew the Mets, leading by 22 with 23 to play, would come through as soon as mathematically possible. All it was going to take was one lousy win. For a team that already had 93 in its pocket, there was no way it wasn’t going to happen Friday. Saturday and Sunday were only there to pitch backup.

7 For 7

And I may be obliged to defend
Every love, every ending
Or maybe there’s no obligations now
Maybe I’ve a reason to believe
We all will be received
In Graceland
—Queens’ own Paul Simon

Jose Reyes bounces on his belly across home plate with no throw on him, calls himself safe and he’s fine.

Jose Reyes allows a pop fly to bounce off his glove, Matt Kemp doesn’t advance to second and the crowd applauds the shortstop from the inside-the-park job the inning before.

Tom Glavine leaves the game, is congratulated during the seventh inning by Chris Cotter on his 288th win and he gets it within half-an-hour of that particular protocol breach.

Ladies and gentlemen, your 2006 New York Mets are so good they go out for shooters with the baseball gods after trampling opponents. They reside on that high a plane right now.

We don’t bring home every runner in scoring position. We get thrown out at third for the first out. We hold up unnecessarily to see if balls are going to be caught. We parade in short men with large leads. Yet we win 7-0 against decent competition. All those things that should anger The Higher Powers merely tickle Them. It’s September, and the Mets, instead of watching their step, leap and bound from one plateau to the next.

First-place Dodgers in town? They’re not in first place in this place. Here, let us validate your parking so you can go back to wherever you came from. Next time use mass transit (you obviously don’t live in these parts anymore). We dispatched a passel of Padres and a cocoon of Cardinals last month. A dollop of Dodgers doesn’t scare us. Any one of ya, come back in October. We’ll respect you and then we’ll beat your brains in, just like we do everybody’s.

I’ve been at this thing long enough to know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em, know when to shut the eff up. This isn’t then. This is now. This is September 2006. We are as many as 35 games over .500 for the first time since October 2, 1988. We have a magic number of 7 for clinching our division and it would be less except the two teams that were tied for second place when the night started played each other and they couldn’t both lose.

Unless they were playing the Mets.

7.01: Watch That ‘yes Car Go. Holy Leon Brown, I’ve never seen anybody in a Mets uniform run as fast as No. 7 Jose Reyes did when he approached second and realized, “Home run? OK!”

7.02: ‘Scuse Me While I Quote Myself. This season I’ve had the privilege of writing a feature called Profile in Orange and Blue for the SNY show Mets Weekly, which you should all be watching weekly because, never mind me, it truly is a show by Mets fans for Mets fans. The first profile I wrote was of my favorite player (talk about a dream job!) Jose Reyes. And this, in part, is what it said: In 2003, a new version of the 7 rolled off the line and roared into Shea. It was sleek. It was smooth. It came and went in a blur. This model of the 7 wasn’t without its kinks. It had to go into the shop more than once for repairs. But once it was fixed, it ran like a dream…like the train whose number he wears on his back, Jose Reyes always runs on an elevated track.

7.03: Just Spell My Number Right. And John Rocker thought he was giving the 7 train a bad name? What was before his foot-in-mouth interview a mere conveyance became a cause in 2000. One night that year, DiamondVision was urging patrons they could get to Shea any number of ways that didn’t include driving. And when Roger Luce mentioned “the 7 train,” it drew a huge ovation.

7.04: I Didn’t Know He Had an Aunt in Long Island City. My most memorable 7 experience came at the Queensboro Plaza stop in 2001 when a craggy woman hurled every imaginable ethnic slur at virtually every passenger who attempted to board or exit the train. She had particularly unkind things to say about those who enjoy eating rice, which could describe most of the world’s population. About a quarter of the crowd told her what a schmuck she was, nearly three-quarters moved far away and Leo Mazzone told her to save it for the game.

7.05: With All Those Letters, Who Had Time to Catch Their Train? Last fall, I had cause to look up some information about the 7 train and began to wonder when it started being called the 7 train. After all, you always see those faded signs for the IRT and the IND and the BMT, alphabet soup that was still in fairly common use when I was a kid. I came across The Joe Koerner, a roaring repository of subway info maintained by Joseph Korman. Joe kindly told me this about the only New York City subway line that stops at Shea Stadium: The IRT never used numbers or letters until the R-12 cars were delivered in 1948. When the IRT opened and expanded, the branches were called by their names. The earliest name given to the Flushing line was Corona, since the line terminated at 103rd St. It was extended one stop at a time between 1917 and 1928 to Main St. Remember that until 1948, the IRT operated to Astoria also. As the post-WWII cars were introduced to the IRT, the 1-7 (plus the original 8 and 9) were displayed on the ends of the cars, but not on the sides, maps and station signs. After 1959, the R-27 and later BMT cars were delivered with letters replacing the BMT numbers…with J replacing the BMT #15. It wasn’t until 1966, just before the BMT and IND completely merged, that numbers were used for the IRT and the BMT Coney Island lines got letters. In 1967, the Chrystie St. map formally added letters to the combined BMT/IND lines and numbers to the IRT. Along with the maps and cars, a new standard in station graphics was introduced to try to identify each line consistently. This was met with varied success. I know some visitors refer to the IRT 7th Ave. as the red line, etc. I hope that will never catch on for native New Yorkers.

7.06: Speaking of Native New Yorkers. Jose Reyes will forever be No. 7 to Mets fans who came along after the franchise turned 40, but No. 7 will otherwise always be reserved for Ed Kranepool from James Monroe High School. He didn’t hit a home run to win a playoff, he didn’t play 7 positions for a team that would go onto win the World Series and he doesn’t still hold the team record for longest hitting streak after 22 years, but with proper deference to Todd Pratt, Kevin Mitchell and Hubie Brooks, they weren’t Steady Eddie Kranepool. No shame in that — only one man can be.

7.07: Steady and Spectacular. Even with those two injury-riddled seasons that slowed his departure, Jose Reyes has already surpassed 500 career hits at the age of 23. I think this No. 7 will catch the reigning No. 7’s Met career standard of 1,418 hits in the time it takes the rest of us to schlep up the steps across Roosevelt Avenue and fight our way home.