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Faith and Fear in Flushing made its debut on Feb. 16, 2005, the brainchild of two longtime friends and lifelong Met fans.

Greg Prince discovered the Mets when he was 6, during the magical summer of 1969. He is a Long Island-based writer, editor and communications consultant. Contact him here.

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Reports of Their Demise

The 2005 New York Mets, beloved Wild Card contender and object of irrational obsession to thousands, passed Tuesday evening.

They were 144 games old.

The cause of death was termed offensive futility exacerbated by an attack of executional ineptitude.

A coroner's report indicated there was little heart left at the end.

The 2005 New York Mets were best known for their sound starting pitching and a five-game winning streak late in life, most notably a pair of contests in Arizona in which they scored 32 runs.

“That's how I'd like to remember them,” said Mr. Met, self-identified “mascot” for the deceased. “Hitting and running and what not like they were really good at it. It seemed so unlike them but they seemed so happy.”

Mr. Met admitted he has a lot of thoughts rattling around in his head, “and there's room for lots more.”

The 2005 New York Mets gave new meaning to the term “.500 club,” a designation that seems appropriate in light of the deceased's wish to be cremated and scattered in 500 equal fragments over Citizens Bank Ballpark, Dolphins Stadium, Robert F. Kennedy Stadium and Minute Maid Park.

“They really wanted to be a part of the Wild Card race to the end,” said a National League source. “This way they'll be somewhere in the post-season.”

A viewing will be held at Wilpon & Son Funeral Home, 123-01 Roosevelt Ave., Flushing, September 14-22 and September 29-October 2. September 14, 15 and 29 are Value Viewing Dates.

“Come on out to Shea,” urged New York Mets eulogist Fran Healy, “and watch the Mets lie in state.”

You Gonna Finish That?

Rest easy, soul of Fred Merkle. New York baseball has a new, much more deservedly crowned Bonehead for all time. It's one thing not to advance from first to second on the winning base hit in an era when that was generally accepted practice. Bonehead Offerman has come up with a whole new interpretation of Section 7.00 of the rulebook.

Rule 7.13(j): A runner occupying first base is entitled to second base when the batter hits the ball safely into centerfield unless the runner's head is occupying 50.1% or more of the inner portion of his own ass.

It's not like Jose Offerman hadn't give us warning that with his help we'd be forever blowing ballgames. But back when he was making awful plays in the field, he was just being the Jose Offerman I'd heard about. Since then, I've come to if not respect him then at least ignore him.

But really. Thrown out at second on a single to center? I've seen Met baserunners (what other kind?) get picked off during intentional walks, but they at least had the excuse of getting distracted by a pretty moth or something. What was Offerman looking at? Doesn't the Players Association have a pretty bitchin' vision plan? Hasn't sitting in the first base dugout for almost three months allowed him the time to read every ad on the third base side of Shea? What else was there to watch but the ball whiz past the pitcher, the second baseman and the shortstop?

I shouldn't pick on Jose Offerman. This loss wasn't all his fault. Let's face it, when you're trotting out the likes of Wilson Delgado, Edwin Almonte and Pat Strange, you're bound to lose a lot more games at the end of the year than you're going to win. Therefore…uh, hold on…

Hello?

Yeah — what about them?

They're not?

You sure?

Really?

Wow, I couldn't tell the difference. Thanks for letting me know.

Correction: It only seems like Tuesday night's game included the likes of Wilson Delgado, Edwin Almonte and Pat Strange, all vagabond ghosts of Met fantastically futile finishes past. Sadly, the stunning conclusion to 2005 bears a little too much resemblance to the three that preceded it.

DEFINING LATE-SEASON SWOONS, 2002-PRESENT

2002: 3-17 (8/10-9/3)

2003: 4-19 (9/4-9/28)

2004: 2-19 (8/22-9/12)

2005: 3-13 (8/27-9/13)

SOURCES: Retrosheet; accursed memory

There's no telling where this could end.

If indeed it does.

While the Mets come up small, some players — one we love, one we don't — remain larger than life. Find out who they are at Gotham Baseball.

Zombie Baseball

I dunno, man, they look pretty undead to me.

Nothing like soothing a fan base that's not very forgiving in the first place by playing nine innings of pathetic, lead-ass baseball. The bottom of the 7th was particularly disgusting: terrible pitch selection by Jose Reyes, Jose Offerman managing to break back to first on a line-drive single up the middle and then jog to second to be forced out (leaving me making the Dallas Green face at the television), and then Carlos Beltran ensuring he'll continue to have “disappointing” surgically attached to him by once again trying to pull anything and everything. Then we had to prove we weren't one-suck ponies by putting together a ninth inning of typically wretched pitching by Braden Looper and a jaw-dropping error by usually reliable Ramon Castro. And if that's not enough, through in some typically strange/stubborn decisions by Willie: Why on earth was Reyes bunting? Why on earth would you throw Looper into a nest of lefties down only a run? (And by the way, I officially don't care if Looper's hurt. He wasn't that good when he was healthy.)

And why was Offerman even in the game? Why switch out Mike Jacobs for Chris Woodward? Enough of Offerman and Miguel Cairo — let the kids show us what they might have, instead of taking another look at useless veterans who should be released and spare parts for next year's bench. Where's Heath Bell? Royce Ring? Angel Pagan? Anderson Hernandez? Where's somebody you wouldn't be shocked to see as a 2007 Met? Omar, it's over. Willie, we're done. It sucks, but we've accepted it, so you can too. Please God, let's not have another Indian Summer of Ice Williams. Oh wait, we still have Ice Williams.

(Pause to bash forehead repeatedly against desk.)

I've seen enough Septembers unravel into playing out the string to be familiar with the emotional Stations of the Cross: anger, then disappointment, then a desperate clinging to what baseball there's left, because all too soon it's going to be bandwagon time and all too soon after that it's football and snow and other forms of depression. Please, you Mets, at least let me cling. I'm not asking for the wild card. I'm not even asking for .500. Just give me games it looks like you're interested in playing, and we'll call it even. Don't leave me seething during what little time we have left.

Not Undead Yet

I just gandered a glance at today's papers and saw something about how we're going home and there's still time and we're only 5-1/2 out and nobody's pulled away and you never know…

Stop it. Sometimes you do know.

Even if it's just Pedro and the headline writers saying it, why must they do this to us? I realize games have to be played as if something larger is at stake, but just win a game and shut up and win another one. Stop fostering the myth that those crazy Mets are wacky enough to pull this thing off. If you truly wanted to pull this thing off, last week would've been a fabulous time to have started pulling.

I like hope as much as the next Mets fan, but they annihilated mine in Atlanta and entombed it in St. Louis. It's going to take more than one win following six losses to resuscitate hope.

Think the Mets are having a bad September? Well, they are, but somebody had one for the ages 97 years ago. Find out who at NY Sports Day.

The Fork, Our Backs

Watched the Mets finally beat, well, some of the St. Louis Cardinals today, and remembered how cruel baseball can be. No, it wasn't knowing that the season's done, we're cooked, etc., though that stank. It was the matter-of-fact way the calendar had turned to 2006. There were the Cardinals, resting up for October. There was the shocking sight of football, played for keeps when it's still 80 degrees out. (And a few innings after my initial outrage, I was hitting RECALL to see how the Saints were doing.) But mostly, there were the verb tenses. Like O'Brien and Seaver discussing Carlos Beltran hitting another home run for Pedro, and how that had been an early storyline of the season. Tom pointed out that's not such a bad deal, since it would work out to 35 or 36 home runs for the year. Dave acknowledged that but noted that it's not going to happen.

Hey, I thought, whaddya mean it's not gonna happen? Carlos just hit No. 15, so…oh, yeah. He's right. Shit.

'Twas the day of past tenses. Didn't make the playoffs. Failed to catch the Braves. Didn't justify his big contract. All suddenly inarguable, leaving us with nothing more than agate-type goals to arrive at, or to miss. Can Jose Reyes break the single-season mark for steals? Can David Wright beat Gilkey's doubles record? Can he drive in 100? Can Braden Looper retire a lefty in 2005? Can Piazza somehow hit 400 in our uniform? With the exception of the last question, which does hurt (particularly since the answer is “no”), the only sane response is: Who the hell cares?

Well, I care. And so do you. And so do 100,000 or so other souls, to varying degrees. But we all care in such a small-'c' way, compared with what we had to care about less than two weeks ago.

Remember? Ramon Castro smashed an Ugie Urbina slider over the fence for a 6-4 win and we were half a game out of the wild-card lead? Win the next day and we'd enter September as an if-the-season-ended-today playoff team? Yeah, that was August 30th. August 30, 2005, not 2002 or 1996 or 1971 or 1840, though it sure feels like one of those dates now. August 30th. Christ, that's a paycheck ago. It's still getting over a bad flu or a case of shin splints. It's the same fricking haircut.

What the hell happened to us? Look at the schedule and you might say doom actually arrived a bit earlier, when we got on a plane out of Phoenix and apparently left the bats behind. But still, the offensive slumbers of the San Francisco series would have been forgiven if we'd beaten the Phillies on August 31. We didn't, of course. We lost that game and have lost all but two of the ones since. How many games out of the wild card are we now? I don't know. How the hell can I not know when less than two weeks ago I could do the honors for the top five teams in the hunt?

It's not unfair — baseball's grimly and totally fair — but it sure is cruel. Twelve days ticked off the calendar and it's garbage time. Hell, we can't even have little victories: No sooner do we get Piazza back to continue his last hurrah, even if it's just for sentimental reasons now, then he gets knocked out of the lineup by a deranged reliever.

Twelve days. Twelve fucking days turned summer into winter. What the hell happened to us?

Washing Off The Dirt

[T]he schedule has a little party up its sleeve for us…We have struggled (and thus far failed) to maintain mediocrity without facing a single game west of Addison Street. There are three trips pending that carry the Mets into Pacific Daylight and Mountain Standard: OAK-SEA in June; SD-LA in August; ARZ-SF slightly thereafter. The American League entrants are awful but they are awful far away, too. Long distance has always been enough of an excuse to scramble the Mets' equilibrium. The N.L. West teams are all sorting themselves out but none appears to be cake.

That's nineteen dates due to cause us trouble. Toss in a week of COL-HOU, both weak sisters, but both on the road. Now it's 26 games that are lurking in the wilds of the west. Oh, and four in St. Louis in September when it may not matter anymore. That's 30 geographically unfriendly stops in our future.

There's no rule saying the Mets have to go, say, 10-20 out in the great wide open. But would you bet on much better having seen how this team plays away from Shea and knowing what they do as a rule when they travel that far? Without looking up everybody's docket, I know Atlanta has already been to San Diego. Washington has played in San Francisco. Florida's seen Chavez Ravine. Our divisional rivals have already had to take at least a little bite out of their western obligations. We haven't. That's what worries me.

—Me, May 26

By beating the Cardinals on Sunday, the Mets finished the Dirty Thirty I harped on over and over at 11-19. So it turned out there was no rule that they had to go 10-20.

But it did kill their season. Yes, the city of Atlanta killed their season, too, but that's always been widely reported (“always” being the operative word). I knew coming in to 2005 that every time the Mets have a wacky starting time, like 8:05 or 2:15 or 9:40 or anything after 10 o'clock, it seems to be trouble.

And it was. It drives me crazy. I don't understand why they couldn't win one extra game against every opponent west of the Mississippi River. OK, not Arizona — they took all four games in Phoenix. But everywhere else? Consider:

Oakland 1-2

Seattle 0-3

Colorado 1-2

Houston 1-3

San Diego 1-2

Los Angeles 1-2

San Francisco 1-2

St. Louis 1-3

What gives? Besides us? Win one more game in each of those series (and they each included maddeningly winnable losses) and suddenly we're 79-64. We could still suck at Turner Field and be the clear Wild Card leaders. It would be the best of all Met worlds!

But no, the Mets insist on traveling poorly at any distance. When we pack up the last bit of regret from this season in whatever receptacle we choose, be sure to slap a tag on it and ship it to the wrong destination. Because when it came to road games, the 2005 Mets played like lost luggage.

Baseball Bugs (Us)

We really shouldn't have to play the Gas-House Gorillas anymore.

Wham! Another homer!

It was a one-sided, knock-down, drag-'em-out ball game right from the very first inning.

Seven hurlers pasted our pathetic palookas with powerful paralyzing perfect pachyderm percussion pitches.

One…two…three strikes…we're out!

One…two…three strikes…we're out!

One…two…three strikes…we're out!

It was a shellacking we'll never forget.

Albert Pujols could lick us in a ball game with one hand tied behind his back all by himself.

Gerald Williams is only 93-1/2 years old.

Was this trip really necessary?

The Blame Game

As this crazy year of yo-yoing around the mundane .500 mark has unfolded, I've blamed a lot of people. Carlos Beltran for feeling the pressure. Jose Reyes for not getting on base enough. Kaz Matsui and Miguel Cairo for being useless. Mike Piazza for daring to get old. Victor Diaz for being dopey. Victor Zambrano for being maddening. Tom Glavine for being stubborn. Kaz Ishii for being bad. Braden Looper for being…no, I can't talk about Braden Looper right now. Heath Bell for being absent. Dae-Sung Koo, Danny Graves, Jose Offerman and Gerald Williams for being present. Willie Randolph for being overly loyal, bizarre about lineups and weird about tactics. Omar Minaya for being deficient at day-to-day roster management. Shea Stadium for being junky. The West Coast for being far away. The Cardinals, Braves and others for being better than us.

But as the drain gurgles flatulently on our wild-card hopes, I realize it isn't the fault of any of these variously esteemed entities. In fact, it's my fault. If the Mets are Antaeus, I'm the earth they need to be in contact with, or something like that. (Sorry. Ma done raised me on Greek myths. Made me turn out funny.)

Consider: On May 22 I got on an airplane for the West Coast, fuming that I wouldn't get to see Pedro try and demonstrate the truth about his parentage to the Yankees. I landed to find we'd lost that game in horrifying fashion. Then we got swept at Turner Field while I fumbled with hotel wireless connections and MLB.TV in San Diego and San Francisco. I returned home on May 26, seeing Rusty Staub in the San Francisco airport on the way, and watched happily as we bludgeoned the Marlins, 12-4. Record for my time out of state: 0-4.

On July 8 I got in a rented truck with a bunch of furniture and miscellaneous crapola and drove to Maine, picking up the beginnings of our game against the Pirates through static as the sun started to go down behind the pines in the Mosquito State. That night Braden Looper lost in horrifying fashion; we got pounded the next, then rebounded to salvage the finale before the All-Star Break arrived. I returned on the 13th; the next night we got the second half rolling by beating the Braves, with Mike Piazza showing Blaine Boyer that the old man's bat still had some blasts in it. Record for my time out of state: 1-2.

Early in the Maine trip you begged me to return, even kindly offered to trot black bears and what-not by for that Maine feeling. Did I listen? No — on Sept. 3 I bundled Emily and Joshua into the rental car and we headed down to Long Beach Island for idyllic weather and horrible baseball. We've covered this of late, so let's just skip to…. Record for my time out of state: 1-6.

Total record when I'm outside the Empire State: 2-12.

So anyway, now that it's too late, I'm back and apologetic. But just in case we do have a late run in us, some bad news: I'm heading down to D.C. for Sept. 24-25. That final nail in the coffin, if for some reason it's still needed? Taken care of.

Long Time Ago When We Was Scum

Turner Field may be a toxic dump for our hopes and dreams, but I don’t see where Busch Stadium is a much healthier place for Mets and other living things.

We just lost our tenth consecutive game there dating back to 2002. Though it’s generally accepted that it was the Diamondbacks who buried the shiv irretrievably deep into our backs that August, the Mets actually went on the road after being swept by Arizona and took two of three from Milwaukee. Then it was off to St. Louis. Al Leiter, David Weathers and Armando Benitez teamed for a five-hitter and beat the Cards 2-1 to put our record at 58-57, 6-1/2 out of the Wild Card. Not much, but not terrible.

It all ended the next day. Bobby V came down with a case of the geniuses and fell in love with Marco Scutaro. He pinch-hit Marco for Burnitz in the fifth (against Mike Matthews) and the Scoot struck out. Then, despite a resume that would indicate it wasn’t a good idea, Bobby stood him out in left. It wasn’t like matching some horse show guy with federal emergency management, but it wasn’t a great fit. Let’s just say the ball found Marco Scutaro. The Mets lost 5-4 on his misplay and they never looked back. Or up.

When asked why he stuck Marco Scutaro in harm’s way, sending him to a position with which he was unfamiliar, particularly on a Major League field, Bobby answered something along the lines of “they told me he could play there.”

Newsday told me the Mets could play at Busch Stadium. According to my homeisland paper, the Mets will come away from the soon-to-be-demolished edifice with a barely winning all-time record. Ya coulda knocked me over with an automatic tarp roller. Whenever I scan the media guide, the Mets seem to have a mark of about 150 games under against every established National League franchise. But we must’ve beaten somebody somewhere along the way. It surely hasn’t been at Turner Field, so maybe we have had some good times at Busch.

As I fancy myself a ballpark buff (please don’t tell us how you’ve been to 29 stadiums again) and I have been to 29 stadiums, I should be getting a little misty or at least reflective over the impending implosion. If I am, it has little to do with what the Mets have done there.

They played those intense series in ’85 and ’87.

They swept that pivotal four-game set in April ’86.

They won the first two games of the NLCS in 2000.

And, during the eras encompassing those accomplishments, they were called pond scum by those great St. Louis fans. I’ve always been proud that the Mets managed to raise the ire of such gentle folk not once but twice.

Of course there were other scattered moments of pain and glory that I could call on, but I’d rather shift my focus to — surprise! — myself.

I’ve been to Busch twice. Saw one game as part of a trade-media junket to the headquarters of the brewery that used to own the team. The stadium was unremarkable and the seats, given that we were guests of the Anheuser empire, were more so. We were handed red Cardinal caps gratis. I had a hard time putting mine on and not because my head is abnormally big (though it is). Like any Mets fan who had been sentient in 1985, I carried residual resentment of everything Cardinal, from the beer to the bird to the Bucks. This was 1992. The Mets-Cardinals rivalry was as hot as the one between the U.S. and Sweden. But I sighed and wore it. They were playing the Pirates, and the Mets were, for another week or so, chasing Pittsburgh, so, uh, go Cardinals. (Bucs won in 13; Bonds made a sensational sliding catch.)

Several months later, a nor’easter blew through our little town. When Stephanie and I went outside to inspect the damage, I felt I should wear a hat, but not one that I cared about. I wore the Cardinals cap. It was, in the end, good for something.

Been to Busch twice, but only saw one game? That’s right. The other time was a little more special. It was the very first time I ever set foot on a Major League field. Yeah, it was carpet (’95, the last year before grass) and no, it wasn’t Shea and, shucks, I wasn’t drunk and avoiding cops, but it was a goose-bumpy moment nonetheless. I was in St. Louis for the only reason I would ever be in St. Louis, to see somebody at the brewery, and I had some time to kill between my meeting and my flight. My host told me they give tours at Busch Stadium, you should go.

So I went. It was pretty freaking cool. They showed us a lot. We got to sit in the press box where I attempted to write LET’S GO METS on the countertop but it was made of some impenetrable material. And then they brought us downstairs to the field. This was during the post-strike spring training, in April. No game but lots of preparation. The grounds crew kept us from straying too far. Whatever the tour guide told us was lost on me. My stare was fixed on right field where Gary Carter’s fly didn’t drop in front of Andy Van Slyke a decade earlier. I resisted the temptation to run out the very spot and spit.

The only souvenir I want from the joint is a W this weekend. Let The World’s Greatest Fans remember that once upon a time we were worthy of being jealously derided as pond scum.

As opposed to playing like it.

Flashback Friday: 1985 (Part I)

The year was 1985. I was 22.

I graduated from college. I should’ve been focused on finding my way in the Real World as it was known. I should’ve outgrown baseball. Or downgraded its importance. Or found something else to do.

None of that happened. If anything, I gave myself over to baseball and the Mets in 1985 in a way I never had before. There were two reasons for that which trumped my aborted attempts at maturity.

1) There was pent-up rooting inside me. Four years away at college had limited my Met interaction. I spent, depending on my class schedule, some summer at Shea but always missed April and always missed September. Having gone to school on the other side of the Howard Frankland Bridge from Al Lang Stadium, I did get some spring training in, but it wasn’t the same. I was back in New York and even if it meant moving back home and dithering over life’s decisions and direction, I was determined to catch up on my Mets.

2) The Mets were great. Absolute contenders in 1985. Absolutely worth putting everything on hold for. I knew it. Everybody knew it. Best of all, the Mets knew it.

It all started on a Monday night the previous December when I was still a senior at the University of South Florida (it wasn’t actually in South Florida, but then again, I wasn’t there to major in geography). I’m walking back into Fontana Hall where I lived throughout college. The guy sitting behind the desk, also named Greg, also from Long Island, also a Mets fan — and at one point my roommate…go figure — waved me over.

“Didja hear about the trade?”

“What trade?”

“The Mets got Gary Carter.”

“You’re kidding.”

The other Greg the Mets fan from Long Island didn’t have all that magnificent a sense of humor, so no, he wasn’t kidding. The Mets really did make a completely unforeseen trade for the best catcher in baseball. Holy crap! We were serious about staying good.

1984 had been such a pleasant surprise. There’s no better good season than the one you don’t see coming. After seven consecutive years of lousy baseball, the Mets hopped uninvited into a pennant race and I thrilled to it from a thousand miles’ distance. That was the problem with being away at college. The Mets weren’t good when I left for it. But by the time I was completing my junior year, they were getting somewhere without me. The Mets were retaking New York and I was cooling my heels in Tampa, reduced to Tribune boxscores and every stray detail I could shove into my head.

As I spent the summer of ’84 at USF collecting nine credits, I anxiously punched (516) 976-1313 every night. Sportsphone. Phone bill? Think an enhanced phone bill wasn’t worth paying in exchange for the Mets in a three-way battle with the Cubs and the Phillies for first? Think it wasn’t worth the extra 50 cents and the 24-hour delay to go the Hometown News Stand down Fletcher Avenue to buy a day-old Post? Think I didn’t break all speed limits in the middle of July when, with classes over, I raced up I-95 to join in the fun? I had only six weeks in New York that summer but it was long enough to get a good look at Dwight Gooden. I got to one of his starts in August after reading about the commotion he was causing for months. As soon as he was at strike one on the leadoff hitter, I was up and clapping.

“Hey,” said the man behind me. “It’s early. Sit down.”

“Sorry,” I told him. “I’ve been waiting a long time for this.”

’84 didn’t quite work out, the Cubs overtaking the Mets as I was heading back down south. But it felt so good to be a Mets fan again. Not a few New Yorkers lived in Fontana and we Mets fans found and congratulated each other that September and into the off-season. When we got Carter, fuhgeddaboutit.

“The Cubs may have won last year,” one guy on my floor said. “But we’re gonna win for the next ten years.”

“Yeah!”

What was there to do but agree with such airtight logic?

I was never as antsy to get a season underway as I was in 1985. I was still one month shy of graduating but I had a new weapon in my media arsenal. In my final semester at USF, I had become the Commentary editor of our daily paper, The Oracle, and The Oracle had an AP wire. I didn’t know how it worked except that a lot of copy paper flowed from it and that bells went off whenever a bulletin moved across. My best friend on the paper, Chuck, whenever he had what he thought was big news to tell me, would preface it with “ding, ding, ding”.

I also knew we had a wire editor, a girl named Brenda. She’d stand over the unfurling paper and clip out little bits of world, national and state news for a column we ran on page 2. I hardly ever said two words to her but on Opening Day, I saw a good reason to get to know her.

“Hey Brenda.”

“Hey.”

“Could you do me a favor?”

“Sure.”

“When you’re going through the wire today and you see anything having to do with the Mets, would you please clip those stories and give them to me? Anything you see about the Mets.”

“No problem.”

“Thanks! I really appreciate it.”

Ooh, I felt so connected. Every other idiot in the Tampa Bay area would be walking around uninformed and here I had my own pipeline to the 1985 season opener, Mets versus Cardinals, Gooden pitching, Carter catching, Shea sold out. Yes!

A couple of innings later, as I was chatting with yet another Greg (our managing editor, but not from Long Island and not a Mets fan), Brenda came by and said, “here are those stories you wanted.”

All right! Fresh information, I can’t wait to see how the…

Medflies?

MEDFLIES?

Brenda apparently didn’t hear me, didn’t know of my reputation from across the crowded newsroom as the office Mets fan. She sat in her corner clipping items about the Board of Regents and she heard me, somehow, say “Medflies. Give me everything you’ve got on medflies.”

I didn’t say that. While it was true that California was experiencing a potentially dangerous infestation of the Mediterranean Fruit Fly, and I was not unsympathetic to the plight of that state’s agricultural industry, the only fruit I wanted information on was Strawberry. If he caught a fly or three that day, all the better.

“Brenda, I didn’t say Medflies.”

“No?”

“No. I said Mets. New York Mets. Baseball. They’re playing their first game of the season today.”

“OH!”

We all had a good laugh over that. Brenda may not have known sports but she was a good one and clipped those Mets dispatches for me. And I availed myself of a State University System phone to dial (516) 976-1313 for quicker updates. We were supposed to log all long-distance calls. I didn’t. But I’ve got my diploma, so I think I’m safe.

Sportsphone eventually reported and the AP confirmed that Opening Day ended when Gary Carter, our new hero, drove a pitch from Neil Allen, our old reliever, over the left field wall in the tenth. Mets win!

I ran around the newsroom delivering high-fives. We had a Twins fan, a Pirates fan, a Phillies fan, a Braves fan and, for the afternoon, a clutch of converted Mets fans. I came to work that day the sole serious Mets fan on The Oracle. We hit our deadline with my having played pied piper to a bunch of otherwise disinterested bystanders who couldn’t tell a medfly from an infield fly. It was a good feeling.

My skin went relatively unused that April. I was jumping out of it. The Mets were 5-0. The Mets were 8-1. The Mets were on The Game of the Week and Gary Carter read the lineups. Is there anything he can’t do?

Graduation Day came on April 28. At first opportunity after the ceremonies, I did what I’d been doing since the fall of ’81. I called Sportsphone.

The Mets and Pirates were tied.

The Mets and Pirates were going into extra innings.

The Mets and Pirates were still in extra innings.

The Mets and Pirates were in extra innings and Rusty Staub was in the outfield.

The Mets and Pirates were in extra innings and Davey Johnson kept moving Rusty Staub to keep him out of harm’s way.

The Mets and Pirates were in extra innings and despite Davey’s machinations, a ball found Rusty and Rusty made an unbelievable catch.

Why couldn’t have I graduated last week? I was supposed to be using this interval to change for dinner before meeting my family who were over at the Interchange Motor Inn. I stalled. I said I had some stuff to do. I drove over to a friend’s apartment ostensibly to wish him a nice life but mostly because I knew he had cable and I hoped against hope that his system included the WOR superstation. No, it didn’t. Oh well. Have a nice life.

The Mets won in 18 innings. It would be the last time that missing a Mets game would be a matter of course. I was headed back to New York the next morning where channel 9 and WHN were readily available.

Was this too big a price to pay? I’ve never been good at making plans. Big plans, I mean. Life plans. I certainly wasn’t good at it then. Here I was, freshly graduated with a major in Mass Communications and a minor in Political Science, living in a city that I’d come to know and where I could probably find a job and cultivate a network and all that, but I was leaving it and heading home.

It wasn’t just the Mets. It was my mother.

It wasn’t that I was jumping out of my skin to see her. No, quite the opposite. There was a reason I chose a college in a place where she wasn’t. But now those four years were up and it was kind of understood that I’d move back home.

Why? Because that’s what she insisted I do. “If you stay in Tampa,” she warned in that “I was just kidding when I said that” way that always made me nervous, “I’ll come down there and burn Mets pennants on your front lawn.”

My mother said all kinds of crazy things. And they usually did the trick.

OK, I didn’t take that as a serious threat, but I never did nail down any serious post-college plans except to freelance for the trade magazines that my sister and her husband worked for and recommended me to. I could do that, live at home and…watch the Mets.

A couple of things about living at home after college:

1) Don’t do it if you can help it. Overcome your inertia. If you can’t afford a dwelling in the area where you’re from, then move somewhere else. Nowadays technology won’t separate you from your baseball team.

2) If you do do it, be true to your baseball team. Don’t let anybody get in your way, and by anybody, I mean your mother. Well, actually I mean my mother in 1985. She’s the one who wanted me back and there I was, doing what I set out to do: watching the Mets. I even sprung for cable for everybody so I could watch as much as possible. The Mets were everything to me in 1985. I saw nothing strange about it. My mother, after a fashion, though, began to wonder about my social life or lack thereof.

“Why aren’t you going to Jewish singles nights?”

That was always big with her, these Jewish singles nights she’d apparently heard more about than I did. In college it was, “why aren’t you going to the Hillel?” It bugged her no end that during my freshman and sophomore years that I had my first girlfriend and she was not Jewish. That ended, but her campaign to hook me up with Jewish singles was perennial.

The only singles that interested me that summer were those generated by Lenny and Wally at the top of the order so they could be converted into runs by Keith, Gary and Darryl. I wasn’t particularly concerned with where any of them went to temple. Though I had actually embarked on a serious letter-writing/stalking campaign of a young lady who was still living in the Tampa Bay area (it didn’t take), I’m pretty sure my mother decided I was gay my first summer out of college based on the choice I made to sit home evenings, watching ball instead of chasing tail. My mother decided at one time or another that every one of my friends, most of my roommates and a random sample of total strangers were gay, so I didn’t get too defensive about it.

“I’m not going to Jewish singles night. I’m trying to watch the Mets.”

3) Getting to know your parents on an adult-to-adult basis can be revealing. So while I never felt completely comfortable about coming home, it did give me some insights into my mother and father that I never had before 1985. Here is the most interesting thing I learned about them:

They were Mets fans.

Maybe they were frontrunners. Maybe my constant rooting since the age of six had rubbed off on them. Maybe they were bored. Or maybe the ’85 Mets had woken some latent tendencies in them. After a childhood feeling very lonely in my baseball-loving ways around the house, I returned as a college graduate to find I had company. Mom and Dad were crazy about the Mets. They were crazy about cable because we got SportsChannel. My mother began to imitate the way Ralph Kiner and Tim McCarver pronounced things. Dad, too. They thought it strange how Ralph said “lihg” for “league” and “Duhwight” for “Dwight”.

But they were into it. They read the same sports sections I did. They listened to games in the car like it was their idea in the first place. I’d heard scattered references through the years to my mother liking the Dodgers as a girl in Brooklyn, and my Dad would occasionally tease me about how much better the Yankees were than the Mets at any given moment but they never showed the slightest inclination to care about the Mets until that summer.

We watched the Mets together on many nights, the three of us. We had something to talk about, the three of us. We were Mets fans together, the three of us. I couldn’t say that before 1985, but now I could.

Maybe my parents were like a lot of New Yorkers then. Maybe they were just bandwagon-jumpers. Why not? If ever there was a team whose cause it was worth getting behind right then and there, it was the 1985 Mets.

My god, how I loved that team. I’d been a Mets fan since 1969 and had loved the Mets all along, but these Mets of the mid-’80s were like totally awesome. They were great players but they were personalities, too. I’d seen nothing like it since I watched Willis and Clyde and Dave The Butcher as I thought he was called when I was little and the Knicks became champions.

The 1985 Mets dripped personality that way. Whereas in the past, I had Seaver and general fondness for whoever else, now I had a whole cornucopia of favorites.

There were Lenny and Wally, the singles hitters. The partners in grime. They got on base. They got basepath dirt all over them. Lenny spit a lot and called everybody Nails. Wally was less unintelligible. He was also a switch-hitter who couldn’t hit lefty. But I loved him.

They’d get on and they’d be driven in by Keith Hernandez. Keith Hernandez. Mex. He was my mother’s favorite. He was everybody’s favorite, certainly everybody’s MVP. Such an intelligent, intense ballplayer. Invented ways to pounce on bunts. Unimaginably clutch. Even when he was in a slump he was fascinating to study brooding on the bench.

Gary Carter. The Kid. Almost as good as advertised. Almost. The Mets were deep into building their tradition of getting stars from other teams who dimmed upon appearing in the Shea constellation. We still had one of those in George Foster playing left. Carter didn’t seem to put up nearly the numbers that he had in Montreal, but he was Gary Carter. First game I got to after USF, he hit a grand slam to beat the Braves. And he was definitely good at getting advertised. He came to New York and endorsed everything in sight. My favorite was a poster he did for channel 9, him as the centerpiece of a Norman Rockwell painting, signing a ball for a little kid. It said “Catch the Rising Stars,” the Mets’ theme two years running (the TV station even had a song go with it…”watch them shine on/channel 9!”). The poster was five bucks, all to fight Muscular Dystrophy. Wasn’t Gary Carter a great guy?

Darryl. Straw. Darryl was already being berated for not being the black Ted Williams and/or the next Willie Mays. I didn’t see it. Darryl was going to be our superstar, the one we’d never had. He was going to hit home runs as a Met. He was going to lead every league and break every record. They said he didn’t play hard, that he didn’t pay attention in right. Nonsense, I said. Look at how he got injured! He was diving for a ball against the Phillies. Of course he hurt his thumb doing that. I wished he hadn’t.

There were HoJo and Rafael (another favorite of my mother’s) and Mookie and all that pitching. Ron Darling with the Ivy League credentials and the GQ looks. El Sid who gave up few hits but won few games. Roger McDowell who came out of nowhere to replace Doug Sisk and push Jesse Orosco and Jesse who I always felt protective of. (Why did Shea fans have too boo their own guys?)

And then there was Doc.

Dwight Gooden was my favorite baseball player ever in 1985. I can’t think of too many human beings I thought more highly of. I had idolized Tom Seaver (Joel from high school, his friend Rich and I drove to Boston to see him get his 299th career win; it was the first time I went to a ballpark that wasn’t Shea), but Tom was on the White Sox. Doctor K was a Met. His heat was high and unhittable. His curve was royalty; McCarver dubbed it Lord Charles. He was the greatest pitcher of the modern era. Everybody said so. Just like that night in ’84, I couldn’t sit down when he pitched, even if I was watching on TV.

Doc never lost. The same Sunday in early August that Seaver won his 300th game at Yankee Stadium (HA!), Doc was in Chicago obliterating the Cubs and Tom’s team consecutive-wins record. When his streak was over at 14, Doc was 20-3. And he was only 20. He was leading the world in everything: wins, ERA, K’s, shutouts, promise of greatness. There was no reason to think Doc wouldn’t just keep winning.

That’s how it felt with the Mets. Only problem was their record didn’t jibe. That 8-1 start in April was a bit of a mirage, particularly after Darryl got hurt in May. The Mets struggled for runs. Though the Cubs had fallen apart (we swept them out of existence in a four-game set at Shea in late June), the Cardinals emerged as our competition. They were in first more than we were but it was close. It was mind-blowingly close. I didn’t go a single day that season without worrying about the standings and, about a third of the way in, the Cardinals.

That race and those Mets simply existed on a higher plane than everything else in baseball. When the Mets got blown out, they didn’t mess around. They lost one game to the Phillies 26-7. It was 16-0 after two innings. When the Mets played extra innings, they were determined to warp time and space. There was that 18-inning game on Graduation Day, but there was a longer, more excruciating, far nuttier game on the Fourth and Fifth of July in Atlanta.

It rained a lot and Doc came out early and McDowell was accidentally removed and Darryl was ejected and Davey was ejected and we came back on Bruce Sutter and Mex hit for the cycle and HoJo homered in extra innings and Tom Gorman, who was usually terrible, pitched late and effectively into the night because there was nobody else and no way we could let ourselves lose.

We were one out — one strike! — from winning in the bottom of the 18th. Joel and I had watched most of it in a bar in Rockville Centre but the bar closed up at three in the morning and kicked us out. We were tooling along in my Toyota on Austin Blvd. in Island Park waiting for Gorman to retire the Braves’ final hope, their relief pitcher of last resort, Rick Camp. Rick Camp was trying to extend the game in the dead of night with two outs and two strikes on him. Only one thing could happen.

Rick Camp hit a home run.

Joel and I just sat there, stopped, in the middle of Austin Blvd. to digest this event. Bob Murphy told us there were some games you’re just not meant to win.

By 3:55 AM, Murph was preparing a happy recap. It was one of those nights. The Mets came back with five runs in the 19th and Ron Darling came on and held off Atlanta. It was one of those nights and it was 1985. Stuff like that seemed to happen every time I turned around.

But the Cardinals wouldn’t lose enough to let us back into first. The Cardinals had all this speed. They had Vince Coleman who was a pain in our and Gary Carter’s ass. Carter couldn’t throw him out. They had a second baseman named Tommy Herr who had never hit for power until this year. Jack Clark was superdangerous. Willie McGee was batting way over .300. Joaquin Andujar was a lunatic and John Tudor was a stone killer. They almost matched Gooden and Darling. The Cardinals’ manager was Whitey Herzog, the aptly nicknamed White Rat. I don’t think I’d hated anybody who wore a baseball uniform as much since I decided I despised Leo Durocher. But I was 6 then. I was 22 now and if anything I was taking this stuff more seriously than I had before adulthood began to set in.

Never before was I this absorbed every single day by the Mets. Never. I had been at this baseball thing long enough to know I was in the middle of a sensation that comes along only once in a lifetime. So instead of growing out of baseball, I gave myself over to it completely.

I think I made the right call.

Around the time of that July 4-5 nonsense, the Mets took off and got ridiculously hot. Everybody hit. We went 30-7. The Mets were the toast of the town. Doc’s starts were stories unto themselves. The Daily News printed inning-by-inning totals of his work, how many strikes, how few balls. A really brief baseball strike put a damper on things but it was settled and we were back to Mets day in and day out. By August, I was working in the city, doing in-house work for a publishing company, more often than I wasn’t. It cramped my style during the infrequent day game, but I learned to carry a Walkman to work. And I hadn’t forgotten how to dial 976-1313 (didn’t need an area code in New York).

And then came September. My first indisputable pennant race since 1973. It was the Cardinals leading the Mets by a beak. We’d win, they’d win. We’d lose, they’d win, or so it seemed. We were on this amazing West Coast trip. Keith was in one of his endless slumps facing Mark Davis at Candlestick as a pinch-hitter. Keith homered! We won! The Mets went to San Diego where Gary hit three homers in one game (Darryl had done the same a month earlier at Wrigley) and two in another. We swept. Then it was off to Los Angeles where, if there was any justice, we would see a playoff preview.

Doc faced Fernando Valenzuela on Friday night. Doc went nine. Fernando pitched eleven. Neither gave up a run. In the 13th, Darryl doubled home Wally and Keith. We won 2-0. The next day, a Saturday, the Mets and Dodgers were The Game of the Week but I didn’t get to watch it. With me working a little bit more in the city, my mother decided we all had to go suit shopping on my behalf that very afternoon. I was 22 but I was still susceptible to this stuff. I had to duck into the tailor’s fitting room at Macy’s to divine the pertinent facts: Ed Lynch sucked and I hated Mariano Duncan. The Mets lost. The next afternoon, the two teams played fourteen innings. Mookie settled matters with a homer. What a trip!

And it was only an appetizer.

The Mets returned home to play three games against the Cardinals. They were tied for first. 135 games played, 82 wins, 53 losses apiece.

It is no exaggeration and there is no irony intended when I say it felt as if my whole life was leading up to this moment, to this series, to this pennant race, to this season, to these Mets and to that week.

I was excited. Can you tell?

You know how you look forward to certain things and they inevitably disappoint you? This wasn’t one of those things. This was every bit as good as I imagined it would be. The three scores of the three games were 5-4, 1-0 and 7-6.

For the first one, I wore “lucky glasses” (an old prescription) and watched with my parents. Danny Cox had the nerve to hit George Foster and there was a bit of tension, but HoJo defused it. He hit a grand slam. The Mets won.

For the second one, Joel and I decided we would go. Very presumptuous on our part because it was Gooden vs. Tudor. But neither of us had ever witnessed a pennant race in person, so even if it was sold out, we decided this was worth scalping. This, too, was a little haughty because this was the same race every other Mets fan in New York — and there were millions of us now — wanted in on. And proving that I hadn’t improved any on my planning capabilities, I got home from one of my odder freelance assignments (writing descriptions for the backs of home video boxes for an advertising agency; rent Paradise Alley sometime and see my handiwork) and was late in picking up Joel. We drove to Shea but found no parking except under an overpass. And then we found no scalpers. The scalpers wanted to see Gooden and Tudor. I consoled myself by splurging on a poorly made $5 mesh cap, a replica of the white one with the script Mets logo they gave away earlier in the year, and we drove back to Long Island. We watched in the bar where we spent most of the Fourth and some of the Fifth of July. Gooden was brilliant. Tudor was that much more so. It was scoreless in the tenth when Orosco relieved Gooden and Cesar Cedeño homered. Cesar Cedeño? I thought he was retired. Tudor protected his own lead. The Cardinals won.

For the third one, an afternoon affair, everybody was abuzz. Everybody. It was dubbed Baseball Thursday in New York. The Mets and Cardinals in a fight for first at Shea and then, at night, the Yankees and Blue Jays in the Bronx for something similar. The Yankees had a good team that year but could never quite overtake Toronto. They certainly had their followers but they were never the story in 1985 that the Mets were. Still, for the first time ever, it was thought the two New York teams, who were almost never good at the same time, could play in an old-time Subway Series. I wasn’t necessarily looking to share the spotlight. Not that we couldn’t beat them if we had to, but why even start? Either way, we were doing our part, jumping on crazy Andujar for six early runs. We would cruise. How could anybody blow a six-run lead? You’d have to ask Ed Lynch who did (he was never the same after being attacked by Mariano Duncan in L.A.). What he didn’t give back, Orosco did. It was 6-6 in the ninth after McGee homered off Jesse. We should never have let it get this far and now we had no right to expect what happened next: Mookie singled, Wally moved him over and Keith — MEX! — singled to left. Mookie, who used to score from second on ground balls for bad Mets teams, wasn’t going to be denied a chance to put his speed to good use. Vince Coleman fumbled the ball and Mookie scored. The Mets won.

Baseball Thursday was a success. George Plimpton, who during spring training had invented a Mets’ pitcher better than Dwight Gooden named Sidd Finch, immortalized the day and night in Sports Illustrated, writing about his befuddlement over the New York City subway system; he tried to attend each ballgame by mass transit but was practically dizzy by night’s end and hitched a ride home in a bus. While Plimpton tried to find his way back to Manhattan, the Mets had forged a path to first place and a one-game lead over St. Louis. Even before that third game, the Mets were winners. They showed the coin toss on TV between the Mets and Cards to determine home field in the event of a one-game playoff. The coin fell the Mets’ way. “We’ll play at home,” announced a no-kidding Frank Cashen. Everything was going right for the Mets.

Then it stopped. The Mets, like Plimpton, got lost. No foolin’. They went 6-5 after Baseball Thursday. The White Rat and his Redbirds shook off Shea and soared. Won seven. Lost one. Won seven more. While the Mets fell into an offensive rut (Wally gave up trying to switch-hit and Davey got desperate enough to try washed-up acquiree Larry Bowa at second), the Cardinals did everything right. The Mets’ conquest of their rival in what seemed like a decisive series wound up proving nothing. Just when I thought they were for real, they couldn’t maintain any momentum and they would let me down. This would become a pattern of theirs that would haunt me again and again after 1985, but I couldn’t have known that then.

The Mets went on the road in late September to Save Our Season. They played a game in Wrigley Field. Carter, now on fire and as good as advertised, hit a grand slam in the sixth. I rejoiced. My mother, as capricious as ever, was mad at me for watching. It was Yom Kippur. I was not observant. My mother decided I was. I watched on my own TV. The Cubs came back and won. Infer your own theological theories. Doc made everything right the next day. My dad went to Chicago, though not for the game. He had business at O’Hare. I had business at home. Not just the game and whatever sporadic freelancing that was on deck but a hurricane to prepare for.

Hurricane Gloria was coming to Long Island. Dad flew back the same day and we battened down the hatches. The Mets went to Pittsburgh. Friday, the whole family, Suzan and Mark included, went to a shelter set up at South Side High School in Rockville Centre. We dragged all kinds of necessities. Hefty Bags full of them. We had these hardening bagels fit for no weather. My mother yelled at my father to pack them in a Hefty. When everybody got desperate at the shelter, who’d look like an idiot then?

It wasn’t a long stay at South Side. I ran into a junior high friend of mine, Stephen. He’s the guy who called me before the 1977 season to tell me he was switching from Mets to Yankees. I never had much use for him after that. He started telling me that through whatever company he was working for, he’d been getting really great seats for Yankees games. I excused myself, melted into the crowd and never saw him again. Yankee arrogance is something you can afford to lose in a storm.

When we returned to Long Beach, there was no great damage to the house but the power was out. My mother fretted. Maybe she panicked. Possibly both. She could multitask that way. We ate whatever was in the fridge, lit a few candles and I broke out the batteries. The Mets were still in Pittsburgh. They were still in the race.

Ed Lynch lasted two innings. The Mets led 5-2. By the end of the third, Gorman, no longer in his 3:00 AM Fifth of July form, had allowed three runs and Wes Gardner allowed three more. The lights never came on that night in Long Beach or at Three Rivers. Pirates won 8-7. We were 4-1/2 back with eight to play. Newsday ran our obituary the next morning: New York Mets, 1962-1985…”They were 23.”

Silly newspaper. It was 1985. Nothing was that cut, dried and buried. We got the power back at home and on the road. George Foster homered. Rick Aguilera went eight. The Mets won. The Cardinals split with the Expos. The next day, Sunday, HoJo tied it in the top of the ninth and Carter put us ahead in the top of the tenth. The Mets won again. The Cardinals lost again.

The Mets were three back with six to play. And the first three they’d play?

In St. Louis.

Idiotic software dictates that the exciting conclusion of Flashback Friday: 1985 follow in a separate post. We didn’t have these problems back in 1985. We just used a pen and a notebook, by cracky, and we’d write ’til our wrists cramped…and we loved it!